Remembering 2005  

MsLoveRose 33F  
2019 posts
12/29/2005 11:40 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Remembering 2005

When I sit and think about the past years and the years to come I can only imagine and hope that progress is really being made. The interesting thing that I have revealed was that since 1997 I have worked every new year’s eve, and new year’s day. Mostly formal events where I got to dress the occasion. It was always really funny. There were plenty people who did double even triple takes on my new found beauty. All dressed up and down in a ball gown with make up!! Memories, are so very precious.

This year, I will not work. This year I want it to be different. But I don’t have the slightest idea as to what I want to do. I have a million invites to come and join friends and family. I have some long distance request as well. So what do I do. My heart is set on going out to the light house, having all the best music I can find, a bottle of white wine, and lots of blankets. (might switch the bottle of wine for a few cups of hot chocolate that would be yummy!). I can welcome the new year with some writing, good music, and solitude. I was telling a friend about what I wanted to do and he thought I was crazy. He said not too many people would want to spend it alone, especially if they finally have the chance to do something they shouldn’t be alone. After thinking about what he said, I still am not really convinced that I just really need to have someone to bring in the new year with.

I can go over it a million times, with a number of possible choices. Maybe even have the dialogue down to fine print! But being alone, doing what I like, and being in one of my most comfortable places, how can I not enjoy it. I’m not sure what or where this attitude is coming from, but to me its just another day. A Welcome to the new year, the beginning of another year. I have seen my fair share of good things, bad things, amazing things, and just weird things. This year has certainly been an educational one. I have learned about me, my family, my friends. I have made friends, touched hearts, and given smiles!!! I have lost family, I have lost friends, I have lost a few things but my integrity remains entact. My confidence, unshaken. My will and determination, ever-present! My self-respect and humility, oh its there!!! My morals, virtues, characteristics, well they are growing. I am learning that definition really means a lot.

I lost 3 good friends with America’s war in the middle east. I lost an uncle to liver cancer. I lost 2 cousins (1 still missing, aunt still in icu) to Katrina, I lost a baby cousin to a house fire, I lost a ex boyfriends brother to a robbery-murder, all this year. It has been a time of waking up and seeing death for face value. In turn I gained a massive amount of strength. My level of understanding was kicked up a few notches. I gained plenty long distance friends. The highlight of the year has to be me gaining the respect of my parents. That was maybe a defining point in this SUNRISE!! My fears about my grandmother, gone, I lost the hole I dug myself into. I walk where everyone else walks and its not so bad. I am able to see the love, the care, the happiness in all that is good and great!!!

Now I have to admit, as much as this site gets under my skin, and the crazy people on it, I can honestly say that being here has made a great impact on this year. The beautiful people, the heartfelt writings, talent and wisdom galore!!! Sharing, kindness, and a mutual love for expression has been here. I want 2006 to be bigger and better!! Everything that I have been through, all the laughs, all the cries, the good and the bad, the many many smiles…has brought me to think and reflect with my memories of 2005. FOR all of you who have made this a remarkable year for me THANK you so very much! Lets keep growing!!!

live more, laugh often, love much

caressmewell 53F

12/29/2005 12:20 pm

I wish you peace, health and happiness in 2006. Happy New Year

MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
12/29/2005 12:44 pm

thank you caress same to you!!!

live more, laugh often, love much

onelittlesecret 33M
1579 posts
12/29/2005 1:34 pm

Sounds like you've had a very eventful year. Hope next year is bigger and better, and the light of your sunrise keeps growing brighter.

MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
12/29/2005 4:31 pm

aweee thank you secret!! i look forward to it....

i want to write with you!!! so lets make it happen!

live more, laugh often, love much

wifey3223 48F
126 posts
12/30/2005 10:55 am

hey girl friend, today was a tryin day for me so far. i just decided to read yourer blog as the second person who likes my blog. you have had a eventful life& i can comprimise as to how much we all grow threw trial & tribualtions. and i believe it makes us a stronger person. and AdultFriendFinder is a growing place as well as passionate & loving also. you are a lovely, sweet women & when we loose a life another lifes comes into the world. its just the way , some go to a better place & some dont. but, i pray to make it to the heaveny place myself one day. and when i do , remeber i lived my life.
love ya girl.

redswallow777 48M
6810 posts
12/30/2005 11:04 am

I am confident that having a cup of hot chocolate in your favorite place will be just wonderful if that is what you want and need. And I look forward to the day when we can share a cup of hot chocolate here in Minnesota.

I wish for you all the best the world has to offer in the coming New Year, Sunrise. May it be so.

MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
12/30/2005 12:54 pm

thank you so much wifey!!!

redbird i always have a grin from ear to ear when i see a message from you!! you are incredible!!

live more, laugh often, love much

ilsgicemru 72M
2822 posts
12/30/2005 9:09 pm

"If you love life, life will love you back.!"....Nice quote.!!........How true that is for you Sunrise......You have shown me a lot of love this year....And I love you back.....Thankyou for being such an importaint part of my blog.!!....You are very special, Sweet Sweet Sunrise Girl.!! .............. G

When I am alone, and real quiet, I can hear your voice.!!

lickityclitf53 64M
167 posts
12/31/2005 12:28 pm

Beat of luck in the New Year, sunrisegirl. I'm sure all sorts of opportunities await you down the road into the future. Keep the writing and creating going it's a great thing and gives you confidence and power to face what ever the future brings. Actually it seems that it has helped you through some tough times with the loss of so many this past year.

Good luck.


MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
12/31/2005 3:00 pm

thank you so very much G!!! you are in my thoughts!

oh lickity im so very glad you stopped by!!! thank you so very much!!

live more, laugh often, love much

RoyalPurpleRose 52F

1/3/2006 11:22 pm

Sunrise, sorry this is a little late. But I think spending the New Year alone is definitely not a bad thing. Most people (me included at times) miss the significance of reflection and closing out the year (whether it was good or bad). Some people just get it done sooner than others.

Being a solitary being doesn't mean that you aren't having your own party. Yeah, there may not be balloons and streamers ... but there is peace, tranquility, and even love.

Happy New Year Sunrise. May this year bring you joy to warm your spirit, beautiful sunrises to light your way, tiny everyday miracles to make you smile, and much love to make your heart glow even brighter. Stay sweet special girl!

~~Kisses, RPR

MsLoveRose 33F  
2432 posts
1/4/2006 7:09 am

late is ok in my book!!!

thanks RPR happy new year to you too!!!

live more, laugh often, love much

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