Let's get retarded....  

velvetgrrrl 39F
1118 posts
8/9/2006 1:48 pm

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8/13/2006 4:01 am

Let's get retarded....

This is the confessional of a web cam whore. A girl who uses the aid of a simple little Quick Cam Logitech to gain the admiration and adoration of many desperate men. Men who need the aid and anonymity of a girl viewable from a little box on the screen of their PC's, laptops and Mac's to help kickstart their imaginations. Here is her story

Today is another day as I stare in the mirrror reflecting the image staring back at me. I push up my bra in the hopes to make them appear a bit perkier even after almost thirty years and watch as they fall back into the place from whence we started. I sigh. Oh well. I check my face again to make sure the makeup I had applied earlier was not so smeared it would make for an unattractive image. Satisfied with my appearance I shut off the bathroom light and head for my throne, the computer chair, where my public awaits.

I sit down and the site awaits at the log in screen. Familiar with the site from countless granted accesses I'm in. One step down. I pull into a chat room full of need of sex of wanton desires denied to those for whatever reason. The vibe is apparent as I enter and the room greets me with a forage of hellos and how are you doing's. The icon appears next to my handle and I await the onslaught as the familiar camera to my handle reminds people of what I do.

Hey baby, you're hot!

Wanna see me stroke my cock for you?

Let's see your titties!

Show me your pussy please!

So hot baby show boobies!

Oh my god! Get off the cam!

What I laugh about is some of these men think I'm going to listen to them. I position the cam on my cleavage and they continue to shout their demands, their requests and their poor grammar. The one's who write to me in their native language humour me in the most as they speak to me in German, in French and in Spanish like I'm automatically of that descent. More and more they demand. I push up my breasts for a better cleavage line and the demands increase in the little message window and on the chat screen. I show a nipple. Let the brain cells depart. Is that a piercing? I see pop up as messages. What else is pierced? Is your clit pierced? I wanna scream at their ignorance. No you dumbasses if you pierce a clit you'll more than likely lose any sensation, instead, I continue to smile. I pull out the other breast, flash another pierced nipple and promptly put it away wth a sweet smile the safety of my bedroom comforting as I continue in various forms of dress and undress.

After some time I tire of the requests. No one really has anything more to say than a mere request for free porn in order to better aid their masturbation fantasy. Amateur directors they've all become. An egocentric mind thinking somehow they're going to be listened to when they make their requests. It all starts to feel too dirty. No one understands what they get to see is free as they make more demands for a flash of pussy so they can finish masturbating to the idea of a real girl that they couldn't get in real life for whatever reason. Or the fantasy that she's the cheap whore who will do anything they want. The girl who will take it in the ass. The girl they can choke as they fuck her. The girl who will bring her friends so he can finally get that threesome he's always wanted. No one ever cares what I want though. Me. The girl on the other side of your Window. And do you blame them? I blatantly come on here and expose myself even if I don't show anything other than my face with that rare brave moment as there is no reason to be ashamed of one's body. I smile really pretty for my audience as I remind myself I can make it stop anytime. I blow a kiss and wave with those fingers as I "X" out of the cam window and power off the computer.

Hell is when u should have walked away, but u didn't.

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
8/11/2006 10:25 pm

How true.........they demand but never consider why your there or what you might want or feel. This is a really good post.

8321 posts
8/13/2006 12:26 am

It seems to me that you are just wanting attention, which is why most women cam.

I think those type of responses from men are to be expected.

Par for the course.

If you don't like it, why do you do it?


"My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer to embrace an early death." -Tupac Shakur

velvetgrrrl 39F

8/13/2006 4:01 am

DIV~I like to put myself up on cam. I admit. This isn't about me per se although I did use some of my experiences to write this. As well as some of my thoughts and emotions and what others have experienced. I like to cam. I like people to be able ot realize I'm just as goofy in real life as I come across online when I chat. I like people to know what I look like with my ever changiing ways cause if you pull up my image these days hair is black when my original profile pic is red. I'm not trying to attract your attention, if I was you'd know. You know you think what you like about my motivations for camming you are not me and therefore can not begin to fathom why I do what I do but I appreciate your theory!

Saint~ Thank you so much. I was trying to approach it from another method. I"m not on there flashing my personal parts. I like to maintain mystery but I've watched so many countless others do it. And it seems when a guy looks at a woman on cam some of the common sense you expect with a grown adult goes out the window. Although it could be cultural differences as well

Hell is when u should have walked away, but u didn't.

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