I have a headache this big  

velvetgrrrl 39F
1118 posts
9/9/2006 7:39 pm

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9/11/2006 2:42 pm

I have a headache this big

Just a random posting as I've had to slow down on my posting due to real life. Been incredibly busy and trying to make a few extra dollars in order to get life in order. And start saving for Christmas.

That's right . It is already to start thinking about the most materialistic of holidays. The giving of gifts. The traveling of miles. The feasting of yesteryear (and that one we have to consider twice).

I post alone in my home for the first time in a while. Family is out and about with aunt. baby is with dad and I'm alone with a raging headache. Figures. Here's to hoping that Tylenol will do its job and rescue me from this fate otherwise it will only escalate I'm sure.

I heard from my ex that I started on AdultFriendFinder today in regards to a situation that apparently I haven't been able to handle by being direct or being nice. Someone told me if you feel bothered, just be up front about it. I had to explain i had been but it apparently isn't working. Maybe I should just try celibacy so most people will just leave me alone period.

On that note, I am rekindling a relationship. One that I have neglected for a long time. The relationship with myself. For quite a while I've needed, or felt I've needed, to be around others in order to keep myself happy. Like I wasn't too thrilled with myself. To a degree they were right. I wasn't happy with myself. I wasn't where I wanted to be. Have any of your plans been put off? Have you failed at something you set out to do? It's very disconcerting. It also makes one feel too much like a failure. Which is one thing I've never enjoyed. From the time of childhood to now.

Well the headache is a bit painful now I must go lie down in the hopes to make it go away.

Perhaps soaking in water will help.....

Until our paths destine to cross again

Take care of you!

Hell is when u should have walked away, but u didn't.

(Simon )

9/9/2006 8:49 pm

The headache comes from thinking too much....Good luck on this crossroad darling. Take it easy and fuck christmas o.k.?

XXX Simon

NickRules999 39M
9462 posts
9/9/2006 11:20 pm

Ya know, I can somewhat relate with what you said. I, too, am often met with failure in many things I try. And I have put off many things. I've put stuff off for too long, and I try to convince myself to do these things I put off, but somehow, I can't get motivated. My book is one such thing. Next time we chat, I'll tell you about it. I think it's an ADD thing. I do it quite a bit. I wish I could stay focused, and interested, in a lot of things I start.

Take it easy.

Come into my realm! You aren't afraid...are you?

Passion247000 46F
3195 posts
9/10/2006 12:22 am

"I am rekindling a relationship. One that I have neglected for a long time. The relationship with myself." ~~~~~ something for me to ponder and think about....Yes...I have neglected that too....

A nap usually works for me.... Hope you're feel better now....

Take care of yourself....hope our paths cross once more....I have missed you in my world....

lustthingsfirst2 48M

9/10/2006 8:47 pm

"You can't love others until you love yourself" I know that's an old cliche, but I've found it to be true. You also can't be honest with others until you're honest with yourself. Someone once told me, "if you want to find someone to fill a hole in yourself, it's probably the wrong reason. If you want to find someone to share your life and experiences with, you're probably ready" (no pun in that passage is intended). Life is a journey my friend, I hope our paths will cross one day.... until then.. take care of yourself and flourish.

AtomicArtist0 45M
6015 posts
9/10/2006 11:41 pm

damn...what are the chances? the one and only day you're alone and you have a splitting headache. take care of yourself...until our paths destined to cross again as you say.

ImHere4Fun1979 37M
14 posts
9/10/2006 11:52 pm

Good, I am glad you finally got the picture and are starting to take care of #1. You are right about your needing to be around others to keep yourself happy, and now do you realize it never really did make you happy? Since you weren't happy yourself? Be friends with yourself, that way you will really understand that a friend is, and how to keep them, and what not to do.

cuteNEway 41F

9/11/2006 12:23 am

I've failed at so much I wouldn't know success if it bit me...

dasher121 36M

9/11/2006 9:16 am

def a cross road I came to a few years back, in my last semester at college. All my friends had gone already, I lived alone. And really, I needed to turn into a hermit for those last few months. Life was kind of closing in around me.

Be patient and take your time working on yourself. The rest of the pieces should fall into place accordingly and on their own. Much luck to you,


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