A Long Drawn Out List... #181-#160  

travelingintexas 41M
9/17/2005 7:28 pm
A Long Drawn Out List... #181-#160

#181-If this guy across the room here at Starbucks doesn't get out of my seat soon... I am not gonna be in a good mood for long.
#180-I love Swing dancing if my partner knows how. I would love to learn how to Salsa.
#179-I love a wide variety of music. Style depends on my current mood. Music deeply effects my mood.
#178-I just stepped on a cricket that was getting on my nerves. I had too. I was wearing boots.
#177-I did not cut myself shaving.
#176-I eat peanut butter with my pancakes.
#175-My nature is one of fierce loyalty to my true friends. It takes trust to get there. I am loath to give out trust, especially now. I am trying to learn better.
#174-In counterpoint to the last one, my nature is one of unforgiveness. It also is counterpoint to my feelings on grace. I am not good at extending it to those that hurt me. In fact my initial reaction is to destroy. I don't like this about me but it is there.
#173-I truly am A.D.D. Signed, sealed and delivered. I have a difficult time multitasking. If I can't concentrate on one thing at a time I get frustrated beyond telling. Unfortunately, life is not a single issue at a time. So I get frustrated there as well.
#172-I struggle with depression. I hate it. Despise it. See it as a weakness in me. I hate feeling weak in others eyes. I want them to see me as strong and to admit weakness is hard for me.
#171-I miss my kids. I miss the sound of their feet and the sound of their playing and arguing.
#170-I slept from 3AM until 7ish tonight. I woke up scared and afraid. I only sleep like this when I am depressed. I don't remember the last time I slept like this though. It has been coming. However, I have had a good week, one of my best in months. I think this is why I was terrified. I can't control it and feel weak and I don't want others to be frustrated with me.
I have high blood pressure.
I am over weight.
I smoke
I am a male.
I have a history of heart disease in my family. This scares me.
#168-There is someone on this site that terrifies me beyond my understanding.
#167-I am not a big sports event watcher. I watch some college football and that is about it. However, I keep up with it. I get bored watching it on TV. I would rather be there in person or doing it.
#166-I love High School Football on Friday nights in Texas.
#165-I still have a hard time believing anyone reads my stuff on here. It is difficult for me to accept you would even find interest in me.
#164-I hate when I make declarations about living life to the fullest and I have a day like today where I don't live. Drives me nuts and there is a huge urge to throw in the towel. But I still refuse.
#163-I have never seen a celebrity in real life other than in concert.
#162-I dream of singing in a smoky club in New Orleans with a small set beside me. Now more than ever.
#161-My office is filled with Militaria collectable's from the Revolution to Korea.
#160-I have really bright green eyes. They change from dark to light depending on what I wear. They are one of my best features and are set off by long eyelashes.

DefiniteTrouble 50F

9/18/2005 3:43 am

# 181 - I can salsa.
# 175 - You're doing a great job.
# 172 - It is NOT a weakness, but a temporary set back. To admit such is a strength.
# 171 - Me too...just have the one "devil spawn"...empty nest syndrome is killing me.
# 170 - We love you.
# 169 - (sigh) It should. Never too late to do something about it. Genetics suck.
# 168 - Glad it's not me, although many think it is, lol.
# 167 - Nothing better than live football!!!
# 166 - High school football is some of the most passionate played. Loved "Friday Night Lights." No, not just because Tim Mcgraw was in it...an amazing story.
# 165 - Interest? Try "addiction."
# 164 - Have been in the same place more than once. You move on...
# 163 - Part of my job has been dealing with celebrities and athletes. To me, it's just a job.
# 160 - Ditto...except I have to wear mascara...eyelashes are blonde.

bulging_boy 49M

9/18/2005 4:43 am

#168 Ummm sorry... look that whole bedroom thing was a mistake. Honest to God... I didn't know you were there!

rm_CookieLips2 61M

9/18/2005 6:29 am

Trav, Watch out for that high blood pressure! If you can, get to a Doctor and get a checkup. While you are there discuss your depression with him or her. They can help you. We are not talking Prozac here, okay. Also, it won't hurt to start taking an aspirin a day either. It might just prevent a stroke. You do not want to stroke out, no way Dude.

DefiniteTrouble 50F

9/18/2005 4:03 pm

(eyeroll) Thank you for smacking youself...saved me the effort.

(SMACK) Oh what the hell...you'll just need it again while I'm gone.

dano6332 56M

9/18/2005 4:34 pm

170 is going to be around a long time my friend. Dont let the good days make you think they are gone because then they can sneak up and whomp you when your not looking. Just remember your friends are here when you need to talk.
168 In a good way or a bad way? I can promise you if it is bad nothing will happen when your at the convention. I was a copper here for a long time and got your back.

rm_luke69iner 48M
3275 posts
9/18/2005 5:58 pm

Traveling i hate to sound all girlie but you're alright

best wishes TiT

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A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
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Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
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Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo

KhaosKitty 42F
123 posts
9/21/2005 8:44 pm

I also can salsa. I took lessons down here in Austin last year and love it shamelessly! But I haven't learned to swing dance yet. I since a new goal...

Women in my family are banned forever from high school football games, by the way. It's a long, involved story about my grandmother, a stranger and his umbrella. Maybe I'll tell it sometime if anyone is interested.

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