The terrible dawn.......  

tattooedartist 44M
459 posts
6/17/2005 4:47 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

The terrible dawn.......

The dawn came and I am now looking here, at some of those I love and cherish deeply. It is nights like this that are beautiful and makes me wish the dawn would have never came.

I had a terrible day yesterday, it is unusual for me to be so affected by something but to see someoen I love hurt so terribly is almost more than I can bare.

I called a friend yesterday and asked him to meet me for lunch. We met down in Indy at a small cafe where we could eat outside. So I ordered my quiche and he had the tuna and we sat talking and laughing at eachother. It always warms me so to see old friends. Its been a few weeks since I seen him. Last time I saw him we were both drunk (which I never do) and he was fighting with his boyfriend as I did my best to stay upright (drink in hand) on the dancefloor. I told him of the responses on my blog and we both laughed and he made the comment that he wishes I were gay. I love him for it and gave him a big hug. lol

As we ate and smoked Nat Sherman MGD cigarettes we enjoyed the weather and as the conversation went on he began to get real serious and layed some bombs on me I was not prepared for. I wont say what it was but let me just say he was really hurting. So as he talked and began to cry I did all I could to continue eating and smile at him as the tears silently flowed down my cheeks. Thats my job, to be the strong and supportive one. He talked on and on and I realized it was time for me to act, intevention is needed.

SO I got on the phone right there and called "the gang" and then I called his boy and we had a nice, very direct conversation in which I explained my friend would not be home tonight or any night until he got his head out of his ass. I then told him that we would be bye in a few minutes to get a few things and that he was not to be there (The beauty of being a heavily tattooed man). I then got into my GTI and drove my friend to his house to get some things and drove him to my house for a night of laughter and stupidity (which I think we all needed).

It was a fun night but for the most part we watched some movies and played cards. Two other of "the gang" (long time friends) showed up, even though they are both married and we all spent the entire night talking, laughing and crying. I cannot rememebr the last time I laughed and cried so much. I made a fabulous dinner (Lemon pepper cod with a vegetable sidedish, Manu Rice with oranges and of course my infamous salad with black pepper and vinagarette bacon dressing) and we drank cheap "Boone's Farm" sangria (old school). After the night was all done and we were all wore out my friend collapsed in my own and only bed and all of us jumped in. I slept for about four hours but as Ive woke up early, I wanted to sit back and watch them all. WHo knos if we will ever get to do this again!!!

So as I sit here typing this and look over to my left at a bed full of those I love the most I am humbled and content more than ever. WHat a beautiful site to see three people cuddled up in bed just because they love eachother and wanted to be there to be supportive. Everyone cried, we all laughed and in the end we all just jumped in bed with our pj's on (for you sex minded and cuddled into one another. Now I am left realizing the night it over and the dawn is here. Although the tragedy will live on into the day the beauty of this night will stay with me forever. I havent felt this much at home in years and years.

I wanted to share that with you. Its warm in here, for the first time in a long time. I am going back to bed so get in a few last snuggles before the real world comes home. Have a beautiful day all of you.



pussnboots694 73M/78F

6/17/2005 6:29 am

Precious moments like this, etched into your very being, a gift so beautiful...friends like this are hard to find indeed... you are the richest man of fortune ever...
Thank you for making me smile so early in the morning

GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11240 posts
6/17/2005 8:25 am

What a good capture of a very beautiful moment in time, not only important to you but to all of you as you are there. I can just see you sitting there ...

Your friends are lucky to have you, as you are to have them. Congratulations to you all for cherishing each other and value you for what you are.

he don't like me no more .... waaaaaah.... (j/k)

XXjuliettaXX 42F

6/17/2005 8:39 am

hey baby....just wanted to say halla if ya hear me!! lol corny i know but it sounds fun!! i missed a party and you didnt invite me? just so all of you ladies will know, this is one of the greatest men i have ever known. we have been friends for about five years, is that right...five? time sure flies!!!! he has always been there for me down and out with all of my drama. J you know i am the queen!!! lol well, i hope you girls treat him right, you have no idea what your missin if you dont!!! just checkin on ya, makin sure your havin fun! thanks for the chair, its beautiful. chow

1playfulgal 39F
1828 posts
6/17/2005 8:58 am

ah...the love between true friends can not be matched...your story gave me a warm fuzzy feeling...if only every one had friends like that...

bella_ 47F
4030 posts
6/19/2005 8:07 pm

My God, you write so beautifully...I am addicted.

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