The Longest Post In Blog History  

travelingintexas 41M
11/11/2005 7:10 pm
The Longest Post In Blog History

"Yea though You walk through the Valley of the Shadow of Death, You will fear no evil; because you're the baddest motherfuckers in the valley!"

Thank you to those who have served so I can shoot my mouth off.

On Sunday June 26th, I somehow tripped into this place. No tiptoeing for me because when your 6'2, 275lbs you don't tiptoe. If I showed you a picture of my eyes from that day you would see a man glassy eyed and shivering. Broken and defeated with life. That is how I entered this place. Many of you arrive here in a good mood and just to have fun. Some of you are searching. Some of you have no idea why you are here. Not so me. I needed a place to vent. We are all different and need different things.

Over the next 3 months I set up shop every day in a Starbucks in Texas. From 3PM until 3AM I was writing, playing, griping, fighting and learning to live again. At night, I would go to a house but not a home. When I would arrive there it would be completely dark. I would push the cell phone key lock button and use that little bit of light to see my way through this empty house to a room with just a bed.

I have taken some time to think. About what I want from this place now on the new leg of my journey through this experience called life. My last post, my 285 post, was a wake up call for me and many others. I wondered to myself "how can I go back to that place to those people to that site?"

Last night as I did my best to walk through a dark house to the place where I sleep, I again used my phone to provide me with light. Halfway there, I stopped and just stood there in the darkness with the light illuminating my way to my place of rest. And it hit me. As in real life, where I had used a cell phone for its light I have used this place as a light into the very window of my soul. The light? You. Recorded in the thousands of comments that you have given to me.

I have never been so humbled in all of my life. As soon as my last post went up, my email and my messenger lit up like a Christmas tree. People I didn't even know were emailing me and guessing my messenger address. I was and still am overwhelmed by the response. How does one come back after my last post? He does it by using the words of his friends that have provided so much light when all that surrounded was darkness.

