Oh The Ideas Come And The Ideas Go  

travelingintexas 41M
4/20/2006 10:27 pm
Oh The Ideas Come And The Ideas Go

I wander around and barely think about what I would say here whereas before it was a constant state of what’s next. Why should I care? Do I care and important as well is *chuckle* does anyone else care?

To multitudes I think that answer is no. To friends I have made the answer is yes. And to me, it depends on my current mood which tends to lean towards, not as much any more.

I have seen it here, people come and people go. Yet constants stay the same. Good writing. Bad writing. All shadows of the real world. All based upon a dream or a hope of something more than the mundane in our lives.

I drove down the road this week and as I listened to a song I had another profound thought. For me, that’s not a big deal since I am such a brilliant and egotistical ass. But I wanted to expound on it in writing. Attempt to grasp upon its greater meaning and discover some clarity towards this particular thought.

If I believe in fate or an element of pre-destination, which I do on many levels, this means my heart is getting closer to its fulfillment. Are you, by chance, following me here? In other words, every second I spend today is not one more second that is forever away from that one perfect moment that is my heart falling completely and totally in love, it is one second away from getting closer to it. (all of you glass half empty people follow me here) I am traveling a path of blissful hope and fulfillment without meaning to or trying and it is leading me “home” in a sense.

Ah… home. Perfect, beautiful home. It is the place that we all desire to be on some level. It is the place that we create within our hearts or are blessed with and unwittingly call comfort. Security. Treasured. Peace. Does that thought perhaps in some way excite you? It does me and on a level I can not even begin to touch on. Would I love to pontificate on “she?” Yes of course I would, yet I don’t even know her so how could I. Yet “she” is not the point. Home is and it is to that place of fulfilment I head.

The point is this, that in the few minutes I have sat here writing this tonight, I am now a few more minutes closer to that magical moment when I lay eyes upon her for the first time. As, perhaps, are you. The hours I spent today were not wasted, but were part of the travel and journey to the hearthside meeting of home when I lay eyes upon her.

I fervently believe that someday, there will be a moment, just one blissful moment that will be THE demarcation line between being alone and having found true and perfect love. Think of that for a second. That is the very definition of lost and found would you not agree? One split second is the difference. One second that changes my life forever. The difference between me and us is marked by one second, one rapidly changing moment.

See how fast life changes. It is the same amount of time it takes to step across the threshold of your house. One second you are outside where the winds and rain may blow and the next you find yourself within the fortress of your home. One split second. One radically changed moment.

Oh don’t say “Trav don’t rush it. Don’t search for it. Don’t “need” it” because if you do say that, you have completely missed my point here.

One perfect moment. One small space in time.

Nightguy_1961 55M
4866 posts
4/21/2006 1:17 am

*pours two shots of Cabo Wabo tequila...slides one over to Trav*

Here's hoping it doesn't take much longer, amigo.


rm_1hotwahine 62F
21091 posts
4/21/2006 1:44 am

Just noticed you chose the word "excited" for the mood. That kind of surprised me, cause when I read it, I felt more of a sense of peace from it.

Small point where we might differ is that I don't see us getting closer to our ideal or 'home' merely by the passing of time. I think it comes from getting continually better at just "being" whomever we authentically are.

Or am I thinking too much again? I mean, not that you'd ever be guilty of such a thing...

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]

want2play926 45F

4/21/2006 4:50 am

What a great way to look at life! Just for argument sake, I had an darker side of this come to me. However, I am not going to voice it...I love your mood and thoughts on this too much. So I am pushing alll negative shit out!

Love the post Trav! I was sorta blah blah feeling this morning...ya put a bit of giddy up in me...hope


TTigerAtty 62M

4/21/2006 6:04 am

Aaaaah, Trav! You evoke thoughts of the NCAA video montage and theme song after the NCAA Basketball Championship Game. I think I must be a sports geek and not a romantic!

The ball is tipped
and there you are
you're running for your life
you're a shooting star
And all the years
no one knows
just how hard you worked
but now it shows...

But time is short
and the road is long
in the blinking of an eye
ah that moment's gone
And when it's done
win or lose
you always did your best
cuz inside you knew...

Feel the beat of your heart
feel the wind in your face
it's more than a contest
it's more than a race...

And when it's done
win or lose
you always did your best
cuz inside you knew...

