My betraying heart  

suziegurl 35F
71 posts
11/11/2005 5:29 pm

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12/12/2008 6:32 am

My betraying heart

Why is my heart cursed?????????

I always fall for girls who are straight or taken!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I went out last night to a club with friends and met this girl.

When i first saw her, my heart raced, I felt this strong attraction for her just watching her dance.

She was so lovely short black hair blue shinning eyes wearing a dress that matched her eyes, she took my breath away.

My friends noticed and ribbed me about it but they dragged me onto the floor near her. I couldn’t help myself i was draw to her and found myself dancing next to her.

She must have noticed me looking cause she said "HI" to me and the room seemed to shrink and grow quiet so it was just us. I got all shy and all I could manage was HI back lol I’m such a dag!

Well despite me being a dag she introduced herself as Lisa and told me a bit about herself, I was tongue tied and kept looking into her eyes but i did manage to tell her my name and a few things about me.

I spent most of the night dancing with friends next to her and drinking more that I normally do.

Later I saw her sitting alone having a drink so I went over and said hello again. She asked me to sit and we chatted some more. I asked her if she had someone special and she told me no and I said me either. We chatted some more and found out we like allot of the same things.

I could believe how much this girl was affecting me. This hasn’t happened in a long time. I was lost in her eyes. I couldn’t help myself while she was talking i leaned in stroked her cheek and stole a kiss from her lips. The touch of her lips sent tingles through me and I flushed all over.

She broke the kiss and leaned into to whisper in my ear, thank you for the kiss but I am straight!!

I was shattered and I just kept saying I was so sorry over and over. She said it was ok she had nothing against lesbians she was just straight. I told her again I’m so sorry and made a lame excuse to her and my friends and went home.

I was so mortified and heart broken!!!!!!!!

Sometimes I hate being a girl and lesbian. Guys don’t know how lucky they are they don’t get the curse and they know when they meet a girl that she is most likely to be straight!!!!

Sorry to rant but I had to vent as I as feeling down. I don’t feel that way about a girl very often and I so had dreams about her last night too dam I so fall for the wrong girls!!!!

rm_Picc43 58M

11/14/2005 4:13 pm

Don't feel too down mate,remember the old saying "the grass always looks greener over the fence"!!! well it sure ain't!!! lol

Tala4u2 54M  
2957 posts
11/15/2005 4:21 pm

Hey cheer up preference has nothing to do with love, you are not cursed you know how to feel love. Be happy.

Tala, Wizard of The Kingdom of BooBoBia, DEITY,

suziegurl 35F

11/16/2005 4:40 pm

Thanks for your comments guys, I am feeling alot better over my dark mood. I know you are right but sometimes its hrd being different. But thanks again and am having a better week

luv suz

chiclicker5000 42M/32F

11/21/2005 12:35 am

I'm glad to notice that you're feeling a little better.

The dating scene has always intimidated me! Shudder... of course I have the brilliant luck of having NO IDEA when someone is interested in me!

Adelaide can bit a little (read lots depending on my mood) sexually repressive. Don't let it get you down though! There really are other sexy lesbians or truly bi-sexual women around.

On that note, I can happily recommend a good female friend of mine (honestly it isn't me, I haven't the energy to pretend to be a woman) AdelSexyBlonde21. If you can't message her, or would like to do so externally message me where the males are hot

cute_kelli_32 44F

11/28/2005 2:34 am

Are there lesbian bars/clubs anywhere near you? I hesitate to recommend them because in the US they can be a haven for extremely butch women who are into things that I'm not sure a sweet, feminine lesbian like you would care for. However, I have been to a few clubs where the majority of women are femme or are soft butch and are nice.

suziegurl 35F

11/28/2005 6:15 pm

Thanks Kelli for the suggestion i live in a large town but tere arnt any clubs for just girls there are a couple gay clubs though. I tend to go out with my friends who are mostly str8 so we go more to the str8 clubs but i sometimes go to the gay clubs maybe i need more bi or les friends lol. thanks again for yor response much apreciated. If youd like to email me my email is AdultFriendFinder and we can chat some time id like that.

