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WIth a tear I bid Adieu.......
WIth a tear I bid Adieu.......
Ya know it is odd, for months now I have woke up and the first thing I do before I do anything is get on here and begin my day. I write, I play, I dream and I share.....I enjoy and I smile at all the beauty found in these pages. Now, in a few days my blogs and my profile will be lost into oblivion, never to return and although I know it must be....I am saddened.
For me, I must be honest and tell you I wanted more, I dreamed of more yet for some reason what I wanted never came true. The disappointment that seemed to envelope me over and over became a burden that I find hard to bare. I was wrapped in my disappointment and the dream began to become an obsession. I had very intimate conversations with a few of you, shared online friendships that I will still hold onto and cherish. Its been a journey of self discovery and love, of charity and kindness, of fantasy and lust.....a very real dream with very real stories.
Several times I was deeply hurt when others accused me of being untruthful or of being crazy....needing therapy but in the end, I realized thats what this place is about.....people sharing their opinions. Its taught me greater patience and held me to a deeper calling within.
Now because of reasons that would not make sense to alot of you, my time here in this beautiful land has come to an end. I realize how hard it is going to be for me to let it all go, for I cherish you all more than you will ever know. In secret I love, in silence I wonder, into the void.....I evolve.
I will miss you, you beautiful creatures and the wants I have for you are beyond anything Ive ever shared with strangers. I would pluck out eternity to give you a taste of what I wish you would know.
So this day, one of the final day of my blog I want to say thank you to all of those who have touched my soul. I am a quiet man if you would believe that and there are much I have shared in the silence of my heart and mind. I leave now and I take a great many of you with me, into my stories and into the world that I create. I sit here and I look in my home and how much I wanted to bring you here to share in the beauty of my lifes work. I look into my art room and I see a few paintings that I have done in the image of some of those who I found in this beautiful place.
It is hard to work on writing for a living when I put all of my heart and soul here, with you. At the end of the day when it comes to my bread and butter, I sit with my mute heart for I have brought all of my cares and needs to the pages of my heart, here in this vast land. It is almost more than I can bare to have such need of those who have captured the beast within and sitting in years of silence as I hope and wait for what will neverr come.
It has become too much for me and I hope if nothing else, you take this as a compliment.
Honestly? There is one who could have changed it all. It is my fault, I am truly a fool. Yet, in a fools heart you will find the truth of love and a lifetime of strength few will ever know.
This day I bid you all adieu.......I have loved you. I will go on loving you still but this is the last day I will visit this place. KNow that I wish you all of lifes rewards and a serenity that gives your heart joy. I carry you, with me to a world unknown.
May God bless and keep you, as only He can.
Adieu to you, one and all. You are such special people. I will miss you............always.
8/26/2005 4:55 pm
and we will miss you as well I hope you will read my message I have posted to withing my I never wanted goodbye post |
It will be difficult to watch you leave but your prescence will always remain within those you have so deeply touched..I being one
I welcome you to the House of Syn...
8/26/2005 6:32 pm
Even on your last post..|
Your beauty lives on..
Touching the heart strings of those who love you so..
Please read my response to your goodbye..
Brought down is for you..
I breath in.. is as well..
you inspire me as no other..
Thank you precious sweet angel..
I shall never forget
8/28/2005 12:40 pm
I cannot say anything those before me haven't said much better|