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I’ve just woken up to seven sets of fantastic questions. Some fun, some deep, some confronting, some straightforward. I’ll take them strictly in the order of posting and I’ll linger lovingly over each set - and get to yours in due course, . . . . so go on asking if you want to.
On Sat Aug 7 I wrote:
It's finally time for me to join the ranks of those who play the three questions game.
So, whatever you care to ask I will answer truthfully and discursively.
(But I reserve the right to be ambiguous lol)
Q Tell us about your 'First' time:
A Arrrghhhh …….. ! We went out for almost a year and never did it, just lots and lots of steamy petting sessions whenever we could escape from other people. Then I moved to London, my first job and a real flat. I was mildly disappointed, but not truly upset, when he came down to town and told me he had a new girl friend. We got into my tiny single bed and just did it. I don’t know why. I think we both sort of felt we owed it to the relationship that had been. Afterwards he said in a diffident voice, “I’m not much good at it, am I?” I don’t think I saw him again, ever. That was 40 years ago. I’m sure he’s improved heaps since, and so have I.
Q Have you ever been in 'real' love?
A Most of my adult life - - with lots of different men. Hehehe. Seriously, I suppose ‘real’ love is the love that lasts a lifetime. If that’s so there’s only one man in my life where the love has lasted a whole lifetime: his lifetime. When my son was born I spent a couple of days sitting in a hospital bed fairly shocked (it was my first baby and one month premature). Then on the third day I was bending over him changing his nappy and I suddenly asked myself, “what is this little creature lying on the mattress?” I started looking closely and touching him and stroked him all over. As I touched him I could feel myself falling deeply, irrevocably in love and everything changed. That love transferred itself automatically to my daughter the moment I knew she’d been conceived and in my second pregnancy I knew what it was to love someone inside my uterus I’d not yet met.
That was almost 29 years ago, and I have loved them both for two lifetimes now.
Q What is the one thing in your life that you would've changed, if you were able to go back?
A Tomorrow I’ll have to tell sexyfitwoman about the love of my life. I would go back and play that one differently if I had the chance; I would stop myself running away from that. But of course if I had turned the clock back and played it differently I wouldn’t be sharing my life with these two wonderful children I’ve just written about.
I guess what I would really want to change (and still will if I can find out how) is my capacity to love people my own size. There was so much in my background that turned this off and belittled it as I was growing up. If I could have loved more openheartedly many things in my life would have played out better, both for myself and others. Yes that’s what I would change.
Thank you for your questions Jim!
This is Polly, still Wagging
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8/6/2005 10:28 pm
Your description of falling in love with your children left me feeling disappointment about not having had any myself. You made the undescribable, describable. |
You would want to change the capacity to love people your own size. I am not sure I understand that phrase. Are you saying if only you had been open to all the love that was shown towards you, you would have been much more successful as a person?
8/6/2005 11:59 pm
I completely connect with the love for your children. I was so totally against having kids, I just can't describe what an ass I was when my wife told me she was pregnant. I went to the classes but clammed up, wouldn't share, wouldn't let anyone in. Then came the actual event. I attended the birth and when the nurse held up my daughter, it was all I could do to choke back the tears of joy. She held her head up and looked me square in the eyes as if to say, "I'm all yours, but just for a little while." I still get all watery-eyed when I think about it. |
I get that same feeling when I realize that someone I'm involved with or connected to is for real. Truth is so deep.
8/7/2005 4:34 pm
Waggy, your answers are touching and the comments rich also. Falling in love with your offspring is something, isn't it? You've made me remember something I should write... thanks...|
Not all who wander are lost.
8/8/2005 7:36 am
What is your favorite book, and how many times have you read it?|