spunky11961 55M
37213 posts
7/12/2006 10:50 pm

I was just a teenager in the early 70's the "flower generation" all but over.Just a country kid suddenly lost in the city!
I never fit with any of the high school "cliques".But with the "stoners" I was just one of them.somehow this fit for me and I quickly followed that path! I threw away my high school ytears,just barely gettin' a diploma.It seemed I was suddenly transformed over night.But that path I followed,just sped through the years!
I had no particuar reason, for following that path!I had many demons but just added one more!That was the worst one ta have!One at times I still struggle with today,its always out there tryin' ta draw me back! The least little thing can suck me back in!Though it's mostly hidden and seldom in view it's there fightin' to get out!
My choice was always the pharmacuticals,easily obtained!My favorite was always the 'ludes ol' number 714..Rorer or Lemmon,both the same!But the main factor in my Lifes alterin' choice!This was my choice and I can't place the blame but squarely on my own shoulders.But I didn't see it back then!
It took a Judge and an order of confinement to start things along.That order was for phsyciatric observation,And that led to the rehab...Also court ordered! A spell of this and AA and I was free again,But chose to handle things all alone.
That did work for awile but then one day again,I was before another judge!This time a felony,Well I've paid the price for that and know that I can't handle things so I've learned ta leave'em alone! I'm still no angel I'm still drinkin' some beer,But I've seen that I needa higher power to steer me clear of The mess I can make of my life
The weird thing is that the day I first entered into the system,was 7,14,82 . the very same number of those little white pills! No shit! And that's why I consider that my lucky number!
This post was kinda inspired by my readin' at
digdug41 the Life Altering Choices thing is his,I chose to borrow it for this.Thanx dig for that and your words!



EvilEvilKitten1 62F

7/13/2006 10:00 pm

The choices available now are the result of choices made earlier. The one flowing from the other. This is why a good beginning is so very important. Tomorrow is another beginning - so do well, my cyber friend.


spunky11961 replies on 7/14/2006 9:15 am:
Welcome back again! Thanx for that kind and very welcome comment!I'll take that to heart!Always a pleasure you are!

lovemetouchme5 51F
2102 posts
7/13/2006 5:02 pm

Spunky, everyone has choices. Sometimes they don't pay attention to the consequences of those choices until it's too late. Sometimes even if they do know what they are doing, they don't care, because they want the pleasure of what those choices bring. Others, don't realize they have choices. You might have made some poor choices back then, but you have now grown and learned from them. You are a much better person now! I am so glad that I've gotten to know the person you are today. You have come a long way! Loveme

spunky11961 replies on 7/13/2006 5:44 pm:
Hey Loveme! Thanx for that and bein' there too! Seems life alterin' choices pop up when ya least expect them and you have to chose to accept them or reject them!I'm acceptin' mine now!

sexyariesgirl 57F

7/13/2006 5:41 am

Spunky.....Be proud that you have have become a much stronger person because of those experiences. They may have been the wrong choices, but you LEARNED from them, so something positive did come from it. ALways know that there are people here who truly care.....HUGGS.....

Power To FOK

spunky11961 replies on 7/13/2006 4:01 pm:
Hello sexyaries! you are such a pleasure and always here with a kind comment too! I'll take that ta heart it means alot! Thanx!

cuteNEway 41F

7/13/2006 5:19 am

Can't say I've ever had a serious addiction like that. My only addictions are cigs, blogging and sex. Not always in that order though...

spunky11961 replies on 7/13/2006 3:59 pm:
Hello CuteN! you are such a pleasure! Those aren't bad addictions,have'em all myself thanx for yer comment!

countryheart_71 45F
8082 posts
7/13/2006 4:57 am

It's easier to go down the wrong path but you got the help that you needed. Lesson learned. You are a stronger person now because you actually know what your weaknesses were/are. I'm glad to see that you are still here!


spunky11961 replies on 7/13/2006 3:56 pm:
Hello country!Thanx for all that,means alot! And I'm glad i'm still here too! Thought I was nearly invisible last night! Freakin' Aohell!

JuicyBBW1001 54F

7/13/2006 4:23 am

I made a few life altering choices myself except I never was arrested for mine except maybe for the domestic violence thing they slapped on me for defending myself. I have been clean now for over 20 years and I drink only when I know I will be safe.


spunky11961 replies on 7/13/2006 3:53 pm:
Always a pleasure you are Juicy! Thanx for sharin' that!It's good to share more with your friends!that means alot to me!

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