[blog daphner]-I love you Brat. "And I love you too. You have filled my heart with joy and laughter."
[blog saintlianna]-Texas, please dont quit. You need this "You are right. I do."
Blondeeee-Take Care and I applaud you for standing up. "You too and if you hadn't stood up in the first place you wouldn't be the first class mother I know you to be."
Dran- I wish I had better words, but I don't. "I too wish I had better words, but your tears shone brightly for me."
Bard- Those that accept you are your friend. "This has been one of the hardest things for me to come to terms with in my personal life. However, looking around at you guys, what else do I need?"
[blog dariuscole]- because he is my friend. "I sir, am honored."
PK- We're here for you, sweets. "I am awed into silence by your outpouring of support."
[blog SunnyD54]- I will say that I have laughed here, and cried here (especially now) and I always come away from reading you thinking. "What an amazing compliment!"
Siz- It should never have come to this. "Right you are on so many levels."
Tills- Stay sweetie.... "Yes Ma'am!"
HOT- I will miss you soooo much if you decide to stop your blog. "If I stopped, I would miss each of you too. Just not worth it to me."
[blog sj365]-stay, because in the big picture? those of us who adore you, 'get' you. "Scary! You adore me? You admitted to it?"
Spin- That is the only name calling that should ever happen here. "Spin, that was extremely powerful to me. And oh so true."
2x- I suspect you'd be fine company in most any venue, and for that I would call you a friend. "What an amazing compliment. One I am humbled by. I could have swore though that God's country was in MY backyard?"
impish_pixie- get on with writing the things that make me laugh out loud. "How could I not after hearing this? Your words brought light to my heart!
[blog elysia2005]-ALWAYS welcome you with open arms and a warm smile. "How could I walk away from this?"
xessex03- And remember, If you leave now, you're turning your back on us, your readers. And if you were the type to do that... Why the hell was I reading you in the first place? "This is the one that struck me in the forehead like a hammer. I sat and reread it several times. Thank for reminding me to pull my head out of my ass and look around."
xolookin4loveox-continue on your journey. "I am amazed and truly humbled that you would break your silence and stand up for me in this way."
carebearluv2- I need some light in my blog life! "Wow... I agree with every word you spoke. What an incredible compliment!"
[blog luke69iner]- I had really hoped that Blogland was better than this ... As quick as we are to send kind words to those that are hurting we are just as quick to take sides and hurt others with our words ... "I believe that blogland is better than this. That it should be a place of fun, freedom and exploration. I also believe that as humans, we are bound to make mistakes. Offering forgiveness openly and honestly is the only way a community can survive."
slidein2meplz- its real people with real thoughts, feelings "Some hide behind monitors, some open up behind monitors. It is all the nature of the beast. Everyone must decide who they will be in this place, but it would be my hope that everyone would stay true to who they are first."
Jezzy and KJ-I will always walk beside you... "What can I say that I haven't already said to both of you. If I had to answer what you guys mean to me, it would take at least a week and the posts would be too numerous to count."
KY- Do what you need to do for you, beau "Just the fact you would call me beau is enough for me. Thank you for the sacrifices you have made for me and my country in the past. What I need is to make you guys laugh, smile, and waving your hands in front of the monitor. "
Sil-That's pretty much all I can say that is meaningful at the moment. "What else did you need to say? Its all I needed to hear!"
mistymommie- I will miss your rantings if you truly do go. "As one of my newest readers, I can't go if you haven't gotten the full brunt of my rantings! That's just not right! Thank you!"
[blog cockmerollme]- never in a million years would have thought Texas had so many pussies... "OK... I really wanted to copy your whole comment in here but you had already done that 46 times. First off, if there is pussy in Texas, I haven't found it. Second off, your a blog all by yourself. Trust me, Don't Mess with Texas. "
candy69sosweet- Stay and heal. We love you, and care for you. "How could I refuse Sickhooteredlady her desires???? Thank you Candy!"
albertprince- Why should you care what I think, make your own choice. "Because I do. Your email helped me make my decision. Why should I leave when there are people that want to get in trouble with me?"
curious082385-I don't know if you will actually read down this far. "I always read down that far. To the very last one. Your kind words mean as much as the first comment to me! I can always use new friends! Come play with me!"
Cruella, Bunz, Bunny, Universal Boobage Lady- You aren't back to where u began here "You are so correct. I am not. I am a different person now. To liken this to where I was when I showed up is asinine. You have thrown me over your shoulder and carried me when I refused to walk. You have kicked my ass. You have prodded me with your whip. You have challenged me and dared me to exceed. There are no words for the gratitude I feel towards you and your unselfish efforts with me. You didn't know me from Adam. Why should you have cared? You had your own friends and problems yet you chose me to walk beside. WOW! What an honor!"
keithcancook- Just sitting here wondering where all the adults have gone on this site? "I admit to being a part of the madness. I would hope you would forgive me."
anchcpl4fun- now let me see if this works.... " LOL It worked " LOL
wetpantyslut2- He's been passionate and always tries to make people feel welcome. "It doesn't seem I have been doing a good job of this lately. I will do better from now on!"
Erogenouskitty- I agree totally with everything you have said. Shoot me an email and lets talk about these questions you have.
[blog 36specialk]-Big hugs and lots of smooches to you and hope your broken heart mends "Its amazing how your words and others picked me up and made me wanna come home."
DTOX, Big Sister, ROYAL PAIN IN THE ASS Remind me to never make you mad at me! HA! Yea right. As stubborn as the three of us are, its amazing we get anything done. You never waver, you never turn, you never shy away from being where and when I need you to be. What can a man say about you? Nothing but the highest praise and adoration for the encouragement and hope you have always given to me.
Blushingtigger- In the short time you have been here, you have become a friend through your words. As far as not being associated with us, please reconsider. We can be pains but we are genuine pains. Each and every one of us.
[blog postingnick]- either stay and post or leave - but don't add to the drama. "I dont know you, but your two cents was utilized well. Tough but wise advice."
[blog humboldhonni]- your friend "I didn't need to hear anything more. You have been true to those words. I hope I have done the same."
five_rides_again I never had a brother. Never gave it much thought. In the time we have come to know each other, I know I was waiting on you. Geez.... That almost sounded like a hallmark card. You were willing to defend me to the best of your ability and were selfless in the act. How does one say enough about that? But you still cant have my budlight"
mnfun952 I dont know you at all. Just what I have read. But like everyone else, I wish you would reconsider.
_CoffeeNoCream_- Please dont? "Well, since you asked so nicely and have coffee in your name lol
synn74 Now I am sad "Don't be sad. I'm Here.... There's more trouble to find!"
[blog titsandtires]- I'll miss Sgt. Dickhead. "HAAAAAAAAAAA Finally! Someone else that misses Sgt. Dickhead. Wait... I'm not Sgt. Dickhead.... Am I?"
[blog hbgirl2]- I hope to eventually see you all back posting again. "Well since you asked so sweetly and have such a great cleavage shot.....]
topfisher- Its up boss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
greeneyesatl05- I'll be your friend "I've never had a belly button for a friend before. Me and mine don't talk! Greeny... I am telling you, I have read your stuff... You and I could make beautiful trouble together...."
[blog corezon]not that anyone knows me or gives a rip about what I think, hey, I'm here, lol,
"Absolutely we do. It wasn't but just a few months ago I was in your position and no one knew who I was. A lot of people still dont have a clue. Sharing your thoughts, your ideas with all of us helps us to discover you and like I told Postinnick, your two cents are always valued. Hell, I am poor in the sense department."

