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So, I have been thinking for the last couple of days about sex. Nothing unusual, but I have been thinking along the lines of the old time affair, or when a mistress was really a mistress not a female standing before you with a but plug and blindfold in one hand and a gag and whip in the other. No, I'm talking about the kind of thing where two people married to others sneak around and have a real affair.
Why does it always have to be about sex? What about a deep emotional connection? No doubt I know the rules and play the game very well. Read my profile, it clearly states all I am looking for is sex. But, I often wonder if my search for sex really is just an excuse to feel another persons skin touching mine, to feel human contact, in whatever way I can get it. I wonder if it is just a way to cover my loneliness.
I bring up these points tonight because I think I would rather be the mistress. I would rather a man come to me for comfort and friendship, then to come to me for a quick roll and then gone. Casual sex has a lot of benefits no doubt, but for me the light has burned out there. The excitement is gone. Meeting men for nameless sex has become as about as exciting as going to the grocery store. I yearn for something more, like silly phone calls in the middle of day saying I want you, holding hands. Someone telling me they need me, or, can't stop thinking about me.
But, I guess romance really is dead and sex has replaced the good stuff. So on I trod for more casual sex, but, I think always... I will want more.
12/3/2005 8:24 pm
Chocolate tastes real good, but if you eat it too much or
that's all you eat, then you get sick of it.
You think that's the reason you feel as you do?
Yes, I can see where too much sex can be a cover-up for other things like loneliness.
Don't worry, romance is still *very,very* much alive!!!
I'm absolutely sure of it!
12/3/2005 9:40 pm
Romance is not dead. You must inspire someone to find it though. I agree that "nameless sex" leaves much to be desired. Too much, in fact. Without an emotional bond sex loses its intimacy and becomes more like exercise. |
It is difficult to separate romance from love however. If you cannot let yourself fall in love, then you may have to forego the romance.