luv suz

(Juan S)
2642 posts
12/13/2005 1:12 pm

Hey Suz...I have a variety of friends, straight, gay and Bi...even though i am straight myself, I find a lot of women that are attractive to me are either Bi or Lesbian. So I feel your pain. I've dated 3 Bi-women in my past and they were some of my Bestest friends with benefits I've ever had... I helped them get girls and they helped me get girls and if we didn't hook up, we just did each other...LOL. Good luck in your search. are VERY sexy...I'm sure it is just a matter of not being in the right place at the right time for you...

curiosityslayer 58F

12/14/2005 9:58 am

Suzi, you are bound to meet others who feel the same as you. Your looks are extroidinary, your mind, and your additude are exceptional, so hang in there or move the fuck away, girlfriend. You can always come stay with "Auntie Slayer", hee hee hee...

suziegurl 35F

12/14/2005 7:58 pm

Thanks very much Auntie Slayer. hehehe the invitation souns inviting maybe ill take you up o the offer. mwah.

luv suz

rm_nkcjhnl 42M

1/6/2006 6:30 pm

Isn't life strange st times. We have our own set of dispairs to count for. Somewhre I feel and try to implement that you should be pretty sufficinet with yourself. Your happiness depends on you and only you. It should not be affected by others.
Look at the other brighter side of life.. sex is not the end. All we need someone to share ourselves with and should not depend on the gender

dreamgirl305 41F
2 posts
3/30/2006 7:03 am

ive put a comment in the wrong blog thingy!!! im sooo ditzy sometimes..i put a comment in 'cant men read' sorry x

69er_bedfellow 54M
5 posts
5/14/2006 8:21 pm

Hey Suzi,
I've got a mate that is Gay. We used to go to 1 of the gay bars in town. ( He's in Melbourn now ) As you would expect, the 1st time was a bit weird 4me. But I had no probs at all.
Maybe some of your mates could try doing this 4 U some time.

I always had a gr8 nite out when we went there; it just meant the he was more likely to pick up than me, LOL

Keep smiling, U'r young & stunning, you will find you r Miss right, or Mrs right if you can find yourself a runaway!

Have Heaps of Fun


ExplicitImage07 32F

1/29/2007 6:06 am

Awww Suz...I felt so bad for you, reading your story. It does seem to be like that tho. The ones who you're attracted to are either straight or taken and the ones who are available, you're not really interested in. I know how you feel.
Keep your chin up, babe. You'll often find that the right one comes along when you're least expecting it.

rm_Blasphemer76 40M
72 posts
7/27/2008 11:24 pm

Guys don’t know how lucky they are they don’t get the curse and they know when they meet a girl that she is most likely to be straight!!!!

Not true. I went through a stage where every girl I liked was a lesbian or bi in a fem-fem relationship. To make matters worse one even said 'If I liked guys, you'd be on the top of the list!' By the way... that DOESN'T HELP.

Yeah I know this blog is way old and I just bought it back from the dead, but I just had to contribute

And everyone is right, you are a hottie, and you seem damn cool too. Go to more punk/goth/metal shows and clubs. Or anywhere that DJ Josh is playing.

Or if you like horrible, horrible r and b...

Good luck on your search.

suziegurl 35F

8/1/2008 7:40 pm

Thanks mate your too kind and thanks for reviving the post i still feel a bit that way.

I was having a downer then but i still feel a bit that way. It's still hard for me I'm still single and looking but most women are straight or bi and i want a girl who want me as much as I want her. I still always seem to fall for the unavailable bi or straight ones. Hey I'm ok though and just having fun. You never know what is in the future so the right girl may cross my path soon


HotRedPussy123X 58F
5 posts
12/6/2008 3:52 pm

Susan, I felt so bad to read your story to fall love with the wrong
straight girl. There is not many straight women wanting to beome bisexual or lesbian out there. I know how do you feel. I had done that before to fall love with the wrong straight gal client to work around her house for five months. She threw me out and lost my job. I made a big mistake to fall love with her at work. She broke my heart really bad for few months. I have to move on to find very special girl in anywhere, cross my fingers. You are not only one to
feel down in the dark room. Don't give up to find a right girl for your dream !!! Big hugs, RedPussy

suziegurl 35F

12/12/2008 6:32 am

Thanks redpussy andSS4u1> i hope i meet her as well but i think I'll just stay single fora while and have fun you never know the right girl might come along when i least expect it mwahhhh and thanks again

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