spunky11961 55M
37213 posts
6/17/2006 7:41 pm

I knew what You were doing in the last couple of years we shared.
You were preparing me to take care of Mom for You,When you were gone!
At first I didn't want to hear this,and I resisted Your comments with every fiber of strength I had!
But You knew I was Listening to every word you said!
You Couldn't hide the fact that you were dyin' anymore than I could hide that I knew!
I tried to get You to tell the doctors,But you knew that was to no avail...You knew you were dying,and there was no hope left in HELL!
Everyday you grilled me on what to do
The pills to be given and the shots as well!
The diet and the routine,You taught me well!
Then one day I found You All wracked with pain,Your body so distorted with such unholy misery!
I knew that You were leavin',But still I called for help
They took You to the hospital and only prolonged your pain.
There you could still talk And hope still remained!
They called for Life flight,And then I knew,
My gut was churning and my heart was breaking
While all the Family had left,I remained....
I watched you as you as they put you on board
As you past by me the medic asked if I wanted "ONE LAST WORD"
You were still responsive and asked me these words "I've failed her,Please take care of your mom"
I told You that I would
You gave me alook that told me you understood!
These were the last words You spoke,I told You I loved you ,I hope you heard But you slipped away further andI just don't know....
I waited forever for that big bird to fly,
But I knew That I'd never Be able to talk with you again!
The week that followed I wish I could erase,They kept you alive in misery,And this I still can't FACE!
One day thay asked me to pull the plug,Mom just couldn't do it,so I had to decide,It wasn't easy and to this day I still wonder?
But you were in agony and this I couldn't bear
You passed in the night when we weren't there,It happened while we were on the way there!
I'm keepin' My promise,ButI really wish You were Here!
Today is yours and mom's anniverssary,and we Miss you still!
Mom is sad without you, and I'm doing what I can
You always told me,not to become a failure like You...But You were never a failure to me,More like a hero,That I hope I don't let down
I miss you DAD!


OboesHonedIambs 62F

6/18/2006 7:51 pm

Whoa! Thats some powerful reading!

Instant Human -- Just Add Coffee

countryheart_71 45F
8082 posts
6/18/2006 2:21 pm

That was beautiful! Brought tears to my eyes!


sexyariesgirl 57F

6/17/2006 9:09 pm

HUGGS Spunky! Sounds like you had a wonderful Dad.

Power To FOK

letstryit4fun38 49F

6/17/2006 8:45 pm

My heart goes out to you.I know being a caregiver is very difficult and time consuming. You should never feel like a failure because I am sure your parents a very proud of you.I am proud of you for being there for your mom when she needs you most.


JuicyBBW1001 54F

6/17/2006 8:15 pm

((((((((Spunky)))))))))) a hug for my fellow log sitter.


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