It ain't Easy being Happy!  

sooolongsuckers 40M
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8/21/2006 10:06 am

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It ain't Easy being Happy!

A SHOCKING SECRET POSTPONED!!Everything has it's time and place, snacknabbit!

Now don't get me wrong, people, I'm as much about peace and love in the world as the next guy, but for me, peace and love always has to come at the expense of others.

I mean, it's just...

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sooolongsuckers 40M

8/21/2006 10:07 am

Now don't get me wrong, people, I'm as much about peace and love in the world as the next guy, but for me, peace and love always has to come at the expense of others.

I mean, it's just the kinda guy I am.

When I look back on my childhood, probably the number one most important thing I looked for was a good laugh. There was simply nothing more important than laughing, and if that meant coaxing a mental patient into drinking a pail of puke for his next crack hoot, then by golly, it simply must be done.

I mean, there were a select few guys, who would become my buddies, and the rest of the world simply fell victim to that. We just didn't GET all the emotional drama that everyone else around us thrived on.

All the sappy shit, ya know. Amongst each other, the world just made sense to us, and there wasn't much to it. The rest of the world just appeared comical to us.

In my cracksmoking days, if some guy whined and whined for another crackhoot, and couldn't understand the word no, then we gave him an ultimatum. He had it coming in our eyes.

Alot of people leave themself open to the Gods of comedy, and we were never ones to disobey God's orders. It just wouldn't be us.

Any notion of being overly nice to people just seemed like an act, and we were quite content with who we were.

There was another crowd I hung out with in my old town, who were a very popular crowd, where another side of me emerged, and I became nice to everyone, and eventually became a very popular person myself. However, I don't think that had as much to do with me, as who I knew.

To a large extent it just wasn't me, in that crowd, and I was probably happiest with my laughing buddies. Fundamentally, I am more revolved around comedy than anything too emotional.

There is a spiritual and emotional side to me, but it isn't something I share with other people.
I'm kinda like Mr. Burns in that way. The tender side is there, but I keep it locked away safe from others. It's just what I've learned about life.

In the meantime I just try to enjoy life as much as possible, and I see the world a certain way, and if I see a good opportunity for a laugh, I'm gonna pounce on it. I can dish em out as much as I can take it, and it's pretty hard to hurt my feelings.

Actually nothing really gets me down in life anymore. Not even death. Come to think of it, I don't know if it ever did. I've cried at funerals, but in retrospect, I think I was making myself cry to try to compensate for the fact that It really didn't matter all that much to me, and to try to fit in.

From my point of view, we all die sometime, and once it happens, your troubles are over.

However, in many instances in life, I've had to sacrifice who I really am, in order to be senstive to who other people are.

A way to illustrate my point is with a question my stepfather asked me one time.

He said, "When you die, what would you like for me to do with your ashes?"

Well my first thought was, "Flush em down the toilet. What do I care? I'll be dead."

But of course, by the earnest nature that my father was looking at me, "I couldn't really respond that way for his sake."

So yeah, I'm about peace and love in the world, and for the most part that has to come at the expense of others, and for the most part, I expect people to never take me serious, but the fact is, is that every once in awhile I have to step off my high horse, and cut the world a break.

I hate to do it, and I ain't ALWAYS gonna do it, because I FULLY believe that NO ONE should EVER take life serious under any circumstances.

But then again, everyone isn't me, and peace and love can never exist in the world if people don't realize that fact, and I'm no different.

florallei 99F

8/21/2006 12:32 pm

Hello X,

TY for your view of life. I am one for honesty and integrity. I believe that life can get too serious and being able to laugh at ourselves is a sign of maturity. I however don't feel that taking pot shots at another is a sense of humor I am comfortable with.
I am a mixed race of caucasian and asian and my ex's family felt it necessary to make fun of me to get their kicks. I have been on the recieving end. It hurt me deeply and I did build a tougher and thicker skin but I wouldn't want anyone to be an object of racism or any sort of distasteful sense of humor.
Yes humor is good for the soul. Just as you are uncomfortable of being nice to people I am equally uncomfortable to being crude. I don't know your background or why you have developed these attitudes but life is all about making changes to improve and better ourselves.
Am not meaning to lecture you Hun. There is a sense that I feel a sort of sadness at how you view life. Yes we all will die someday but my reputation and legacy I leave behind is important to me. I believe we can touch others in a positive or negative way. I choose to do it the positive way.
Life is serious in some changing decisions...a traumatic illness in the family...I just lost a GF and a baby whom I was to adopt a couple months back....death of a dear loved made me analyze where my life is headed. I care and love me and what I contribute. We all have special gifts.
I am sorry if I am taking such a long response...TY for your patience.

sooolongsuckers 40M

8/21/2006 1:39 pm

floralli...this is precisely why I need to get into entertainment. I think I've always lived in that world to some degree. I feel too repressed in this world, because it seems like everyone is so easily offended. People are always trying to be so politacally correct.

