Random Thoughts...  

travelingintexas 41M
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1/30/2006 1:16 am
Random Thoughts...

It is in the alone times, the moments when all is quiet and I am alone with my thoughts that I must think of where I am and how I got here. That time when there is no one there to encourage and bolster my spirits and I must reach down deep within myself and deal with the ghosts of my past and promise of my future.

Choices…

I spend a lot of my time discussing with my children the effects of their choices. Good versus bad, right versus wrong. Never do I feel quiet as alone as when the last 10 years of my life, the choices I have made, are played across the screen of my inner mind.

Choices…

So many “things” I have lost over selfish decisions I have made. So many in fact I know I can’t go back there again. Sometimes, it seems impossible to overcome and other times, I am thankful for my future and the chance to erase the person that I once was.

Choices…

Little things and big things, momentous and mundane are all part of my daily life. I realized this morning that I am not as brazen as I once was in my choices and decisions. While not reserved, I am certainly not as prone to leaping before I look.

Choices…

My choices, even those I made years ago, have brought me to this place. In realizing this, my movements are much more measured because of the longevity of the residual effects they may have.


fantasylover_05 62M

1/30/2006 8:05 am

Trav

It is true... "we are today what we are because of where we have been and what we have been through"

Embrace your past (yes the good and bad as they BOTH had something to do with who/where you are today)... learn from your past choices and mistakes.. and ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD!!

After the most severe conflagration in the forest.... it again flourishes and rises from the dust and char!

You can not change the past..... but you can indeed the future!

Live well!!


moonlightphoenix 45F
6508 posts
1/30/2006 8:17 am

I am a phoenix rising in the stormy moonlight from the smouldering ash of a former existence. Rise and fly, my friend. There's nothing to look back on.


Sister_Act_4_You 37F/37F

1/30/2006 8:53 am

Trav, you have come so far in such a short length of time....where most would still be dwelling on the bad things in the past (you know, the things that one cannot undo), you are thinking of them but putting a present and future spin on them. Realizing your good fortune and planning on how to move forward.

You are special, Trav; and while many times I might say that to you and add a 'wink' and an 'lol' - please know that there is a real sincerity there as well. You are special because of what is inside of you and what you are choosing to be. I'm so happy to 'know' you.

p.s. I really like that pic (the one on this blog)...that is really very very nice!!


pinkplaytoyz 49F

1/30/2006 9:07 am

"you are never the same person today as you were yesterday..."


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
1/30/2006 9:54 am

Those same type of thoughts happen to me at night. It's always night time...


southrnpeach333 50F

1/30/2006 10:03 am

Who was it that said "those who don't learn from the past are doomed to repeat it?" Sound to me though like you are coming down with a serious case of Wisdom.


slidein2meplz 61F
1994 posts
1/30/2006 10:26 am

Yep Trav, Cause and Effect....it creeps up on ya. Sometimes right away, sometimes next week....or 10 years later...or on into another lifetime???? Who know's about that one, I sure don't....but whatever is going on in the present is a result of "choices" of the past....good/bad or otherwise. I know, cuz I'm livin it now as well.

I've been kickin myself big time lately for a choice I made. Now it's like "WTF was I thinking?"...this is job related...but nonetheless, I did make that choice. I really wish I hadn't, but oh'well. Live and learn.

I think once that concept sinks into a person's realization that what is done this moment could have the potential to go one way or another....depending on what that "cause" is....is very enlightening.

To realize and therefore hopefully stop and give it a bit more thought...to ponder the question your life puts to you...to make a decision based on what the effects could be.
Right ~ Wrong ~ Good or Bad.

Not only do these causes we make effect our lives, but those close to us as well. And some actions taken by some people, maybe powerful peaple...can effect an entire community...or an entire Nation.

But...we are human and humans don't always think about what happens if they do this or that. Some things we do, we don't even give a second thought to...but some things we do probably ought to be thought out more.

Karma can sure be a bitch at times...huh? Especially if you don't learn the lesson it's giving you.

Well...off I go to make some good/positive Karna...I hope. Gonna try anyway.