My Light. My light in the darkness. I have used this as an example of the treasure each of you, friend and stranger alike, has given to me over these few months. How can I go when so many here expressed their desire for me to stay. Not because I am fantastic person or somethign special but because I'm a part of something bigger than myself. A community. Many of you I will never meet in this life. But you have added your touch to the light that has become my beacon of light out of my desperation.

Now some housecleaning issues:
Much has been said around the blogs the last few days. I am responsible for portions of it. I take my share of the responsibility. Those that don't understand some of the sense of unity this place has either hasn't been here long enough or isn't here for the same reasons as we are. That is OK. We are all different. However, I told someone the other night, I came here to get laid. Have I? No. Beside the point LOL

This is supposed to be a place of release and escape. A place of fantasy and eroticism. Or if you are on my blog a place of utter crap. Do I knwo why I am on that stupid list? Hell No. Would I be lying if I said I didnt enjoy it? Hell yes. Do I beleive the lists make us any more special? Nope... Not one bit. Know why? Because some day someone else is gonna take my spot or I am going to leave because life begs it. My "spot" won't matter at all then. Plus, last I checked, I still had to use air freshner. Believe it or not, I never sought to be on any list. Because of people like you I am on it. Thats the only reason.

For the record here and now, I only have three profiles. I have always only had three profiles. This one, Texasbelle_ and Sgt. Dickhead. You see how much use those two get.

If you have written me in email, I will be following up those conversations there.

Did 5 and DT and I get into it? Yes we did and we fixed it. We had to. I dont expect everyone to stop but I would ask it to stop. For it to go away. For this to become the place that MzHuny and Expat talk about in their blog posts again. The place that we are excited to be a part of and a place that doesn't include the emotions of the last few days. Is it too late for relationships to be repaired and things to move forward? I dont believe so.

The time that I did take away, all one whole day and a half, was spent laughing at bulging_boy and trying to figure out why this blog attracts so much heat and attention. I dont have an answer for you on that. I would be interested in hearing your opinions. All opinions ARE respected here. For me, one of the greatest aggravations that I have is the insinuations and double speak. In the written word, I personally believe if you speak of something, name it. This way there is no misunderstandings amongst peoples. Again, I dont expect everyone to listen. But goodness gracious, if you have an issue, any issue with me, bring it to me or say my name.

