Too shy  

swordman68123 34M
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3/7/2006 9:52 am

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3/7/2006 9:56 am

Too shy


why is it on those rare occassions that I"m home and havn't spent all my money on the road, thus am able to go out for a while I can never go talk to someone? For as little as i care about what ppl think why am i afraid to take a chance on having a little fun, maybe sparking a serious relasionship? it's not as if I havn't heard the word "no" before, you'd think I"d be used to it if you look at percentages, but because i never ask, that's not exactly a big number to take a percentage of....... Why not take the chance and ask for a dance, or buy a drink? Why can't i put on the same confident face that I can when talking on the phone or internet? It's like just the sight of a woman I"m interested in turns me into a comatose shell that can only sit and take another sip of my drink while my buddy sits there and tells me what a pussy I am. Is it wrong to want a woman who knows what she wants and goes for it? I may not be the best lookin guy in the world but that's my point, i want a woman who can get passed looks and have a philosophical or intellectual conversation, that is more interested in the person than what her friends would think if they saw her with "him" not that I"m looking for a serious relasionship right out the gate, I"d love to just have some fun for a while while looking for the right person, but does that mean just cause I"m a guy I ALWAYS have to make the first move? I guess I"m just afraid that if I'm myself I"ll start to ramble on as i have a tendancy to do and ruin things before they get started.

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