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In the Beginning
In the Beginning
Before I can figure out where I'm going, I should probably recap where I've been. To really understand who I am and what drives me to do what I do ya gotta know where I'm coming from. I was never the popular kid in class. didn't have many friends. Sat alone during lunch. Spent my weekends in bed or in front of the TV. I was a social hermit. Just going through life, waiting for everything to work out so I could be happy, whatever that is..... High school, college, Audio engineering school. Through 1 job after another. 1 career after another. I kept telling myself "my life sucks now but as soon as _____ happens I'll start to be happy" you could imaging what my love/lust life was at this time. Along the way I've found a career. I work as a banquet captain. I love my job. I couldn't imagine doing anything else. 2 years ago My career found me in Dallas Texas opening up a new resort hotel. For those who can't put 2 and 2 together, opening a new property and starting from scratch is one of the most stressful, and challenging tasks one can take on. 3/4 of new hotel management no longer work in that property after a year. In this particular place the percentage was a perfect 100%. after 5 months of working with in an awful miserable depressing department, I quit, thinking that with my skills I could easily find another job. 7 months later found me in my bathrobe in my bed all day for weeks and weeks on end emptying out my savings. Thank God that I have family that loves me and takes care of me. My sister (my hero) basically said " this ain't right. Somethings wrong." I was diagnosed with severe depression. I've been and continue to suffer from depression for nearly 20 years. For those who know me would find this fact very hard to believe. Modern Medicine is amazing. With the help of a therapist and drugs I've come out of the shadows and found out what life is supposed to be like. And after a year of getting by I've found myself in Vegas working in one of the biggest convention centers in the world and loving every minute of it.
So that's my past, at least the past my family and co-workers know about. There's more to the story. That's where AdultFriendFinder comes into play. Needless to say the depression significantly stunted my social growth. I'm now finding myself learning those life lessons the rest of the world learns as adolescence. I still find myself reverting to the shy, introverted guy when I'm out in public with people. It was suggested to me to find Internet friends to help ease into a social life. And that's how I've found myself here. It's one of the best things that's happened to me. Some of my closest and deepest friends, I've found here. Best friends, roommates, party friends, and some amazing sex. I wouldn't trade it for the world.