Pizza Makes Things Better  

vrec_dawn 39M
854 posts
5/27/2006 1:00 pm

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5/28/2006 2:34 pm

Pizza Makes Things Better

Well, I'm feeling a little better now. I guess I just had to let it all out for a while. Cry myself to sleep, literally. Which is funny since I slept 11 hours before that and it wasn't like it was all late in the day yet. Depression is exhausting. You don't really hear about excitement being exhausting. There must be some body chemistry involved. Anyway...

So after my nap I went for a walk. No real destination in mind, yet I ended up downtown, again. It's like a magnet. My friend's store was closed ... again. I swear he's never in. But actually, I didn't really feel like talking, so it's not so bad.

I noticed a new store, a gaming store, opened up. I talked to the owner a bit. He's a nice guy. But I'm just not into the new role playing games and trading card games and such. I'm an old school gamer I guess. Except that I don't really game anymore. It'd be nice to, but I don't know of any groups that game the stuff I want to play. Or, well, any that game period.

Anywho, so then I grabbed some pizza. Pizza helps. I don't know why, but it's hard to be depressed around good pizza. Not that awful Pizza Hut or Dominoes crap. That stuff is only good because they deliver. I mean real pizza, hand tossed crust and all. Well, anyway, so it was good food.

And the light drizzle while I walked was nice too. Though it's humid enough out there to drown you, and hot enough to bake you. Yuck. I'm so not looking forward to summer. It might be different in a nudist colony or something, but wearing clothes in sticky hot weather? Yuck.

So anyway, I'm feeling a little better. Still a bit antisocial though. Still a lot depressed. Just not morbidly so anymore. Not sure what to say to the friends that I'd talked about camping in my backyard with. But then the weekend isn't over yet. Maybe I'll feel up to it tomorrow. Or something. Or not. Who knows?


angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
5/28/2006 8:19 am

Depression IS exhausting. I read your previous blogs...and I think what you are feeling about your soon to be "ex" wife is very normal. It is a part of the grieving process...and you just have to walk through it. There will be light at the other end of the tunnel....and a sensitive, caring man such as yourself will find the right lovely lady to share your love with. I guarantee it. And in the meantime.....have a slice of pizza!


vrec_dawn replies on 5/28/2006 11:10 am:
Thanks. Though it may be a while before any right lovely ladies come my way. Or at least a while before I go looking again.

TammyDHU 45F
246 posts
5/28/2006 11:53 am

I hear ya. I get those days with those moods too. It happens to me sometimes when I have a weekend like this when all my friends are gone out of town or something and I really don't have anything much to do. Most of the time I'm okay with just being alone and doing my own thing. For some reason though, this weekend it isn't working.

I find myself sleeping a lot. But then it's okay to rejuvenate the body for the rest of the workweek coming up. When Tuesday rolls around I will be out and at it again.

Take good care of yourself, and remember, if the feelings continue to be bad for a very long time, it never hurts to go have a chat with your doctor...

Happy Memorial Day!!!

-T.


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