2 roads diverge in a forrest  

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12/17/2005 5:24 am

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2 roads diverge in a forrest


So I'm at a crossroads. One road leads me down the same path I've been going on sense joining AdultFriendFinder. The path of finding friends and fuck buddies. Enjoying sex and discovering who I am, sexually. One would think that I should prolly have figured this out by now. Read the previous blog and you'll understand. I like the adventure of it all. It's a path of discovery. Finding out just how kinky I actually am. (much kinkier than I thought I was) But it's missing something. there's a void. a blank part that makes the encounters and exploration somewhat less that it could be. There's no emotional bond. And there lies the other road. Searching for a companion. someone to share the journey with. In layman terms, a Girlfriend. And there's the dilemma. These 2 paths are to traveled down by 2 different modes of transportation. It's not easy to pull off "Yes, I want a relationship but that's not your thing, we can still just be fuck buddies" Even I find it shallow and hollow. But it's as honest and sincere as I know to be. Where do I go? Do I completely give up on casual sex in search of something lasting that may or may not come my way for quite some time? Or do I continue to have fun, hopping that I might stumble upon the right person? (I say this as if I actually have something to forgo. It's been pretty slow since I've moved here, but that's for another post) I have no Idea what to do. I'm lost. I find myself trying for both and succeeding in getting neither.

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