OUCH! Don't poke me there.  

sweethoneysouth 37F
517 posts
1/31/2006 3:22 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

OUCH! Don't poke me there.

It has been a tough day..

Or maybe a tough week. I could use a drink. I havent been sleeping much. This always happens in the winter. I get a little down, well actually sad. I don't know why but I do know I cant turn it off. Instead I retreat into myself.

Well today I was tired, and trying to pull my head into my shell gracefully.

There is this really intelligent and sexy man at my work. I mentioned him in the tall post. We have been flirting outrageously lately.

Today he wanted to be Dr P..il or something. His insight is amazing and he touched a little too close to home. I cried my eyes out (in private) because i'll be damned if he is going to know that. I dont know if its the things he said, or the fact that I am pms'ing, or the lack of sleep (it was probably a little of all three).

He has this way of making you bear your soul and your real thoughts. He will tolerate no less. So i really put it all out there and left myself vulnerable.

THe end result... He isnt interested. I understand his reasoning, and I even agree with him, but it still stung.

I get enough rejection at home. ANd I just wanted to feel desired for a little while.

Oh well... It is just a small bruise to the ego. It will heal. SHS's little dramatic pity party is officially over

SHS


Phineas2005 48M
854 posts
2/1/2006 10:48 am

Phineas, pours a drink a drink for SHS, hands it too her and hugs her.


rm_sonny0525 73M

2/1/2006 2:26 pm

Ditto Phineas,,,SHS, never put it all out there. Somewhere, you lost control of the situation. When it is something YOU want, you have to be the one in control...especially, of your own emotions. At least you are still the same sweet lady you were before all this happened.


B0wflex 43M
294 posts
2/1/2006 2:38 pm

Hey SHS, I understand the pain in which you speak of, I have been there and I use to cry. But then I came close to death and understood that life is WAAAAAAAYyyyyYYYyyyYyy to short and I can't base my life on what people think of me. Same applies to if a man is interested in you or not. There are PLENTY of MEN out there, if he doesn't want you and no one a home... GUESS WHAT? There are millions of men out there left to talk too. ONE, one of them has to want you. Besides you have enticed my interest and that has to count for something. Sure it's is just lust but it is better than nothing at all... I can't wait till I see you next week at the next Meet and Greet because I want to give you a BIG hug, and I don't like hugging new people. But I believe you need it so I will make an exception. Well if you ever need to talk write me and I'll give you my number and you and I can talk... I hope you have a better evening...
Bow


rm_shipguy2005 40M
73 posts
2/1/2006 3:20 pm

I hope that you feel better. I hate when you let yourself go out on the edge and all you get is rejection. You are a beautiful woman and any man that would not want you is crazy and should have his man card removed. If you want to talk write me.

ship


Brainy42 52M

2/1/2006 3:52 pm

Sweety, only a fool would reject you. Should you ever decide to run away from home, you're welcome here in the Great White North...


sweethoneysouth 37F
280 posts
2/1/2006 6:44 pm

phin: thanks for the hug. you rock! the drink as well... hopefully its not a strong one because i am a weakling... lol. MUAH!

sonny - you are so nice. i may have lost control (if i ever had it) but i dont regret putting it out there. i am open and honest by nature.

bow - lust is definately better than nothing. i cant wait for that hug. you look as though you have big strong arms ans SHS likes!

ship - i feel fine. i just had a little moment but its over. bow is right life is too short. this guy will never have his man card removed. he was being true to himself and you gotta respect that.

brainy - the offer to run away with you would be more appealing i the summer when its not so damn col there. lol. thanks for the pick me up... how are we doing on the "fuck me slim" program?


rm_sonny0525 73M

2/2/2006 7:11 am

SHS, it's OK to be open and honest, just leave a little something for the guy/girl to pursue. The mystery is what keeps relationships alive. When the hunt is over, what do you do then. I think this is why so many relationships fall apart. No more thrill of the hunt grows into monotony and boredom. (Trying hard not to be Dr P__l)


B0wflex 43M
294 posts
2/2/2006 3:47 pm

SHS,
Thank you for the complement and I will make sure you get to feel the guns of fun... and if you want you can touch the famous Penis as well.
Bow *still lusting*


sweethoneysouth 37F
280 posts
2/2/2006 6:41 pm

corrections: it is only fair

It was more me flirting outrageously.

He wasn't trying to be Dr Phil. I don't think he ever tries to be anything but what he is. He is true to self.

He knew i cried. but it was so embarassing the first time i didnt want to relive it in my blog

I can't say he wasnt interested, he most likely was tempted but made the noble decision for both himself and I

Yes it still stung, yes it is still better now. Yes He is still one of the smartest men I have ever met.

Most people will accept you for whqat you are, he is different because he makes me want to be better. i admire that so much...

It's amazing what a clear head will do for you.


B0wflex 43M
294 posts
2/4/2006 11:36 am

SOOooooo where does the gerbil come into play? I don't follow this...
Bow


B0wflex 43M
294 posts
2/4/2006 11:37 am

Does this mean you DON'T want to touch the famous Penis... I will have to tell him if so... He will be disappointed...
Bow


sweethoneysouth 37F
280 posts
2/4/2006 1:26 pm

Bow - the famous penis... does he want to be touched? or is he being bitchy today? does he ever tell you he has a headache? or to roll over and go back to sleep? please tell me more about him.

SHS


B0wflex 43M
294 posts
2/5/2006 12:15 am

I will tell Penis that you would like to talk to him. He will get back with you when he wakes up in the morning....
Bow


B0wflex 43M
294 posts
2/5/2006 11:18 am

Penis has a mind of his own most of the time. Yeah he does wake up before me and it does get annoying at times. But when he wants me to relieve his headaches he would rather have a woman help us but most of the time it's like a last minute thing and I do it myself. This at the end turns out well anyway so it’s all good. But he would love for you to touch him with either lips you would like to kiss him with. Well I would love to tell you more about him but what surprise will it be when you meet him in person, if you look at my pictures you can see him at his best. So if you want to just ask and I will make sure he gives you a great time. Have a great day!
Bow
Penis said hello too...


sweethoneysouth 37F
280 posts
2/6/2006 10:52 pm

Come on now... We all know I am a perv. What makes you think I havent already viewed your pics? More than once? or twice? lol.

XOXO


B0wflex 43M
294 posts
2/9/2006 3:08 pm

Good point.... Well so I guess you do want to touch Penis... I will let him know...
Bow


sweethoneysouth 37F
280 posts
2/10/2006 4:14 am

bow - wait... you might not want to tell penis, his head might swell.


B0wflex 43M
294 posts
2/10/2006 8:16 pm

hahahaha....
Bow


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