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YOU USED TO CAPTIVATE ME
BY YOUR RESONATING LIGHT
BUT NOW I'M BOUNDED BY THE LIFE YOU LEFT BEHIND...
..THESE WOUNDS WON'T SEEM TO HEAL
THIS PAIN IS JUST TOO REAL
THESE JUST SO MUCH THAT TIME CANNOT ERASE..
yesterday was 2 years to the day, that i discovered, the woman i loved more than anything on earth, the one i thought was THE ONE had been betraying me.(i've gone through the datails before)I then left her.
I have been doing pretty well lately, i almost never think about her now. I've made new friends and contacts since joinimng AMF and was fairly content...
So you may wonder why do i chose to remember THIS date? I didn't...She telephoned me ..last night..just to remind me. She knows me well enough to know the effect this would have on me...
the words from Evanescence, written above resonate through me for two reasons..around the time of the break up this track was constantly on the radio, but also the words some up my emotions pefectly...I just can't seem to shake this off, just as it seems to have all been put behind me, just as i'm getting on back comes Geri to haunt me again...i hate the way this makes me feel..
My friend emmapeal phoned for a chat this morning and realised straight away i wasn't my self. I've only known her a few short weeks and met her only once, but she is already a very good friend. I told her what was wrong and she suggested i blog it.."get it out of your system" she said. So that's what I'm doing. I've also toured my favorite blogs to help take my mind off things. emma was right about it helping...
Hope to post a happier blog later..sorry for the depressing moan on a Sunday morning.
9/18/2005 5:30 am
Spike... sorry you're having a lousy time, and that Geri (?) still has the power to haunt you. It sounds like she has issues too, otherwise why call you two years later to remind you?? Perhaps guilt?|
It is good that you have someone like emmapeal who can make you smile and be a shoulder for you to lean on. Be strong and soon those lousy memories will just be memories.
9/18/2005 6:56 am
[member helga_hansen} thanks for that, yours was one of the blogs i turned to, and very good it is too. I shall certainly be looking in very regularly from now on...as for issues, my friend H once said "that f***in' girl has more issues than Readers Digest.." she's always to the point. H was the one that saw me through the intial breakup. I'm lucky i have good friends.|