A lil bit of sunshine....  

tattooedartist 44M
459 posts
7/22/2005 5:16 am

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A lil bit of sunshine....


I have written of my mother, told woe's of a lost love, I have written about an admired beauty but there is one woman in my life I have never written about, so here you go.

She is the most beautiful woman in my life by far. She looks at me with those blue eyes and every detail of her, every ounce of her perfection leads me into Gods arms.... reminding me of his perfection, even in my frailty.

It was the evening hours yesterday. I sat on my couch and quite frankly, I was thinking about you and how I have not blogged for a few days. That is was time to get off my bum and do so. Then I heard the words....

"Daddy, daddy."

As I looked down there she stood. My little one year old angel, with her deft blue eyes and her long blonde curls. Vying for her daddy's attention, which I rain upon her constantly when she is at my house. I bend down and snatch her into my arms and I know it is time for our nightly routine at my home....it is only in dads land, where the dreams live that she can spend time like this.

I walk her over to the shelf, as we approach she is already giggling with excitement, she loves this part of the day, as do I. I lean down and grab a book off the shelf and walk her over to the couch and set her down next to me.

"Book" she says.

"Yes, it is a book. Shakespeare, this is Shakespeare."

I opened up and began to read her the story of Hamlet, one of my favorites. I get up and pace the floor and read to her, using body motions and body language to convey myself as I go along. She laughs and giggles, as she always has. It is so entertaining to her.

As we went on into the night we read a few stories and moved on to singing...(my favorite part). As she got to the point of our routine where she knows it is time for bed she walks up to snuggle into my arms. I again pickle her up and and we begin to dance. The house is quiet with lots of white candles, as is my custom of the evening. We sway back and forth in the nightlite as I sing songs to her. I sing songs from the Phantom of the opera, some gospel hymns like Amazing grace (her favorite) and many more. We move our way into her room, the celing is lit with big glows balls and the empty space is filled with paper stars hanging from yarn strings.

We dance and sway as I sing and she lays her little beautiful head upon my chest. I know it is because she can hear the hum of my deep voice through my chest cavity. I have sung to her since she was born on our nightly routine. She has never lived with me, so my house is like fantasy land to her. Above her bedroom door hangs a sign that says "Neverland". I break into a swinging motion as I dance and soon her fingers stop rolling around my shirt and she is gone to dreamland. I lay her in her crib and cover her in the blanket.....which she will not leave on for more than five minutes. I continue to softly sing as I walk over and turn on her music and walk out of the room. I shut the pocket doors and smile form ear to ear. Another job well done, another night that is one step closer to building her into a strong, confident, capable and beautiful dreamer of a woman. One day, she will be the woman God has created her to become.

She is off to neverland and I go off to play with my paint. As I paint I think of all the things I want to show her and teach her as she grows. In my studio there is already a small easel for her that she does fingerpaints on. She is working on two and she already understand some words in Spanish, French and can do all the basics in sign language. She loves to read and see the fantasy in it, she loves the telling of the stories...which is the important part. If you look around her room, you will find a fully functional Jaymar miniature piano, a play cello and a mini guitar. On her daystand, along with her stereo you will find CD's of Beethoven, Back, Handel and my Mozart. She listens to them every night when she sleeps. I will introduce her to a world of rich color, full of beauty and tragedy. Both sides of the living coin in which we live. I hope and I pray for her every waking moment of my life, that by being the kind of man I try to be for her, she will see the kind of man I want for her and it will help her be the woman God wants her to be. Both in her strengths and in her weakness'. To love everyone, flaws and all....even the ones she cant see.

What a blessing she is, she is the hand of God reminding me life is ever full of the beauty that can only come from his hand.

I awaken and the morning comes, the sun rises and as I lay there I can hear.....

"Daddy, Daddy."

I smile, this is the greatest way to start the day.

J

ANewLevel4Us 38M/37F

7/22/2005 8:34 am

That was incredibly sweet!


pussnboots694 73M/78F

7/22/2005 8:38 am

It is truely captivating to watch our little ones grow..
How they touch us deep within..
Making us laugh
Making us cry
Immortal love lives on...
Our ritual of me singing, and reading to my son..
Has changed to him reading, and singing to me
I think by far what I enjoy the most is his artwork..
He always tells me "mom you are such a good artist"..
and then he will show me such an detailed drawing of a car, or a monster..
I am always amazed at how he has developed his talents...

