Emails from the abyss....  

tattooedartist 44M
459 posts
6/15/2005 11:26 am

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Emails from the abyss....

Good Morning dear one's.....

When I filled out my profile they asked me if I was straight, bisexual, bi-curious or gay. I answered straight because, well....I am. Yet this has not stopped my receiving flattering emails from men asking if I would be interested in meeting for??????. I appreciate the compliments gentlemen, truly I do. Please read on.

In my last blog I described a woman I loved. One time I was in my studio and tattooing a guy I knew from school. I had him layed out on a table and believe it or not I was tattooing his stomach. Angel and a couple of her friends were there and we were all listneing to music and having a good time. Angel was watching me very directly as I leaned onto this mans stomach doing the tattoo and right in the middle of it she walked right up to me and ushered for me to lean to her so she could whisper something in my ear. What she told me was that watching me touch another man was turning her on so bad she wanted to have sex right there. Up until that time I had really never given it much thought but I loved her and loved her deeply. I would have given her anything. And I must admit, the idea had taunted me on more than one occasion. It was around the time when "Interview with a Vampire" had came out and she and I had joked on several occasions that the site of Antonio bandarres with his long hair and painted toe nails was alot for anyone to bare. lol

So after a few months of playing with the idea and alot of flirting with eachother we ended up in a situation where there was another man in the picture. He was beautiful, powerful and very respectful. It was a sexual escapade that I would....how do I put it......end up investigating thoroughly on several occasions. She loved it and quite frankly, I did as well. It was erotic, it was hot and it was in its own way, blissful.

Over the years I've played with alot of sexual experiences and fantasies. I've danced as a male dancer for Baccalaureate parties and for a few months at a all male strip club in Miami. I have seriously sought out the whispers and questions of my longings and always done all I could to satisfy my lover, to whatever end necessary. I have no regrets and no remorse.

NOW, having said all that....let me say that I am not interested in men. Do I see men I think are beautiful....YES!! and I admire them as I do all beautiful things. Not that I would turn down a beautiful opportunity for the VERY unique experience but that when I think of sex or my desires it does not involve a man.

I am probably one of the most sensual and sexual men you will ever meet. I am totally in touch with both the aggressive and passive (male and female) parts of my soul and have asked all the pertinent questions. I have sought the deepest, darkest parts of my inner self and I can honestly say, I know myself completely. I am just attracted to women and the female body. The thoughts and desires I have inside for a beautiful woman some would find obscene and just plain sinful. Yet I want what I want and I am a man through and through......to call me dominant would be an understatement.

So please gentlemen. I do so love gay men and women. I think they are beautiful and powerful and I realize it takes alot of courage to choose this life. I would befriend you and love you but I am not interested in sex in this way. My birth mother is a lesbian as well as one of my birth brothers is gay as well as more than a few of my friends and colleagues. So please do not think I am being judgmental or nasty in any way. I've satisfied my inquiries and answered the questions I needed to answer and have made my choices.

So to all I say be well, have fun and live your life true. It is the only one your going to get.

Adieu,

J


tattooedartist 44M

6/15/2005 4:24 pm

MONT......is this your way of asking me out?

J


naughty5171 45F

6/15/2005 4:45 pm

mont....I have to disagree with you there. There are alot of men that would go to great lengths to satisfy their woman. I truly admire those men, for they are the ones truly in touch with themselves. If you aren't willing to fulfill your lovers greatest sexual fantasies, then you aren't truly satisfying them. I am speaking as a woman who only recently discovered that she enjoys watching two straight men together.It really turns me on in ways I have never imagined. Now, I am not neccesarily speaking of intercourse but, primarily oral gratification. Just as men find it amazing to watch two women together. There is no difference. I am not lesbian or bi, nor have I ever been with another woman. However, if my lover asked me to as a special favor to him, I might allow another woman to perform oral on me. That doesn't change my sexuality, it only makes me a better lover, because I am willing to satisfy the person I am with totally and completely. I think people who judge others for being as open and honest as J has been are the ones who need to look deep within themselves and find out who they really are. You don't know this man. I don't even know him as well as I would like, but I know him well enough to know that you are wrong. He is a great man and actually he doesn't even need me to defend him,He's probably thinking everyone is entitled to their own opinion. I just couldn't help it. I always read his blogs and get such enjoyment out of losing myself in them. He's a great man and I adore him. I wish all men could even be half the man that he is! J, you're the best,sweetie!
~Naugthy~


pussnboots694 73M/78F

6/15/2005 7:45 pm

Your open honesty is one of your strongest traits.. I truely admire that in a man, as I wander through my own sexual encounters, I can truely tell you I do not regret any of them, I have many more to explore and truely look forward to each and everyone of them.

Honestly a man in a couple situation, has to be somewhat okay with another man touching him otherwise it would be impossible to pleasure your wife with double penetration, and if they are both inside of her pussy... well some contact is going to happen, it doesn't mean they are gay, it means they enjoy the pleasure they are giving and receiving, and there is truely no reason to label it as anything other than just that... pleasure in its purest form...

Kisses my love


bella_ 47F
4030 posts
6/15/2005 9:40 pm

Why do we categorize everything? Experiences are experiences...preferences are preferences...and they are just that...there doesn't need to be a name or a word for it.


duckey524 34M/35F

6/15/2005 10:08 pm

J I respect your blog and the beautiful prose, I am honored that you would let so much of yourself out in the open, that makes you a true man.


tattooedartist 44M

6/16/2005 6:58 am

Its ok Naughty, everyone is entitled to their opinion, I mean isnt that what this site is about?

My blog today is going to be about judgement and the role it plays in limiting our lives. We will see what responses I get from it.


tattooedartist 44M

6/16/2005 1:08 pm

Thank you and hats off to you Puss and Bella....how true you are!!!

duckey, thank you from the bottom of a deep heart. I am humbled, truly.

With love to you all, how special you are to me.

J


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