Sick in the head  

velvetgrrrl 39F
1118 posts
8/25/2006 2:30 pm

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Sick in the head

Did you miss me?

Did you even notice I've been missing these last few days?

Well if you had my lovelies I've missed you too. I had some personal dilemnas as of recently that sadly have taken control of my attention. I'll be back to harass you all soon and I have a post I'd love the input of the bloggers who frequent my little page.

I now most go catch up on some reading make a few posts and run back to work.

I'm incapable however of sadness right now as I'm not allowed to be sick in the head. Medication has run it's course in the last week adn I don't feel capable of anything except panic. This could be a bad effect since it had me near screaming. the feel of my heart trying to explode from my chest and the urge to rip my skin off. But that's neither here nor there.
These adverse effects are the result of better living through modern chemistry. Drugs apparently are supposed to help make the world go round but I feel they are just a means to alleviate the underlying issue and to supply a band aid fix for a problem that maybe with time and proper diagnosis can be treated. Also they keep many a doctor in clientele.

Then again some of us are just fuckin nuts eh?

Jaded? Sure of course I'm jaded. Live my life and say you're going to walkinto a situation with blinders on. You obvioulsy haven't been dicked around or fucked over in a way that leaves you feeling violated. Good for you. We need more honest o[en happy people out there to balance out all the bitter resentment.

Anyhow these meds although, alleviating the sadness make me a little too anxious for my own good and anxiety, a familiar territory, is not something i wish to be dealing with. Anyone have any natural techniques to help keep a cat calm cool and collected????

Hell is when u should have walked away, but u didn't.

NickRules999 39M
9464 posts
8/25/2006 4:13 pm

Welcome back. I missed you.

I'm not sure about how to deal with anxiety, even though I get that sometimes. Music might help. I know it somewhat helps me.

Also, I'll put in a game. I know that playing Doom, Mortal Kombat, arcade classics, or even any WWE game helps me relax.

If all else fails, try the Beavis & Butthead DVDs. LOL

Come into my realm! You aren't afraid...are you?

velvetgrrrl 39F

8/25/2006 6:44 pm

Nick Awwww thats so awesome. Yeah I've been writing things down. I've been listening to some mellow music of all things. Maybe I'm getting old and easy listening is becoming my choice? nawwwwwwww I like everything too much. Besides ex raver metal girlhere I like my drum beats, synth samples and loud guitars.

I haven't plyed many games since my PS2 went down. I kind of miss my soul calibur III.

Beavis and Butthead? Ack. I'll settle for Invader Zim though cause I have the series

Hell is when u should have walked away, but u didn't.

qyxx 60F
3267 posts
8/25/2006 6:53 pm

I noticed you had been missing as well, welcome back and I am glad things are going a little better.

As for how to achieve that state, it has taken me years to get here and sometimes I can flip out on a dime. Good luck in finding your equilibrium.


velvetgrrrl 39F

8/25/2006 7:00 pm

qyxx Thanks so much
its kind a new place for me cause I've revelled in my derpession and only lately determined that my behaviour is going to ultimately push my freind's away and thats the last thing I need is to spend a lot of time with myself for company. So I sought out help and I"m just hoping we can find a medication that makes my life not so unhappy but also doesn't leave me feeling vegetated
*big hugs*
I'm off to go read and respond to your blog now

Hell is when u should have walked away, but u didn't.

TonyPlays 64M

8/25/2006 9:45 pm

Working out at the health club makes me feel 100% usually.

cuteNEway 41F

8/25/2006 9:48 pm

YAY you're back! I love reading you

velvetgrrrl 39F

8/25/2006 10:15 pm

Cute Girl how do I get your number or send you mine? We should so talk away from this place sometime. I want to knock your head for a comment you made on one of your posts...let me know if you use MSN at all k?

Hell is when u should have walked away, but u didn't.

FlashMunky 49F

9/4/2006 7:56 pm

Velvet, listening to soothing music makes me want to tear my skin off or turn from FlashMunky to RageMunky in seconds flat. I am an ADD anxiety chic so I give your post some respect. The only thing that helps me is to get music going that feels my mood and lets me feel slower than the music. I'm not recommending this practice, mind you, but it feels better. Perhaps it is like a hyper ass kid taking Ritalyn. "Mommy, more speed!"

My brain tracks like the fast forward on a bad movie....

Sometimes the pause button gets me scared that I'm missing something or the bad part is around the corner. I fucking hate it.

I sometimes disappear for days, too.

Feel free to call me. You know I'm here for you and you can be as down and pissed and whatever as you can be and I can take it. Maybe sometimes I'll dish it back.

Hopefully we'll both come back for more when it's needed.

xoxo - Munk

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