Kaliedascope61 41M
4084 posts
4/21/2006 7:05 am

I had that feeling in february when I was wondering if "she" would finaly show herself and let me know that she existed. I finally gave myself peace in my search by expressing it, by accepting the hands of comfort that strangers were reaching out to me. I never felt a mix of excitment and peace all that same time before. When it sunk in the mystery had been solved and there she was in all her beauty.

rm_DaphneR 58F
7938 posts
4/21/2006 7:51 am

You'll get there baby, of that I have no doubt.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.

Sorceror07 54M

4/21/2006 8:33 am

its all good bro ....here, have a twinkie

...That which does not kill me merely pisses me off!...

wickedeasy 66F  
25338 posts
4/21/2006 8:59 am

am reminded of the song in West Side Story

"who knows
it's only just down the street
round the block, on a beach

i've gota feeling there's a miracle due
gonna come true
for me"

being a buddhist - your awareness of each step makes perfect sense to me - "maybe just by holding still, it will be there"



You cannot conceive the many without the one.

twirly_girl 47F

4/21/2006 12:11 pm

Perhaps "she" was sitting at her computer writing in "her" blog the very same sentiments.
Perhaps "she" will brush against you in an isle at the grocery store.
Perhaps "she" is already aware of you and reading your blog.
HA! Wouldn't that be something?
There all along and you didn't know it?
Perhaps it will be serendipity.
Much luck to you, Trav.


hornylilgirl78 105F

4/21/2006 1:03 pm

"The hours I spent today were not wasted, but were part of the travel and journey to the hearthside meeting of home when I lay eyes upon her."

You pinpointed the very reason I leave myself open to new experiences and to meeting new people. Who knows if I will meet my soulmate in the parking lot of the grocery store, online, or perhaps as one of the people I pass on my daily walk? Realizing that each meeting is an opportunity rather than simply chance has led me to some wonderful friends and influences within my life.

Good luck Trav.


"As kinky as a cheap garden hose!"

mm0206 68F
7767 posts
4/21/2006 1:27 pm

I think you will find that defining moment,
patience is all it takes.

I realize that life throws road blocks up for all of us.
When you least expect it, just keep your heart open to hear that other heart calling, it will be there in some insignificant place, at some point when you are turning and the truth will splash over you and in your confident and aware manner will have to stand and take the moment..... So very Trav-like.... carpe diem!
Brilliant .. how can anyone dispute that...
Egotistical...no I dont think so...
merely Confident and True to Yourself...


GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11238 posts
4/22/2006 9:38 am

you're amazing....

and yes, I know you know....

EyeCandy33333 44F
761 posts
4/22/2006 9:00 pm

Well Trav-that is the awe and wonderment of it all isn't it-it could be anyplace -anytime-anywhere-that love walks into your life. Some would say that they don't need another person-that they can live without this most beautiful thing created and I believe meant to be shared-just can't imagine not wanting to find love and as far as wanting it to come quickly-why wouldn't you darling? Life could be over tommorrow-your soul is crying out for it and every part of you aches for it-so why wouldn't you want that peace-that joy-that amazing feeling?

aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
4/24/2006 6:17 pm

I'm not usually one to actually believe in fate. I love the idea of it in the movie Serendipity, but I'm not sure I can quite grasp the whole thing.

I do, however, love the point that you are making. If, right now you have nothing, it means you are that much closer to your goal.

In sales, I believe the best sales people see every no as a good thing. Since sales, almost as in dating, is a numbers game. The more no's you get, the closer to the yes you actually are.

Great view point!

LIBlonde97 40F
1028 posts
4/26/2006 2:57 pm


I read this post a few times over the past few days because I like it. It's warm and fuzzy without being nauseating. It's optomistic without being naive. I like the hope in it. I appreciate seeing hope when so much in these blogs I just see disappointment and dispair (not that there isnt lots of rightful room for that as well here).

Home is the specific little place in life where your soul is happy. Maybe its a mental place, a physical place, a financial place, or an emotional place. Probably a combo of all four. It's a set of coinciding circumstances that all converge to create a happy equilibrium.

It's great to think of a time where you'll look back before that one "dividing moment" and remember now and think "Wow, remember what my life was like before _______ happened. That was friggin lame/crazy/difficult/weird." and it'll bring a smile.

And everyday you're closer to _________.

It's like you know Christmas is coming but its a secret and nobody will tell you when it is.

So yeah I guess everyone who is searching is each on their own way home.

MMMmmmmmm *dreaming* How happy and exciting!


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