It warmed my heart to read this post..
brought tears to my eyes..
and filled my soul with a new admiration for you...
I think of all the things my sons father is missing...
through your eyes I am able to touch the fantasy world I have always dreamed of ..
I would like to extend a hug to you and your little one...
from us..
Thank you for sharing..
Always in my heart


pussinboots4u 50M/47F

7/22/2005 9:02 am

This is such a sweet post! Sounds like she will have many great memories of her childhood.


Ana_6973 43F

7/22/2005 9:57 am

What a wonderful way to start the day! I have to say some of my happiest childhood memories are ones with my father. I was definitely Daddy's little girl. She is one lucky little girl.

~~"I can scream as loud as your last one, but I can't claim innocence."~~


BLONDENEEDSSEX 57F

7/22/2005 10:26 am

One of God`s greatest gifts is the extention of ourselves.One that enriches our lives and makes us whole , even if other parts of our lives seem empty.Yes the greatest of gifts may God bless them all.

Blonde


rm_talldarkavg1 105M
10172 posts
7/22/2005 10:48 am

Precious indeed are these moments. A month ago I did the same to my oldest. 3 weeks ago she graduated. 2 weeks ago got married. Last week had my grand daughter. If only time were slower.

[blog talldarkavg1]


starlight_runner 39F

7/22/2005 10:57 am

I have been waiting for this post.Im not dissapointed.

kisses for the little one.Isnt Hamlet a bit scary for her? I think she might be better off with one of his comedies.

Star


tattooedartist 44M

7/22/2005 1:12 pm

A new level.....Thanks to you all for your lovely comments and expressions. TO be a father is the greatest blessing indeed.

Puss, your a beautiful mother and a beauty, thank you.
Lookin4fun.....graci, truly.

puss....I hope so, it is my greatest dream.
Ana....sounds like your daddy is pretty lucky too!!!
Blonde, dear blonde......you are a blessing. thanks for you words and your beautiful blog.
TALL......Sounds like the greatest congrats are coming to you!!! I cant wait, I cant wait...BUT I am enjoying the moments I am having now. A few weeks ago she was playing with a cousin, he is her age. THey hugged and stood there holding hands watching Dora (the cartoon) and before I knew it I saw her walking down the aisle and the hopes and dreams, my wants for her rose up within me....I cried and cried so hard I had to leave the room. Congradulations dear father and friend, triumph is yours.

Star.....I am glad you were not disappointed. As for Hamelt....In my house we embrass the woes of life along with the beauty's, each are a gift from God. I do not shelter my daughter from struggle or from the tragedy of our whimsical comedy of life...I dont brude it on her either. I think if you were to hear me read it to her, you would of thought Hamlet was a comedy!! lol. As she grows in her mind and spirit, she will begin to embrass the struggles of life...both hers and others and I will hpefully accomplish to teach her to always see the beauty, even in the pain. Hamlet did, Shakespeare did, I do and hopefully...Lord willing, one day my dear B will as well.

I bare you all love and whimsical dreams to be.....

Always

J


__Huntress__ 55M/58F

7/22/2005 6:40 pm

Simply beautiful ...


GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11240 posts
7/23/2005 3:08 pm

you're absolutely right ....


mastre03 63M

7/23/2005 4:45 pm

that Dad thing is totally powerful, great and challenging too
keep up the great work you sensitive dude you
bests,


redlipsprincess
(Princess Lips)
51F

7/24/2005 1:07 am

J,
so beautiful and sweet...
Sounds like you have a very loving creative little girl.
Enjoy her.
Life does go by fast, but each moment has its glory and lesson.

TTFN


rm_bella_ 47F
4030 posts
7/25/2005 2:34 pm

She is by far the most important little woman in your life...she will love you until the ends of time, until the end of your time...love like this is so sweet.


taodoug65 51M
262 posts
7/26/2005 12:58 am

Again.. Wow.. And life with children.. Only gets better.. It does me good to read words.. Of the joy a child brings to a dad's life.. I know my daughter is 16 now.. and my son is 13. I still to this day enjoy when I get a hug from them.. Or when I am called upon to just be a friend. And I wish I could slow time down.. It is good to read about how some one see's the blessings bestowed upon themselves. And always remembers to thank the lord for his little ball of energetic blessings placed in each of our lives.

Who know's I think I will enjoy watching your blog.. It is a good place.. Congrates and keep blogging.


yagottalikit 49F
583 posts
7/26/2005 4:58 am

Phenomenal! I am hooked on this blog, now.....thank you for sharing your talent!!!!!

Yagotta get it soft and wet so we can kick/stick it


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