TGIF  

upncummer692 44M
42 posts
7/22/2005 2:50 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

TGIF

ROSES HAVE THORNS,
SHINING WATERS, MUD,
CANCER LURKS DEEP,
IN THE SWEETEST BUD,
CLOUDS AND ECLIPSES,
STAIN THE MOON AND THE SUN,
AND HISTORY REAKS,
OF THE WRONGS WE HAVE DONE.
AFTER TODAY, AFTER TODAY, AFTER TODAY
CONSIDER ME GONE, CONSIDER ME GONE, GONE, GONE.

GORDON SUMNER...AKA STING


rm_beullah 55F
25 posts
8/14/2005 10:18 am

That was a quote from Erich Fromm, which I failed to mention. Personally, I didn't find it judgemental at all. On the contrary, I related to it.

When I depend on someone else for my happiness, I always come up short. However, when I look inward and work at developing my own inner maturity and sense of worth, then I find I have more to give, which naturally draws others toward me. Of course I still fall short of the mark many times and get wrapped up in the idea of some Prince Charming out there that will fulfill all my needs. It's tough. (and always worse with PMS lol) Songwriters and poets have been perpetuating that crap forever. The good news for me is that recognizing when I'm doing it is half the battle. It's only then that I can look inward to find out what fear is fueling my behavior, conquer it, and stop trying to make others responsible for the way I feel.

For me, sex/lust is like going to an amusement park...it's all about the ride and the rush...it's entertainment in it's most primal form. The real connection for me comes when I can be alone with someone or away from them, in silence or in a crowd, no urgency, no need to make small talk, no neediness, just enjoying that person for who they are and simply sharing their energy.

I wish you luck on your quest.

Namaste


rm_beullah 55F
25 posts
8/15/2005 2:01 am

I couldn't agree with you more, which is why I stick to sharing my experiences rather then offering advice. If people believed in everything I said, we'd allllllll be nucking futs!

IMHO, it's not about what's right or wrong, but what works and doesn't work for each individual. We all have a different path to walk and different lessons to learn. Hopefully we share along the way.

I'm not here to live or die, I'm just here to enjoy the ride...and I'll take the roller coaster over the merry-go-round anyday!


rm_beullah 55F
25 posts
8/18/2005 12:37 am

Wow, got a lil sand in your vagina honey?


rm_beullah 55F
25 posts
8/18/2005 4:00 am

If you don't like my posts sweetie, then don't read them. No need to be rude. This isn't even your blog.


rm_beullah 55F
25 posts
8/19/2005 9:17 am

As for "ownership" of this blog, I'm welcome to post here as are you and anyone else that cares to. Whether it's interpreted as rambling or ranting is not my concern. I write what I think.

I'm not going to stoop to a shit slinging contest with you. The "sand in the vagina" remark was out of line and I applogize. Other than that I can't find anything I've said to warrant so much hostility from you. With that, I'm going to assume you just have a lot of other emotional issues to work out and I sincerely wish you well. I hope you find some peace.


rm_beullah 55F
25 posts
8/23/2005 7:44 pm

Having lost so many friends and family to drugs,suicide,AIDS etc., I've come to accept death as being part of life, and I'm grateful for having crossed paths with every one of them. They've all played some part in making me who I am today.

I believe our purpose in life is to learn lessons, whatever they may be, and Mother puts them in front of us over and over again till we get it right.

When a 14 y/o dies of an overdose in her own bed, I have to wonder if she was here to learn, or to teach.

If just one child that attends her viewing/funeral tomorrow gets a new perspective on life then she will not have died in vain...tho that's not much consolation to distraught and grieving Mother.

I wish them peace. Blessed be.


rm_beullah 55F
25 posts
8/23/2005 8:46 pm

Another thought on this topic:

I caught myself thinking "it's a shame that kids don't realize the affect they have on their family and friends". It occured to me I'm just as guilty.

The greatest gift I can think of in this life is this; when this life ends, instead of a funeral, I'd love for there to be a huge party. Celebrate my life, don't mourn my death. Did I make you laugh? Did something I say or do have a profound affect on you? Was I useful to you in some way? If so, then share that event, celebrate it, then "pay it forward".

It's easy to see how others have affected my life, but it almost seems egotistical to focus on how I may have affected someone else's life. I have to admit it certainly gives me a sense of purpose and a feeling of wellbeing. Guess there really is no such thing as an altruistic good deed.

I may be rambling, so what? I'm a sympathetic Mom and this one hit close to home. I think today I'll meditate on what I can do to make a difference in someone's life today.

Namaste


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