beyond depressed  

teaser2009 34F
149 posts
7/31/2006 6:25 pm

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8/1/2006 1:51 pm

beyond depressed

And i know partially why...the other part, I don't. One year anniversary of paul's accident is September 15th...Wow...can't believe that.

My friend Tim is apparently moving to Florida. I'm not entirely sure I like that, and i'm not entirely sure why. I think it has to do with that I think we'd be good together, but he's moving halfway cross country. Actually, he and I are good together, we just haven't had enough chances to date.

I'm just sad. I feel alone. I don't want to go cry to my mom, I want to deal with this myself, but I am not sure why. I feel like everyone is moving on with life and so damn happy, and here I am, a sad little girl. No one to love me or care about me. No one who wants to check on me everyday and say "I love you". No one who wants me to call them and talk in silly voices. I'm not asking for much really. Just love.

I had love. i lost love. And yes, it would be easier if we had broken up instead of him dying. But i wasn't given that option. I was given the option of being a widower at 22 and realizing that it might be awhile before I find my soulmate again, so i'm going to be single for awhile. I'm not settling, i want amazing.

Until then, right now, i'm beyond depressed. I'll be curled up in my bed, snuggling with my pillows, and pretending that life isn't passing me by.

rm_Icewomin 47F
610 posts
7/31/2006 7:12 pm

teaser, the anniversary of your fiance's death is going to be tough. and you've gotten bad news on another friend's physical presence in your are sad right now, and with would be pretending to say otherwise.

i don't think there's anything wrong with curling up in your bed, snuggling with your pillows, and letting life pass you by for a bit.

when you're ready to venture back into it, the world will be ready to receive you. i wish you good luck and better days ahead.

STCMOguy4fun 37M

8/1/2006 11:52 am

I hope you are feeling a bit better.....

Talk at you later


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