Over it and moving on  

sophia4u2no 49F
192 posts
7/30/2006 11:46 am

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Over it and moving on

Ok, so the whole drunk thing was not JUST about the wedding, just had to purge a person from my system, so now thats done, well , until it gets dark anyway, and the dark of course has nothing to do with night.

It gets very dark here from time to time, and I find it easier to just embrace the darkness than to rail against it.

So, today I will listen to Lifehouse, Enigma, Simply Red, Little Big Town and Keith Sweat and remember the person who gave them to me, and the person who took them away from me. Today I will listen repeatedly to those songs that meant something when it was we and not me, Today I will revel in the hurt and let the dark wrap its self around every single cell in every vein in every part of my body.

Tomorrow I will paint on the smile and go back into the real world.

And only those of you who read this will even know.


gentelmanjim53 63M

7/30/2006 3:57 pm

I have read enough to kow you are in pain over this marriage youir sister has gone and done. Six times? Is she self destructive? I know enough to know the only thing you can do is be there when she needs you and make sure there is no abuse. Hun I am a good listener and I hear a pain that is deep. If you need someone to listen feel free.


sophia4u2no 49F

7/30/2006 5:35 pm

    Quoting rm_fotogod:
    I know that words typed on a computer, will never be enough to comfort you. And that the words I write, will never come close to telling you how much I wish I could help. So I will stop now, and tell you, I will keep you close in my thoughts.
Run away with me? Far far away, maybe even a different galaxy? Oh wait, you have a 4 year old,......foiled again. lol


sophia4u2no 49F

7/30/2006 5:38 pm

    Quoting gentelmanjim53:
    I have read enough to kow you are in pain over this marriage youir sister has gone and done. Six times? Is she self destructive? I know enough to know the only thing you can do is be there when she needs you and make sure there is no abuse. Hun I am a good listener and I hear a pain that is deep. If you need someone to listen feel free.
Your kindness speak volumes about your demeanor, your thoughts and words are appreciated, perhaps you would like to leave with me and i've invited fotogod and a few select others, i'm picking a different galaxy this time.


cuteNEway 41F

8/1/2006 8:37 am

>>SIGH<<

BIG HUG!!


vrec_dawn 39M

8/4/2006 6:07 pm

Hey, rock on. So often we're told to avoid the dark and stay in the light, but flirk it! If you can't hug your own personal demons or dance with the skeletons in your closet then you're just running from a part of yourself that you'll never escape. So embrace it for all it's worth and make it a part of you, and you'll be able to walk on by with your head held high and never have to worry as you look back.


onespicylilPEP 37F
60 posts
9/14/2006 12:54 pm

Honey, I sit here and know a pain that resembles the one you write about. Only I can not bring myself to listen to the "we" songs. Just to dream of the other half at night, and wake up with massive head and heart aches that no medicine can touch. I wish one of us knew what to say to the other to take away the pain. Then we would both be free'd from this dark hell and see light again.


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