All I know to be is me. For me this issue is closed. My light here has been discovered and I walk on. I ask that you join me. I ask that you play with me. I ask that you put up with me and I ask that this become the place again we have all enjoyed. While I am responsible for my little corner of the world here, I will do my part. I ask that you join me and do yours. Not for our sakes but for those new to blogging and for our readers. For in the end, who else matters?


impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
11/11/2005 7:42 pm

I'm so ready to play with you. It was a very long day and a half. Welcome Home. NOW...could you please get on with the "All I wanted to know about men & sex" column? Damn...haven't learned that much since 9th grade. Oh..btw...can I borrow your golf clubs?

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn

rm_luke69iner 48M
3275 posts
11/11/2005 7:52 pm

Welcome back Trav ... don't make me get all girlie and give you a man hug

Don't leave again ... Bulgeman is a little off balance when you're not around ... He's was looking at me kind of funny yesterday and was calling me TiT

Alright you've rested long enough ... entertain me Trav ... Make with the funny

By the way when are you gonna tell Til and Tulip that I won them in the Bachelorette contest

S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo

spinmedown 49M
3626 posts
11/11/2005 7:52 pm

Oh yeah!
Gonna sleep gooooood tonight!

Most people are other people... FUCKING CHARACTER LIMIT!!! ~Oscar Wilde

rm_sj365 55F
2414 posts
11/11/2005 8:53 pm

yeah..i didnt MEAN to admit a moment of weakness it slipped out. but since its out there i think its high time we went public with our long-standing torid affair. I think its time you publicly acknowledged our love spawn Bubba. oops..sorry..theres that slipping thing again

i do adore you..because you've done the right thing

bulging_boy 49M

11/11/2005 8:59 pm

Who else matters?

No one buddy. We all matter.

That's the cool thing about your blogs. They appeal, they share and they invite.

It's our very own funny as fuck party.

I for one am REALLY glad it aint over!

rm_DaphneR 58F
7938 posts
11/11/2005 9:03 pm


I had to, I had to!!!
You know you can't leave because you have to keep build a blogger going!!

I really do love you Brat.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.

rm_DaphneR 58F
7938 posts
11/11/2005 9:07 pm

Damn, that's a hot looking blogger.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.

pussinboots4u 50M/47F

11/11/2005 9:41 pm

I don't why I even took an interest in what was going on. At some point, I basically said to myself - you know what, fuck-em! Like I really need to feel like a mother wanting to send all you to your rooms here on AdultFriendFinder. I come here to escape that.

Today, I come back here and the halls are feeling a bit empty. I hope we all have learned something from this. Unfortunately, I feel like many of us are going to start feeling a little more guarded. I know that I do allready.

I need this blog on AdultFriendFinder for a few reasons, but I will be posting much less now, sticking to fantasy and erotic stuff. I won't be commenting to many blogs anymore because of many different frustrations with the site and now what has transpired the last few days, also.

I'm not blaming you for anything - I do want you to know that and please - no hard feelings - I tend to speak what's on my mind at times. I guess, I'm hoping that a lesson can be learned from all of this.

Synn74 42F
1206 posts
11/11/2005 10:00 pm

welcome back friend..

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

PrincessKarma 43F
6188 posts
11/11/2005 10:04 pm

Welcome home, sweets...


The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

slidein2meplz 62F
1994 posts
11/11/2005 10:10 pm


I'm so glad to see you back. I've used the cell phone for light a few times myself.