In the entertainment industry, ya just say what you want. Everyone is open to shots from anyone, so people can just be themselves, and it doesn't really matter what other people say about you. People are able to laugh at themselves, and the bottom line is entertainment.

That's the life for me.

I got alot of comedy rollin around in my head, but in this world, I never get a chance to express any of it, because everyone is so serious all the time.

This site allows me to express a side of myself, which is the truer me, that I don't get to express in this world, since everyone expects you to act a certain way.

I don't WANT to act a certain way. I wanna be ME!

But I do understand, that everything has a time and place. I was going to expose Mzhunyhole's secret in this post, and I thought it would be good for a laugh, but after reading her post about her friend dying, I realized that it wasn't the time for jokes, at least from where SHE is at.

She probably just wouldn't laugh, right now.

So I gotta wait for the right mood, TO EXPOSE HER DEEP DARK SECRET!!

I guess that is the one compromise I've found I've had to make in my life.

Alot of the times I may see the world as this hilarious place, and nothin really gets me down anymore, however, I realize that not everyone is where I'm at, and I need to be sensitive to that sometimes.

I think if I DO make it in entertainment, I will enjoy life more, but in the meantime, I need to get out as much repressed humour as I can.

I feel that if I can just speak my mind out there, instead of repressing my humour for the sake of others, then you bastards have a better chance of knowing the real me.

Of course, I go deeper than the humour, and as I get to know someone, I'm less likely to insult them, but in the sense that this site is open to public viewing, strangers are fair game.

They can take whatever direction with me they want, but if someone tries to bash me, I gonna enjoy nailin their punkasses to the wall. It's all in fun, in my opinion.

I generally assume that adults can take it, and/or come up with a witty come back of their own.

There are many ways I strive to make the world better, and one of them is to try make light of difficult issues, especially hate.

Of course, not everyone plays that way, and sometimes I have to play differently myself, but I feel a need to stay on my general path.

I only hope that in time, it allows others to not live in fear of people's words.

It takes time to know people, but in the meantime, I have to deal with people's judgements of me the way I do.

There's alot of hate thrown around out there, and I enjoy making a mockery of it all!

That'll learn em.

You understand, John Stewart?. Dontcha?

We can't let morons run the planet, now can we?

Anyways, I just got a date with this really hot retarded chick, and I REALLY wanna impress her, so I hereby declare I'm going to start being nice to EVERYONE!!


florallei 99F

8/21/2006 5:51 pm

You really should be in the entertainment world...I was thinking the very same thing!!!
Have fun with the hot...chick!!!
Your explaination does makes sense as you have your view others have as well.

juicy856 39M/34F

8/21/2006 8:12 pm

hope your date with the really hot chick goes well. go get her tiger.

friend_of_carlos 40M/40M

8/21/2006 8:36 pm

It is quite clear to me, you sir of America that, this woman is not best pleasured by you.

This appears to be such a woman that can only truly be pleasured by CARLOS!!

sooolongsuckers 40M

8/22/2006 9:45 am

I knew you'de understood, mammaw. That's why I went ahead with it. I knew that I could say the most horrible nasty thing about you in the world, and you'de still come back and blow it to pieces.
It' like shooter0085once said.

Kill em with love.
Look out world.

Keep it rockin.

florallei 99F

8/22/2006 11:23 am

Hi Hun,

I agree with MzHuny's comment...Take it easy everyone...

sooolongsuckers 40M

8/22/2006 12:12 pm

florallei...What's that you say? YOU WANNA GO TO WAR????

sooolongsuckers 40M

8/22/2006 12:16 pm

takethemoneyandrun...Damn, I guess its my fault money. When you told me to take the money, I KNEW I should have been quick about it. I'll try ta do better the NEEEEXT time you wake up.

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