You done good with this post Trav...very well written and shows your growning and changing....using tools to get past it.

~~~ Just me, poppin to say HI! ~~


caressmewell 53F

1/30/2006 10:32 am

Hind sight is 20/20, we learn and grow from the decisions, good or bad, that we made. We can't change our past but we can take charge of our future.


Babel__Fish 45F

1/30/2006 10:46 am

Trav,

The choices that you have made in your past, in your eyes or other good or bad has made you the man that you are today.

The path that we all walk is our own. Living means making choices, even if you do not choose then you have choosen not to do so, so that in itself is a choice too.

It is in learning how to deal in your mind about the choices that you made that may not have been popular or maybe even 'wrong' that leads to growth, freedom and peace.

There will forever be the... I should have.... If I only..... What was I thinking.... What if I did not.... but you need to learn not to punish yourself for choice that you made but learn from them and do not make them again, turn a negative into a positive.

Babel {=}


oldman1776 78M
3164 posts
1/30/2006 10:48 am

Trav I know exactly what your saying I've been there.
Your right you can't change the past but you can make sure you don't make the same bad choices again.


EyeCandy33333 44F
761 posts
1/30/2006 10:53 am

Trav darling-I don't think you need to erase the person who you were. I believe you always had the good heart-maybe just made "learning choices" as most of us do. No-you don't want to erase Trav-you just are making him better-all those things now make you what you are.I am sure we all would like to have changed a few things in life-knowing what we know now-but we have grown to know these things(some of us learn a little quicker than others)-so all that is left is to make now different-so darling that is what we do!


simlpyfun68 48F
1173 posts
1/30/2006 11:23 am

I don't claim to know you at all I just pass through and try to keep up with your blog. That said the person you have become is the result of all off those "good" and "bad" choices you made in the past. Sometimes you make a so called bad decision or a hard one but years later if you look back on it you can see that something good came from it somewhere. I reflect the same as you did here I just hope you were able to instead of just think about what it was you choose but domino effects it has caused for everyone involved there was some good some where there. Good luck and yes I agree with with Sister Act also great pic.

Hugz n Smiles
~Sim~


MyRealLoverOne 45M

1/30/2006 11:45 am

Damn Trav! If there were laws against making dumb ass mistakes, I would be locked up forever. The education of life is not free nor cheap as you know so well. I will just start calling you Dr. Trav. Be blessed my friend and love those kids, you are their hero!


rm_ohsolustful 57M
859 posts
1/30/2006 12:48 pm

That school of hard knocks you have been thru is by far the best education you can receive, I read a lot of words of wisdom above from the other responses, they are all correct, Be proud of those decisions, right or wrong, you made them, you didnt run from them, and it sounds like you did the most important part and learned from them as well. all ya have to do now is not forget the lessons learned. Good luck and best wishes...Always follow your gut instincts


rm_1hotwahine 62F
21091 posts
1/30/2006 3:27 pm

I was thinking about something as I read this -

Everyone gets older but everyone doesn't grow up. How do I personally define growing up? As growing into being the person that we are each meant to be. And we can only do it through a combination of people time and solitude. (I know a lot of people - esp men - who can't handle the solitude part). To me, growing up doesn't mean we have to stop having fun or sell out or get our spirit doused. It just means we (hopefully) become increasingly more aware of the big picture, we gain clarity about ourselves and the world at large and enough discipline to weigh the odds. And then we make better...

...choices

And Babycakes, I think you're doing just fine.

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]


norprin5 55M

1/30/2006 3:39 pm



King Nor XVIII


Sorceror07 54M

1/30/2006 5:08 pm

"we are where we are today because of everything we've done in the past. " mike ferry

i don't know who he "borrowed" that from but i'm positive it wasn't floyd wickman lol!

...That which does not kill me merely pisses me off!...


impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
1/30/2006 5:11 pm

Choices...a good thing. Life is not lived fully when we sit on the sidelines and make no choices. In the end...when we have the perfect view of where our choices led us - perhaps they won't all seem as bad as we thought they were at the time. You're awesome Trav...

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
1/30/2006 5:12 pm

Choices...a good thing. Life is not lived fully when we sit on the sidelines and make no choices. In the end...when we have the perfect view of where our choices led us - perhaps they won't all seem as bad as we thought they were at the time. You're awesome Trav...(and God...I DO love that picture!)

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
1/30/2006 5:13 pm

I hate this posting thingie.....(DAMMIT!!)

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


rm_Bct2Esi 50M/50F
1375 posts
1/30/2006 7:32 pm

{{{{{Trav}}}}} you are who you are today because of who you use to be.

Now is the time to grow even more, continue to rise and learn Pass these learning experiences onto your little ones

You are an awesome person, I do adore you and admire you

Thank you for you

hugs and smiles


SoljerBlu 39M

1/30/2006 9:24 pm

Ain't it cool!! The perfect 'mixed blessing' ... Ya done lived through the 'choices' ... and ya get ta make more....
Maybe ya done learned something useful from the past ones..?
Or, ya can try again...
Better luck this time around!!
Lenny


micahbiguns 50M

1/30/2006 9:36 pm

Understanding


mm0206 68F
7767 posts
1/30/2006 10:14 pm

They are blessed to have a wonderful Father.

Tender Hugs....m.


DTduzDallas 50F

1/31/2006 3:37 am

"My choices, even those I made years ago, have brought me to this place. In realizing this, my movements are much more measured because of the longevity of the residual effects they may have."

Quit copying off my paper **smack**


rm_cockmerollme 45F
1223 posts
1/31/2006 7:57 pm

Just as long as your not judgemental of other people....

LET'S GO METS!!!


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