Ya know what Trav...I don't think I have ever known a man who just pours out his heart and soul like you do. Have you any idea how cool that is? Good job kiddo. ~~ Slide ~~ {=}

~~~ Just me, poppin to say HI! ~~

2xTwiceShy 51M
470 posts
11/11/2005 10:34 pm

Some of my sentiments are listed on 5ers reincarnation post, but one in particular needs to land on your turf.

I posted somewhere near the beginning of the week (might have been with KJ and Jez) that through all the crap, the only one back pedaling, apologizing, and trying to bring harmony back to our blogosphere was you. And that was before I understood the Jumpin To The Oldies legal threats. That compassion, that need for peace, that's what built you a following.

It's there my brother. A million peeps you'll never meet, reminding you that your heart is good. I'm glad you heard the screams. You, I, and a million other people will be better tomorrow. And probably a bit more appreciative of our true friends. And blog on, for one day you too can sit atop the pile, then laugh and tell the rest of us how it smells.

Peace Out.

2xTwiceShy 51M
470 posts
11/11/2005 10:39 pm

BTW God's country has these 12,000 foot things we call mountains, a couple trillion trees in every direction, and a lake that would put your state under water, just like your neighbors.

When I said God's country, you mistakingly heard Bush Country. But if I dragged you down to Venice Beach, you might even have a new definition of bush country.

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
11/11/2005 10:59 pm

Glad to see you back!
This blog is so important to you for the release it gives you and to us for the laughter and inspiration your words bring. Keep up the good work and don't forget that your community is hundreds of people strong and we're here for you.

carebearluv2 42F

11/11/2005 11:13 pm

Trav, Glad you're back and that you decided to stay with us. It just wouldnt be the same around here without you! Now on with the show! lol

XesSex03 50M/49F

11/11/2005 11:21 pm

Glad you finally saw things our way!!

Now...about that Spin the Dildo game???? Could we please get on with it???

Mrs. Xes

SickHooteredLady 42F
62 posts
11/12/2005 12:18 am

*Echo's what Candy said...LMAO!

Kisses & Hugs,

EroGenOusKitty 41F

11/12/2005 1:37 am

`May you Bloom where you have been planted Trav

I seem to have lost my email contact with you Did it get lost through our worm whole???? I think you are still able to email me through here with having the silver ball (and through here I shall give you my personal email addy)

Dreaming in Color and Still Living in Texture...Ero

Valdrane78 38M

11/12/2005 1:47 am

Welcome back............When will we be seeing Sgt Dickhead again?

BANG! POW! BOOM! a study in useless knowledge and sick humor!
I want a damn soundtrack to my blog!

dangerouslyfunu4 53F

11/12/2005 2:34 am

Hey Trav. glad to see that you are going to stay around . Dont let live get you down. We live, We laugh ,and We love and when shit happens we clean it up and we go on .

StreaktheFreak 38F

11/12/2005 3:53 am

i have been away...i am glad that you decided to not leave....i enjoy your writing and would be sad to no longer see what ammounts to your face here (that is not meant to be a comment about your pic...just your face as in your writing, as in that shows who you are) im babbling a little because i am tired...

but thank you for staying

sweetdarlin71 45F

11/12/2005 5:04 am

I have not been here in Blogland very long and I was very sad to see all the mess of last week because it looked like I had found a special place just in time to see it self-destruct. I am still a tentative commenter on the blogs of others but I had to tell you how happy I am to see reconstruction going on amongst the people I love to watch and read so much. You can come play at my house any day, it's the new one on the corner with the crazy, colorful sculptures in the front yard.

bardicman 50M

11/12/2005 8:10 am

Oh that is so not right. You listed more linked names in this post than I will ever be able too.
Crap I have a long ass poem to write now.

With you gone I might have had a small chance....

Oh well I am happy to have no chance...

I am not dead yet

impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
11/12/2005 8:48 am

