When they don't know but what they see.  

urwaymyway 51M
2 posts
12/25/2005 11:42 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

When they don't know but what they see.

When people look at me what do they see. Just an average guy. Right. But my heart is to please others. I have spent my life making others happy and forgot about me. I am shy and my voice was made fun of when I was a kid so I have a hard time talking. But I did a video and spoke. I think I sound stupid but thats what I was always told. I grew up in a house of seeing videos where everyone is bigger. But I took a picture of me for all to see. I'll beat this stuff. I was married to a lady that told me of all the big guys she was with but you know they couldn't get her off but I could. If your a guy a blessed be thankful and if your not use all of you and you can make up for it. If your a lady I can leave you impressed but you might not be sore if you know what I mean. LOL Alan

Hunterbj 42M

12/25/2005 1:14 pm

ALAN- Have you ever considered taking a step back then just falling into yourself? It holds the answers to what you seek. We have shortfalls in some way shape or form. It's the effort and achievements we go through to combat and overcome those shortfalls. That is the true measure of success not failure. Developing and finding your OWN happiness will productively bleed on any beknownest soul out there and spread like a social paul revere butterfly. You must find your own happiness before you can even attempt to find someone elses.

urwaymyway 51M
1 post
12/25/2005 1:48 pm

I wish I had something to fall back on. I was molested by my Mom and her Boyfriend when I was 3. My Grandfather caught them. by 2 teenagers when I was 5. Started working for my Grandfather when I was 7. Painting houses. Couldn't be perfect enough. Raised by a Dad that beat me for not being able to read like he thought I should. I don't know what I got to fall back on. I am alone a Christmas typing this cause well I have been alone all my life trying to protect myself from others. Most people can't see a heart I have found but I have learned to look deep inside a person but I guess I can't see inside me. Thanks for your help and I read every word and try to apply it to me.

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