Smell The Roses..  

vixenslounge 48M/48F
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6/24/2006 6:02 pm

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Smell The Roses..

I'll begin by saying that my brother passed away many moons ago.Yet i still go and bring ROSES from our garden to his "special" place.A very dear close friend of mine is buried not to far from my brother.His name is "Mugsy"...Man i miss him sooooooo.Once a year i go and i bring roses from our garden and place them on their"grave" site.It's just a ritual that I alone have started.Memories of "Mugsy" on the back of his bike...catching all the bugs because he was soooooo big...lol.My brother because he lived next to my father....and did his best to "give" that authority figure to me.I remember one time...when i was camping with my girlfriend and her parents.(To this day...were still the best of friends)Well it was late and her parents were pissed...we were camping at Sherkston.Anyway it was like 2:00 am....Her dad was determined to bring me home.My brother came out with a shot gun...wondering who the fuck was there...lololol..My dad lived next door.Needless to say..we were never allowed to hang out with each other.....YEAH OK..lololoolWhatever.....I'll never forget my brother's fiance saying to me after one of my friends passed away....That i will lose more friends in my lifetime" How true her words.I have....lost to many people that I loved and cared for.I do believe in the "afterlife"Whenever i go downstairs in the shower,the light seems to flicker....now wait a minute...that doesn't happen all the time.Once i say.....Johnny" just don't turn the lights out...it stops.I'm holding the Rose in my hand now...knowing that...He's here....I guess if you pay attention to what you don't see.... They are the answers....that you wish to ignore....
I'm a true believer...because i've had my strange incidents.I remember one time when my brother 1st passed away.I decided to stay at my dads place.He was gone "up north" building his house.Anyway...it was late and i always crashed at my dads place,,,whether it was in my car or his van.Well this nite i decided to stay in the house.Holy fuck.!!!The phone rang at like 2:00 am....which it never does.I answered and there was no one there.Ok i ignored it.Till it rang again....By now...i'm spooked.Especially because from my dads door to the driveway....it was like an eternity.My dads place was an add on.My brother lived in the apt on the main floor as you were walking out.No way man.....I was at my sisters down the road in no time..lol.To this day.....i may ask my questions or whatever....I just know........I'm not afraid anymore...It's an acceptance,an understanding... I love them both,As i love others ...and i have those.....that watch over me....as you do as well...
Kisses miss vixen xoxo


smackyman 45M
3843 posts
6/25/2006 9:17 pm

Those good memories of your brother and Mugsy are great things. Hold those memories close...


vixenslounge 48M/48F

6/26/2006 7:16 am

    Quoting smackyman:
    Those good memories of your brother and Mugsy are great things. Hold those memories close...
My memories I cherish.For thats all I have left.
Thanks Smacky....
Kisses miss vixen xoxo


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