going from paris hilton of high school 2 an outsider in college  

sweetascandydiva 29F
31 posts
1/3/2006 7:57 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

going from paris hilton of high school 2 an outsider in college

I just don't understand it seriously, I"m in my freshman year of college at drexel university in Philadelphia, just finished my first term and it's like been a terrible experience the whole time. My first week there I was assaulted by a Upenn student who claimed to be 21 and after I filed charges I found otu he was 27! I still think about it and what happened, sometimes I blame myself, because when I got back to my dorm the night of the incident my roommate and other girls were like "well maybe if you didn't dress like that it wouldn't have happened." I thought to myself how the fuck could any1 be so cruel. I mean seriously I almost just got you would think I felt guilty and terrible enough I'm crying hysterically and than you have to add more pain and ridicule. fuck you. anywayz, College is just not what I expected. I wish I didn't graduate early, i wish i was in my senior year with all my friends enjoying being 18, going to parties and just having fun. but I chose a different road and now I can't go back. I don't know what to do I have some friends here, but even them I don't consider them True friends as they do me. Basically all the girls think I'm the ditzy legally blonde spoiled brat from ny and the guys, well the ones iove gone out either 1. just wanna hook up. or 2. think i'm too girly. what is up with that. I don't know what to do I mean I like who I am and I'm happy with myself and what I'm all about, but their not, i think they may be jealous, but it pisses me off. I mean just cuz i wear designer clothes and dress differently then them why does thta matter its not like i BRAG. I mean im not going to change the way i am to please someone else if im happy with the way i am. that aint right. WHatever, I guess i'll just try harder. It just sucks, i mean high school was easy people would just come up to me, now here i gotta make the first move, which is cool i mean im outgoing, its just it doesn't seem to be doing anything . oh wellz

sweethoneysouth 37F
280 posts
1/3/2006 8:39 am

i'm sorry i must be feeling bitchy. but if you like who you are then who the fuck cares about them. stop whining about it. geesh. confidence broadcasts to people and if you truly are "down to earth and a cool person" then people will see that. But if you act like a "ditzy blonde spoiled brat" people will pick up on that too. Ny the way you speak i personally get the ditzy blond immature vibe.

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