Everything / someday / Everyday  

taodoug65 51M
301 posts
6/21/2005 5:45 pm

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Everything / someday / Everyday


These are words that cover a lot of different things.

For me. I was told years ago. Mr. Hansen, we will do everything to get this taken care of. then they said 'Now with this famous guy getting ill, it will bring someday. Faster.

Now it is maybe someday we can fix everything. But my today's are making itharder to hang on for someday.

This was to give those that have been reading my blogs a help into wondering my ups my downs..

I had prayed someday. To love just once more. Everyday that goes by takes me further away from that chance.

I got a call this evening. A friend I made 7 years ago had finally gave up fighting. Gave up fighting for that someday to show...

For those thinking I am speaking of AID"S that is not it. She was fighting a tumor that goes from the brain stem and connects to the spinal cord.

This causes you to have baby gran mauls. The Doctors can go in scrape it out. But if they do too much. You become a vegitable or paralyzed or both amd take chemo like she did. Or you do like I have done and go through alternative medicine. To help yourself. Either way life goes quick.

Funny thing is, I refused treatment not just because I was scared. But so that even to this day. None in my family have been told. Not my children, my ex, my mothers, brothers, or sisters.

My friend, I met when I was first diagnosed gave up fighting. I was called a few hours ago. Left me a note.. She wished me luck. Told me not to morn her death. But remember our friendship. I thought she was going to go home soon. I go to her funeral this friday.

DAMN HER.. DAMN HER.. DAMN HER.. DAMN HER..

keithcancook 60M
17718 posts
6/21/2005 6:59 pm

My heart is heavy for you my friend. Carry on!


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