an end and a beginning  

rm_songbird5419 62F
301 posts
11/28/2005 10:04 pm

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7/29/2006 4:31 am

an end and a beginning

Well, it’s done. I’m finally out of the condo. It’s relatively clean and I closed the door behind me. I almost left it unlocked so I could go back and do some more cleaning. But I didn’t. I was to have taken the keys over to the hubby’s aunt’s house this afternoon and I was scrambling to get everything done I wanted to do. I was working in the kitchen and about 4:30, I heard someone at the door. It was Edward. He’d brought the digital camera, which was to go to me, so I gave him the keys at that time. He was a little ill at ease, so I did my best to make him comfortable. We actually had a nice conversation, mostly about each other’s families. It gave me hope that we might be friends again at some point. He was pleased with the way the condo looked. He said he didn’t expect it to look so good. He made noises about replacing the carpet, which desperately needs replacing.

This last month has been hell on me physically. My back has rarely stopped hurting and only with repeated doses of Aleve. Tonight, my right knee started to give way as I was going down the steps of the condo with one of the last boxes. My legs haven’t seen a razor in God knows how long. My hands are destroyed. Apparently my check for the remainder of the cash settlement is in the mail. Perhaps I’ll treat myself to some spa-style pampering before Christmas. Closing that door for the last time was bittersweet. We had 14 1/2 years in that place, and as tiny and cramped and dark as it is, it was my home for 15 1/2. I felt some tears trying to surface for just a moment. It passed. Now I can move forward and get some of this massive pile of boxes unpacked. I didn’t even unload my car except for some perishables. I disposed of most of the dry goods cuz I found some of those damned bugs that get into flour and stuff. Grrrrrr..but the little bastards are in the garbage pails by the curb now. I also decided to finally throw away the ironing board. My ironing board was older than I am. I’ve schlepped that thing from one end of the country to the other. Enough is enough. I’m getting a new one that doesn’t require me to lift weights in order to set the damn thing up!

Now it’s time for me to try and wind down enough to sleep. It’s the sofa again tonight. My bed is once again a staging area for clothes that need to be sorted before they go into a closet. I’ll probably spend tomorrow afternoon doing that. I need to go through my closet anyway. I have way too much stuff in there that hasn’t been worn in way too long to justify keeping it!! If I can just make myself continue to purge, perhaps life will get easier!!

If you are strong and push through the pain and the fear, you often find that happiness is waiting for you on the other side.

rm_nbr4son 71M

2/7/2006 7:55 am

Even though the marriage didn't work out, it is hard not the shed a tear when you live your home and close the door the final time. But, like you say - "it's all good."

You have a new life to look forward to so take it one step at a time and you will find much happier times.

rm_songbird5419 62F
305 posts
1/12/2006 2:58 pm

RikkTikki...just's ALL good!!!

If you are strong and push through the pain and the fear, you often find that happiness is waiting for you on the other side.

rm_RikkTikki 63M
12 posts
1/11/2006 5:35 pm

Thank you, I'm rebuilding my life, career, and everything. It is good for me to hear your great attitude.

smartmama 58F

11/30/2005 5:36 am

Purging is good. Spa services after purging are even better. I am a big believer in pampering.

rm__Reality_ 105F
67 posts
11/29/2005 5:39 am

I kinda expected a tear or two. Its always bittersweet to leave something familiar. I'm glad Edward came over and spared you the trip {albeit short} to Aunt Connies, That may have been difficult emotionally

Now, Welcome to your new life!!

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