someone knows!!!!  

MsLoveRose 33F  
2019 posts
7/12/2005 1:12 pm

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someone knows!!!!

I am having the hardest time as of late....to find my place upon the cyber world of reality and unrealistic people!!!! I guess I just have to watch for the curve ball in order to not get slapped in the face right....

Today I did a little reading, a letter from someone I consider to be more than a dear friend. This person touched my life in a way that I can’t really describe. The lack of words and heavy feelings prevent me from still finding a definition. However, I know it was for the better!!!!

The story:

There was an old man working at the library I frequent. He was always there smiling, collecting books. He was just so quiet. I am sure so many people never ever noticed him. Before long I was anticipating a smile and that oh so familiar smell as he passed by my table. One day he changed fragrances and just like that a new friendship was born. When he passed by and smiled, I lifted my head. In his hesitation he asked, "Is everything ok?" To my surprise, I was startled to the point where I was speechless I calmly replied, “You changed your cologne...its nice“, with a smile plastered on my face. He smiled and said, “Wow...I think my cats noticed it as well“.

For the next week he wore the same thing. The never changing routine continued. One day when he went back to the old fragrance I asked why? He replied, "My cats knocked over the bottle so the bathroom floor rug smells like it but not me anymore!!!" We had a good laugh and I decided to ask about the kittens. To my surprise, we talked for about an hour oh so and I felt so good. It was more than awesome. I had played in my mind several times the first thing I would say to this stranger. This person who always came to work, did his job, and never talked to anyone. This silent angel! I was fascinated. Over the next month we had lunch together everyday and I always made a point to ask about the kittens. One day he told me that he enjoyed our talks and wanted to share about his wife who passed. They had been married for over 20 years. She had cancer. He cried for the first time since she died. Right there in front of me. I reached out to touch his tired wrinkled hands. The tear that landed on my knuckle sent a zip up my spine. He found something in me that enabled him to reach a whole new point in his life. Was I amazed??? Of course!! He had been building up for so many years and all that time he played the strong role and he never thought to be so self expressive. He could not do this alone.

I had the type of relationship with this man that people crave. The kind that people hardly ever see let alone understand. Although there was no thought behind the moves we made, I was able to connect with him on a deeper level and help him to release the chains he had been dragging around for so long. Too often we forget to forgive ourselves; too often we neglect to show how we truly feel. This was a breaking point in this tiny little man’s, great big heart.

After that he glowed. So very bright as well!! He told me that in my eyes he saw so much of her spirit. She was finally reaching out to him. Something he never thought he would ever feel again. He gave me my blessing for a long prosperous life, the luckiest mate, and all the happiness I can stand. I saw him for only a week after that. All the time we had been meeting and talking during lunch he had been writing. Telling his story of how he met his love and lived a great life. He had such a wonderful family and was such a wonderful person to everyone who knew him.

He died maybe a few months after his breakthrough. I received a letter in the mail from him that I still read from time to time….

the letter:

“dearest …Sunrise….for such a long time I have walked in the shadows and hung my head down while I should have been walking in the light. In just a short time I felt what it was like to be alive inside again. Although you get this message when I am gone…please remember that it was you who showed me that I don’t have to be afraid. Your smile showed me that I don’t have to hide anymore. I am so glad I decided to change colognes or you wouldn’t have even said anything. I wish you all the best in life and someday you will make a fine bride and you will have that happiness you deserve. It’s in the stars all you need to do is let time tell your story!! You are so bright and such a happy woman. Any man in their right mind would be happy to treat you like a queen!!!! My cats will miss you however I don’t think they will notice too much. I will miss you, but I will carry your smiling eyes with me always. I will look down on you from time to time, make sure you have plenty angels in your corner. Thank you so much for giving me back the life I thought died many years ago. My daughter asked me what I saw that made me so happy and determined to be a free spirit. I smiled at her and said I met an angel, a real live angel who gave me exactly what I needed to be whole again. Thank you Sunrise. These last few months have been the best of my life and I am more than happy that I got to spend some time with you; I have relived the better parts of my life. You are truly a blessing all wrapped up in light and beauty. Have a wonderful life and one day tell the story of how you change the path of an old man’s life to your children…and their children…because you have certainly done marvelous things just for me…..”

I sit here with tears and write this, not because of his death, but because of the nice things he said to me. I sit here and think of how my heart was captured by a little old man who lost his way in life. Even though it has been a while since this has happened, I still remember what he smelled like. I still remember his laugh. I still remember how it felt when that tear drop fell on me. I know he is in a much happier place now.


live more, laugh often, love much


MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
7/12/2005 1:37 pm



live more, laugh often, love much


redswallow777 48M
6810 posts
7/14/2005 6:38 am

What a dear story....you are a real wonder to me.


MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
7/14/2005 7:46 am

real wonder....what ever could you mean!!!?

live more, laugh often, love much


GleesFlakyShawl 50M
1620 posts
7/15/2005 8:33 am

hard to say something after having read this....


MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
7/15/2005 5:41 pm

you are not alone....ive got over a hundred views....**sigh!!!

live more, laugh often, love much


MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
7/15/2005 5:44 pm

i think i shared this story because i was getting discouraged...and of all the people that made a mark on my life...he always had a way of making me fell confidence...comfortable with me....and i so much appreciated!!! i am sure i would be on a totally different path right now had we not crossed paths....

live more, laugh often, love much


MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
7/17/2005 1:08 am

anytime keith....anytime!!

live more, laugh often, love much


rm_teacher4u78 38M

7/19/2005 5:07 pm

Made me smile


rm_sunny173 69M
7 posts
7/22/2005 10:23 am

Sunrise you are some lady...I've experiences in my life, just like your friend. Sometimes it takes some one like you to help smooth out the rough edges in life. You have a good heart.


MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
7/24/2005 10:16 am

THank you so much sunny....i have pondered the same thought!!!!

Humbold....i think you are right....it is more than a beauty....this help mold my passion about a lot of things....THANK YOU!

live more, laugh often, love much


rm_brob1000 57M

8/15/2005 12:43 am

Sunrise,
I often wonder about the power of words and a smile. My faith is based on what you say and how you treat others. Your post confirmed what I believe. I thank you for sharing that.


MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
8/21/2005 6:13 pm

anytime brob....im glad that you find some happiness in smiles!

live more, laugh often, love much


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