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I don't post very often only when the mood strikes and I feel like I need to clear my mind. Just a few short weeks ago I was lonely and horny as hell. I walked into a local bar specifically with one thing on my mind. Would there be anyone I could go home with that night for sex. You see just a week or so before I had talked to the person that I have had feelings for 25 years. I wanted more than the original friends with benefits situation he did not. So, into the bar I walked looking for nothing but someone to feel close to for just one night and I did. Now four weeks later I am developing feelings for this person and the person that I originally wanted to be with now decides that he wants to see me. He is in the servie and leaving for Iraq soon I being the person that I am will only have sex with one person at a time. I don't play the field, had this current situation not became what it is today but only a one night thing it would be different but it's not. So, now I feel even more confused than before and I ache for a lose that I have suffered over and over again with the same person. Were he to come to me today and tell me he wants more I'm not sure I really am not sure that I could give up this new person in my life right now but oh how I wish that I could go back and do it all over again. Would I do anything different? I don't know! Both are special people to me and both offer me something different. Do I love either of them, really? At this point I can't even answer that only time will tell what tomorrow will bring. Thanks for listening.
10/26/2005 6:15 pm
Hi LOVE confused. |
We all know your kind of situation, and its a nightmare.
But please honey if you like your new man, and he is kind and tender towards you stick to him if he makes your eyes sparkleof joy.
Yup you will never forget your first love but harmonie is right down your ally if you are good at solving problems out together and is able to talk about what is good the both of as of your future and all the small details in everyday life.
I hope your new man helps you cooking and cleaning at home. Anything else is neglect.
I´ve beeen in the army for 10 years, and believe me having children with a soldier that may often be aboad is NOT cool in any way. !!
You may experience that he comes home and is desperate and YOU will have to deal with all the frustrations that he carries.
Army sucks baby, and keep spoiling good young men for life, when send to war zones.
There simply is NO backup or evacuation planning.
These young guys just have to do on their own in a foreign country.
Sweet thoughts and a hug
10/30/2005 5:12 pm
Thanks Thomasdk5 your kind words are really appreciated. While I don't know what the future will hold I have pretty much decided to stick with this new guy for now. Since the love of my life hasn't responded to any of my emails since I told him I couldn't come see him before he leaves. Besides this new guy does put a smile on my face and a light in my eye. Children are not in the picture in either possible relationship so thankfully I don't have to worry about that. But this new guy is different than anybody else I have ever been with before and I really do like the new experiences he brings into my life. So, like I said before I will just take it one day at a time and see what tomorrow brings. Once again I want to thank you for your kind words they were truly uplifting to my spirits.|