WIth a tear I bid Adieu.......  

tattooedartist 44M
459 posts
8/26/2005 7:58 am

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WIth a tear I bid Adieu.......

Ya know it is odd, for months now I have woke up and the first thing I do before I do anything is get on here and begin my day. I write, I play, I dream and I share.....I enjoy and I smile at all the beauty found in these pages. Now, in a few days my blogs and my profile will be lost into oblivion, never to return and although I know it must be....I am saddened.

For me, I must be honest and tell you I wanted more, I dreamed of more yet for some reason what I wanted never came true. The disappointment that seemed to envelope me over and over became a burden that I find hard to bare. I was wrapped in my disappointment and the dream began to become an obsession. I had very intimate conversations with a few of you, shared online friendships that I will still hold onto and cherish. Its been a journey of self discovery and love, of charity and kindness, of fantasy and lust.....a very real dream with very real stories.

Several times I was deeply hurt when others accused me of being untruthful or of being crazy....needing therapy but in the end, I realized thats what this place is about.....people sharing their opinions. Its taught me greater patience and held me to a deeper calling within.

Now because of reasons that would not make sense to alot of you, my time here in this beautiful land has come to an end. I realize how hard it is going to be for me to let it all go, for I cherish you all more than you will ever know. In secret I love, in silence I wonder, into the void.....I evolve.

I will miss you, you beautiful creatures and the wants I have for you are beyond anything Ive ever shared with strangers. I would pluck out eternity to give you a taste of what I wish you would know.

So this day, one of the final day of my blog I want to say thank you to all of those who have touched my soul. I am a quiet man if you would believe that and there are much I have shared in the silence of my heart and mind. I leave now and I take a great many of you with me, into my stories and into the world that I create. I sit here and I look in my home and how much I wanted to bring you here to share in the beauty of my lifes work. I look into my art room and I see a few paintings that I have done in the image of some of those who I found in this beautiful place.

It is hard to work on writing for a living when I put all of my heart and soul here, with you. At the end of the day when it comes to my bread and butter, I sit with my mute heart for I have brought all of my cares and needs to the pages of my heart, here in this vast land. It is almost more than I can bare to have such need of those who have captured the beast within and sitting in years of silence as I hope and wait for what will neverr come.

It has become too much for me and I hope if nothing else, you take this as a compliment.

Honestly? There is one who could have changed it all. It is my fault, I am truly a fool. Yet, in a fools heart you will find the truth of love and a lifetime of strength few will ever know.

This day I bid you all adieu.......I have loved you. I will go on loving you still but this is the last day I will visit this place. KNow that I wish you all of lifes rewards and a serenity that gives your heart joy. I carry you, with me to a world unknown.

May God bless and keep you, as only He can.

Adieu to you, one and all. You are such special people. I will miss you............always.


Synn74 42F
1206 posts
8/26/2005 4:55 pm

and we will miss you as well I hope you will read my message I have posted to withing my I never wanted goodbye post

It will be difficult to watch you leave but your prescence will always remain within those you have so deeply touched..I being one

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

pussnboots694 73M/78F

8/26/2005 6:32 pm

Even on your last post..
Your beauty lives on..
Touching the heart strings of those who love you so..
Please read my response to your goodbye..
Brought down is for you..
I breath in.. is as well..
you inspire me as no other..
Thank you precious sweet angel..
I shall never forget

GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11240 posts
8/28/2005 12:40 pm

I cannot say anything those before me haven't said much better

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