Who knows......  

sordy2go2 40F
33 posts
8/8/2006 1:43 pm
Who knows......


You know I just turned 30 a few weeks ago. And funny was not worried at all about getting older. I look very young hell still get carded for beer and the girl at the toy store was really thinking about carding me. ( funny ) So why is it I find myself just sitting at home when I have had invites to go out for dinner and drinks but say no? I do not think I am ugly even if some people don't like a bbw. No skin off my back. I have been a lot bigger. I had almost 2 years of my life taken away from me cause so girl wanted to skip school and speed down the road and hit me going about 60 mph. Thank God I was the only one hurt and my son was ok. But spent almost 2 years in bed not being able to put my feet on the floor. So eat take your meds is hell on your body. So after surgery its another 8 months till I could stand on my own two feet. So I start to lose it and been doing really well. But this brings me to the now. Were I am looking back and seeing what has happen to me and knowing I don't ever want to go back. But yet I still feel there is something there pushing me down I can't see it but I know it's there. Not sure how to get rid of it I just know I don't like it and want it gone. I think I have started off right. Been looking at going back to school getting my life in some type of order again. Who knows....

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