Get your knuckles off the many better places for them to be anyway. can't beat my car...I wanted to borrow yours because I have a car in mind. Seemed so very therapeutic. So very good to have you back (even if you are a bushy).

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn

angelofmercy5 59F
17881 posts
11/12/2005 9:35 am

There were so many comments on your farewell blog, that I didn't leave one.....I just went to bed crying leaving a trail of kleenix to find my way back to my computer. Thanks Trav....Daryl.....for hearing the voice of reason and the voice of the many friends you never knew you had here. You are a daily stop on my crazy ride through life, and I love it when you make me laugh. You know I can't smile without you!

rm_JustCallMeDT 50F

11/12/2005 9:50 am


"DTOX" was taken!!!

Oh...welcome back

rm_corezon 53F
3376 posts
11/12/2005 2:05 pm

Glad to see you back and on the up and up---------

rm_titsandtires 51M/41F
3656 posts
11/12/2005 7:01 pm

good thing you made it back. sargeant dickhead was about to throw your ass on kp duty for a week. peeling potatos sucks.


AmberSolaire 42M

11/12/2005 7:04 pm

Am I out of this comp yet or do I have to keep being nice to Tiller?

barbiebunny 36F
5597 posts
11/12/2005 9:35 pm

Its good to be...ME

LIBlonde97 40F
1028 posts
11/12/2005 11:16 pm

Kisses, love.



tillerbabe 56F

11/12/2005 11:51 pm

HA! Lemme give you a blowjob now....
told you I would...

..the things I "do" for this place...


bardicman 50M

11/13/2005 2:47 am

uh Tlller, I am leaving next .....

I am not dead yet

AlbertPrince 58M

11/13/2005 3:44 am

Hey, I'm glad you stayed, glad you got everything sorted.

Now get on with it, this slowest f***ing game I have ever played!!!

rm_JUSTsex4me 36F
185 posts
11/13/2005 5:46 am

I was actually away for a while and had no idea what happened until I started reading several blogs that I frequent. I still do not completely know the whole story, nor do I want to. However, when I read your post that you were leaving, I was taken aback and actually a little brokenhearted. I started a blog on here which I rarely ever post on because I'm just so busy reading yours. Even though I rarely post on it, I would like to say that I am so very happy that you decided to stay. Like many of the people who posted here, I am an obsessed reader and you would have been greatly missed. I'm very glad that you've found some level of peace with yourself after this whole fiasco and I also want to commend those who stood by you, encouraged you to stay, and stuck up for you because in the end you'll know who those true friends are.

EroGenOusKitty 41F

11/13/2005 3:11 pm

Ahhh yes I forgot I turned off my profile.... I was getting way to many erhm "interesting emails and pics" to say the least lol

I did email you though earlier... Take care...Ero

XesSex03 50M/49F

11/14/2005 7:17 pm

I'm a little slow...but did you say Mr. Xes hit you in the forehead with a hammer??? He's not allowed to play with hammers!!! EEXXXXEEESSSS, Get your ASS in here NOW!!! I'll punish him for you Trav...

Mrs. Xes

rm_cockmerollme 45F
1223 posts
11/15/2005 12:14 am

Good christ. Now write something funny, dammit! (yeah, yeah, ...happy you're back, you're hot, ect.)


TTigerAtty 62M

11/15/2005 1:03 pm


All the HOOPLA has worked! You picked up a new subscriber! 'Just had to come over and see what all the fuss was about, kinda like chasin' after an ambulance or a firetruck, I suppose. Glad you hung around and hopin' some of the others who left will come back too! Thought of the following lyrics when I read about what you've been thru:

You'll Never Walk Alone

When you walk through a storm
Keep your chin up high
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At he end of the storm
Is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark.

Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown. Walk on, walk on
With hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never walk alone.

TiT, from my read of your recent postings and many others I've read around this community we call Blogville, I would say that you will definitely "never walk alone".

Oh yah, Trav, regarding those legal threats ...... here's my card!

TTigerAtty, Attorney at Law
Truman, Isaac, Gerhardt, Evans, Reubenstein and Steele, LLC

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