meeting for the first time tomorrow  

sweethoneysouth 37F
517 posts
1/24/2006 6:15 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

meeting for the first time tomorrow

AdultFriendFinder has become my playground. It has become more than just a sex site. This is a place where I am free to express my self. My real thoughts, my desires, and fears. It is where I, normally a shy and introverted girl becomes an outspoken and outgoing woman.

I have always been extremely self conscious. To be truthfully honest when i look in the mirror some days I absolutely hate myself and my appearance. I would have never thought me capable of posting pictures of my body for others to see. I have found that I can not only do it, but I like to post them as well. I feel more confidant. I walk a bit taller. I am still self conscious but I have more confident moments than before.

There is a meet and greet tomorrow in my area. I am going to go but I am extremely nervous for several reasons.
1 - Its easier to be brave and witty hidden behind the anonymity of on-line. Once I meet people I will be opening myself up to situations I may be uncomfortable in.
2 - I have social anxiety. My mind goes blank and I may stutter when trying to speak at first. How embarrassing is that??
3 - I am afraid of meeting and sending mixed signals. Because of my no one on one rule, people may think that because I am there I may be open to more than chat.
4 - I know I shouldn't but I am terrible afraid of what others think and I would hate to be insulted or made fun of.

I am a worry wart by nature. I agreed to go because even though I am scared I think it will be a good growing experience for me. A way to meet new friends, and put faces with names. And an outlet to relax and just hang out for a little while.

I am sure it will all turn out fine, but I am still scared none the less... I will keep you posted on how it goes.


sharewus2 40M/32F

1/24/2006 7:50 pm

hey, sweetie you'll be fine...i think i know the m&g you're talking about and some of the people you'll be meeting are great. falcon is a perv but he's a sweet guy...just try to be yourself, and everyone will ove you, you're f-ing gorgeous...i only wish i could come meet you

rm_mgunnz 37M
6 posts
1/24/2006 9:26 pm

Way to jump out there I hope you meet some nice people while you are there. Sounds like you are ready to do the damn thing so dont sweat the small stuff and enjoy the moment for what it is worth!! You will have people enjoying your sense of humor and your confidence that you will gain fro this will have you excitied to do it again.. Later SHS

sweethoneysouth 37F
280 posts
1/25/2006 8:43 am

sharewus - Thanks so much! You are such a sweet person and very sexy yourself. We will definately meet someday. Hopefully sooner than later! Maybe I will take phin up on the offer and meet at the taj next time

sweethoneysouth 37F
280 posts
1/25/2006 8:45 am

thanks mgunnz! I will keep you posted.

mrsanders2 48M

1/25/2006 9:56 am

We will watch out for you today, SHS! As for social anxiety, I have it too, so you will have company! Also, as for what people think of will have at least one fan there tonight!

sweethoneysouth 37F
280 posts
1/26/2006 2:29 am

I went to the meet and greet last night and had a great time! I met a lot of great people and all the worry was for nothing. I will elaborate more in my post tonight

semperfi2u 46M
129 posts
1/31/2006 2:27 am

You have crossed the line into adulthood my dear! You conquered your fears and are becoming comfortable with who you are... It only gets better! are sexy...keep the pics cuming!
I'm glad I stopped by for a visit…

sweethoneysouth 37F
280 posts
1/31/2006 3:00 pm

All it is official... Semper has declared me woman. HEAR ME ROAR!!!

rm_sonny0525 73M

2/1/2006 6:23 am

Sweet, you showed no social anxiety yesterday. It was a pleasure chatting with you and hope to see more of you.

sweethoneysouth 37F
280 posts
2/1/2006 10:25 am

thanks sonny! and the pleasure was mine.

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