...Slings and Arrows of outragous fortune....  

spikeryder 49M
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7/19/2005 2:39 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

...Slings and Arrows of outragous fortune....

..I was sitting on the patio, with a beer, thinking...
The last 2 years have been a real rollercoaster of emotions and events. Nothing out of the ordinary cycle of modern life, but a challenging time, none the less.

This time two years ago, I thought I was with "the one", The person i could spend my life with, settle down, kids the whole thing..
She seemed to feel the same. We had met, at work, 2 years previous, she had come to this country looking to improve her English and find a good job. We got on well from the start, chatting in the staff room, sharing a joke. After a while I Asked her out and on the third time of asking she accepted. We soon became close and I was often round her flat 6-7 nights a week, helping her study for an English Exam that would help her get a better job. Some evenings we would just go out, drive along the coast and watch the sun set. We soon started sleeping together and the sex was great. As the relationship grew I took her places..the Theater..the Movies ...Resturants..weekends away in nice Hotels. All the time she was studing and I was her study partner and Tutor. She would often get nervous and unsure of her ability to pass the Exam, so I would treat her..flowers..jewlwery ..etc..After all she was the one for me, we would be together for ever...I had never been happier I had a great woman, who loved me and needed me..didn't I?
The Exam came and she really needed support and encourgement to get through. She passed and got a great new job..She lost interest in sex..I thought "stress and exhastion from the exam and new job" she'll soon be back to normal.
Things went along for a while she seemed distant at times but we were still close and we slept together, without having sex. After about a month I get a phone call one evening..She's very upset can I go round..
I go round and she's in a real state obviously been crying for ages. When I ask what's wrong, she drops the bomb shell...
For the past six months she has been seeing and screwing a married man!! Now he has ended it..won't take her calls or speak to her..
So far so bad...
Now the killer..Can I phone him and ask him to speak to her..ME?!!
Me the one she has been lying to for six months..me the one who thought she loved him..me the one who's world has just crashed around his feet!!
She said she was sorry, she asked if things were still OK with us...
I left...

I was as low as i have ever been..I walked by the sea, thought of jumping in..
The one person in the world I thought would never hurt me had betrayed me and used me...
Added to this I was way behind on my credit card payments, having spent every penny on making her happy, thinking we were building a future together..I was in a pit of dispair..no relationship and people phoning and writing demanding money. I had been a fool..I was drinking too much...how would I ever get out of this hole?...

Rescue came from my Friends, my REAL Friends. 2 great women who listened when I moaned endlessly about my life and how I'd been shit on, Never judging, just supporting and kicking me up the arse when I needed it.
The took me out to clubs and pubs, put the fun back in my life.
Things seemed to be going ok, I was getting back on my feet, paying bills and starting to look ahead, with my friends at my side.
Then I lost my job...
Back to no money and demands to keep paying my debts...
I really struggled to find work and was getting really down, but again my friends were there..
After six long months I found work and was on the up again.
Then a week into my new job, my friend of 15 years, Sasha, Died suddenly from a stroke. I was devestated..still am.

That was 3 months ago, I still miss her. My other friends are there for me and I'm Doing well..on the up again..
I haven't had a Sexual relationship for 18 months now and still don't want a serious one(that's why I came to this site) I just want a bit of fun.

I guess the moral of this tale is CHERISH your friends..mine have pulled me through and I LOVE THEM ALL TO BITS


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