On The Other Side...  

travelingintexas 41M
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12/17/2005 4:26 pm
On The Other Side...

She sits on the other side of the mirror, inches from my face, looking at herself. She can’t see me. I might as well not exist in her mind, or this universe for that matter.

I watch her, examine her as she speaks quietly to herself, brushing her long brown hair in the mirror.

“I am not enough. I am unfixable. I am beyond worth.” The refrain is spoken as I watch her lips speak them. I have uttered these words as well. Known them to be true. My lips mirror hers in the mirror that is between us.

“This is not truth you speak! It is lies! Deception of the worst kind because it is spoken by you, to you!” I scream at her image on the other side of the mirror. I rant. I mutter. I see her. I see not the visage she sees from her side, but the being beyond the flesh. Into her spirit. It is no use. The walls are too thick. The words not strong enough to break through this mirror and radiate into her heart. So I am useless in this place. Useless, because even if I sit here quietly or shout at the top of my voice her worth, it is to no avail. So I sit with her without her being aware and just watch and listen.

“I am unlovable and not worth the breath I just took!” Her brush flies through her hair in anger as she mutters the angry words to herself. The refrain is spoken as I watch her lips speak them. I have uttered these words as well. Known them to be true. My lips mirror hers in the mirror that is between us.

“You are worthy! I have heard and seen your spirit! Known the lift of your voice in hope as you talked of what if and maybe! I have seen beyond the past to the place that is now. Into your heart that is not ash and burnt away, but rather tested by fire in the heat, only to appear as gold in the future!” I pound my hands against the mirror that separates us, my forehead resting on the cool glass that brings her closer but keeps her forever away. “Look at me! Look in my eyes! See what joy you bring to them!” These words I whisper against the glass as my hands slide down and fall into my lap.

Her brushing slows now. Unaware of the joy she has brought, regardless of her words. I watch silently now, knowing this is when she will stand, turn and then walk away from the mirror and from me The light will be gone as she leaves the room. Darkness bathes across me as the light leaves. I am not seen, nor is the hope in my eyes noticed, as she takes her presence away from me.

It is cold and dark in this place long before she ever douses the lights with her switch.


rm_sj365 55F
2414 posts
12/17/2005 8:47 pm

this is just so good

go you!


micahbiguns 50M

12/17/2005 9:33 pm

Way deep.... Trav we all have seen this visage at onew time or another and chose to believe the lies we tell ourselves


micahbiguns 50M

12/17/2005 9:33 pm

Way deep.... Trav we all have seen this visage at one time or another and chosen to believe the lies we tell ourselves


TTigerAtty 62M

12/17/2005 11:22 pm

"Mirror, mirror on the wall,
who's the fairest of us all?"

Give me another cold Blue!


GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11240 posts
12/18/2005 1:31 am

~ ponderz ~


frbnkslady 48F
6183 posts
12/18/2005 1:57 am

I have said the same things to myself.... still do occasionly.. but am getting better.. We all have gone through it one time or another.... or most of us anyways... T

T




DTduzDallas 50F

12/18/2005 5:36 am

**smooch**


rm_corezon 53F
3376 posts
12/18/2005 6:33 am

Know what you mean.

How we see ourselves...we are almost all harder on ourselves than anyone else is...but negative words from the earliest people in our lives that should have known us and helped us see our own special beauty, our own genius, instead...resound in our subconscious far too long...

To see another's true beauty...if only they could see through our eyes, just for a moment...open that door, just for a moment...

Believe.


duststormdiva 51F
6854 posts
12/18/2005 6:52 am

Maybe he needs to come out from behind that mirror and taker her in his arms and show her how he feels, instead of expecting her to know. They both are alike, and they need each other.

DustStormDiva


Sister_Act_4_You 38F/38F

12/18/2005 8:51 am

I do not know how I missed this when I last passed through......this piece is absolutely breathtakingly beautiful! I can so feel it inside me.


rm_DaphneR 58F
7938 posts
12/18/2005 9:53 am

Some are not willing to see.

Some are beyond being saved, no matter how much you try.

The important thing is you keep trying.



Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.


Justforfungirl5 49F
68 posts
12/18/2005 8:04 pm

Funny, articulate and with such a great heart ... Trav ... may you find someone very special very soon. Hugs, JFFG


kyplowboy22 61M

12/18/2005 11:48 pm

It sucks behind the mirror don't it, beau? Have you ever found the door out of there?.... Me neither.

kpb


redlipsprincess
(Princess Lips)
51F

12/20/2005 11:31 pm

She IS loveable...and So are you...

TTFN


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