THOUGHTS WHATS ON MY MIND  

tiyannah 47T
196 posts
5/17/2006 4:07 pm

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THOUGHTS WHATS ON MY MIND

AS I GET OLDER I REALIZE I AM STUCK IN MY WAYS,REALIZING I CANT CHANGE FOR NO ONE. I HAVE A WARM HEART EVEN THOUGH I BEEN TOLD I HIDE MY EMOTIONS TO THE POINT I AM COLD HEARTED.TOTALLY FALSE I WANT PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME,SPEAK KIND WORDS OF ME TO TELL OTHERS WHO ASK ABOUT ME THAT I AM THE SWEETEST PERSON THEY KNOW.IT HURTS ME TO THINK SOMEONE IS THINKING ILL OF ME WITHOUT GETTING TO KNOW ME ,ALTHOUGH EVERY QUEEN HAS THERE DAY WHEN THEY FEEL BITCHY AND I AM NO EXCEPTION TO THE RULE.I CHOOSE MY FRIENDS WISELY AND IF I CALL YOU A FRIEND THEN FRIENDS WE`LL BE TIL THE END,I CAN HONESTLY SAY I HAVE A BEST FRIEND AND A VERY DEAR CLOSE FRIEND BOTH OF WHOM I LOVE DEARLY AND THE ONLY REASON THAT IS BECAUSE I REMEMBER MY GRANDMAMA TELLING ME THAT "IN LIFE YOU`LL HAVE FRIENDSHIPS THAT WILL COME AND GO BUT THAT ONE TRUE BEST FRIEND WILL STICK BY YOU,STAND UP FOR YOU,GIVE THEIR LIFE FOR YOU WITHOUT A BLINK OF AN EYE,WHEN YOU COME ACROSS SUCH A PERSON NEVER LET THEM GO,SURE Y'ALL WILL FALL OUT AT TIME, BUT THE BOTH WILL FILL INCOMPLETE WITHOUT THE OTHER.YOU WILL ALSO COME ACROSS OTHER FRIENDS IN LIFE THAT YOU WILL SAY OR FEEL SHOULD BE YOUR BEST FRIEND.....AND IN TIME YOU`LL FIND OUT THAT THE ONE PERSON WITH WHOM YOU INITIALLY CALLED YOUR BEST FRIEND IS STILL GOING TO BE HERE NO MATTER WHAT." WELL I DO BELIEVE IN ONE BEST FRIEND BUT I ALSO BELIEVE IN CLOSE FRIENDS THE REST ARE ASSOCIATES THAT I LIKE TO BE IN THE COMPANY OF.MY GRANDMOTHER IS FERVENTLY PICKY WHO SHE SOCIALIZE WITH I AM MORE PEOPLE ORIENTED COMPARED TO HER ALTHOUGH PEOPLE HAVE SAID I AM STUCK UP,COLD HEARTED,A BITCH,IT`S ALL BECAUSE I AM STUCK IN MY WAYS AND AT THIS POINT IN LIFE WHY CHANGE IF IT WEEDS OUT THE FAKES AND PHONIES. BUT FOR THE RECORD I AM SWEET, GENTLE,OPEN MINDED ,HUMBLE,AND DOWN TO EARTH.............................................HAVE PEOPLE EVER SAID YOU WERE BITCHY,COLD HEARTED,STUCK UP. AND YOU FEEL DIFFERENTLY ABOUT THEIR POINT OF VIEW OF YOU?


avibaby1 36T
57 posts
5/17/2006 6:38 pm

Well to all the loyal reader's of Queen T's blog, when she talks about her best friend she is refering to me! that's right me Avi other wise known as Peaches Avi-baby ya momma and what ever other names the doll goes bye!.... now I will be the first to say that the Queen has one helluva personality, one I have never seen and will never see! she has the type that grabs ahold of u and leaves u in suspense.I love her dearly and we fight atleast once a month but we always manage to reunite cause we truly are sisters of the cloth.I've been guilty of saying my sister is cold but that is not true she is strong! and if she feels strongly about something or a discion she aint gonna give in unless u can bribe her real good lol but she is a wonderful gal who I will forever cherish even when I'm mad at the bitch! she works my nerves from time to time but I know my life would never be the same without her. Ty for being in my life...Peaches....


tiyannah 47T

5/17/2006 6:56 pm

    Quoting avibaby1:
    Well to all the loyal reader's of Queen T's blog, when she talks about her best friend she is refering to me! that's right me Avi other wise known as Peaches Avi-baby ya momma and what ever other names the doll goes bye!.... now I will be the first to say that the Queen has one helluva personality, one I have never seen and will never see! she has the type that grabs ahold of u and leaves u in suspense.I love her dearly and we fight atleast once a month but we always manage to reunite cause we truly are sisters of the cloth.I've been guilty of saying my sister is cold but that is not true she is strong! and if she feels strongly about something or a discion she aint gonna give in unless u can bribe her real good lol but she is a wonderful gal who I will forever cherish even when I'm mad at the bitch! she works my nerves from time to time but I know my life would never be the same without her. Ty for being in my life...Peaches....
APPPPPPPPPPLE SAUCE!!!!!!!!!!!! GIRL YOU KNOW YOU ARE THAT ONE NEVER FORGET IT LITTLE SIS!!!!!!!!(SMILE)


MeLikeKmunch2 59M

5/18/2006 11:38 pm

Tiyannah. MZhuny's right I do need ta get ta know ya. I mean on some level, anyways. In many ways, I have been depicted the same way you have in my life. Moreso in my family then anywhere else, but that aspect of me is beginning to come out on this site.

I totally think it is important to stay true to who you are regardless of what other people think.

Right from the beginning, of coming onto this site, I had my profile criticized right away, and everyone jumped on the band wagon, but I didn't let it get to me, because I knew where I was going with everything.

No one else could possibly have. They still can't. Getting to know a person is an ongoing journey, and if someone makes their mind up about me right away, they will never get to know me.

I can understand being cold to people, because there are so many people in the world that aren't worth your time. I have come across many people in my life who just seemed to be clued out of things in some way, and would never be able to relate to my intelligence. If someone fails to acknowledge my intelligence, I tend to get cold toward them. I'm not saying I need to be praised in any way, but if I come up with something that stems from intelligent thought, I like for them to at least ponder my intelligence. I mean, some people just seem unable to follow the path of who I am. What time could I have for them. Where could I possibly go with them. It's not like I want to be cold to them or anything, and for the most part, I be as nice to them as I can, but I just don't show alot of emotional warmth toward them, simply because I just don't feel it.

I think a person needs to stay true to what they truly feel nonetheless, and if you ever feel that you lack warmth toward someone, it's probably due to their inability to relate to you.

People that say that you are bitchy or stuck up clearly do not understand you, and it's probably because there is more to you than the mainstream society can grasp.
I have now discovered on this site, that the bulk of people are of inferior intelligence, or at least it seems. I talk about how I was misunderstood on this site in this post When You're Right and Everyone Else is Wrong I think it clearly demonstrates how inferior some people's intelligence is.

I think the problem that people like you and me have is that our intelligence is of a creative nature, and when we say something we create it with our own minds. There are so many people in this world without that ability, so they just say what they heard someone else say becaus ethey can't think of anything themselves. This type of thing spreads into social norms, and when people like us speak from our own minds, people don't get it, because it hasn't already come from someone else.

Don't feel bad for bein cold. It's the world, not you. I completely understand.


EbonyHnk 36M

5/19/2006 5:34 am

Dont take antagonism too seriously ! Find who you are inside and be confident and comfortable with that !

*Promised i'd drop in once in a while*


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