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I've just closed my eyes again
Climbed aboard the dream weaver train
Driver take away my worries of today
And leave tomorrow behind
Ooh dream weaver
I believe you can get me through the night
Ooh dream weaver
I believe we can reach the morning light
Fly me high through the starry skies
Maybe to an astral plane
Cross the highways of fantasy
Help me to forget today's pain
Though the dawn may be coming soon
There still may be some time
Fly me away to the bright side of the moon
And meet me on the other side
I am on the brink of leaving tomorrow behind.
This has been a difficult summer worrying about finding a new teaching position, after not being offered the position of the noncontinuing contract I had filled for the past year.
I felt overwhelmed with my responsibilities as a single parent of two fantastic teen daughters.
I felt anguish as doors continued to close in my professional life, causing me to doubt my abilities.
To top it off, I felt a failure as a meaningful relationship came to a close.
A parent, a professional musician, a potential partner.
One often finds enlightenment in the dark night of the soul. Dreaming the dream of bliss. Looking deeply.
Bringing me to this evening.
I am preparing for a meeting in the morning with the superintendent and principal of a small local school. Their music program has completely fallen apart. So much so as to only have a half-time position to offer.
(How DOES one justify paying a full-time salary when only 8 students participate in the band)
(How the HELL can that possibly happen, I ask, knowing full well how important music is in the lives of young people)
My stomach is full of jitters. They assure me a full-time position is their vision, if I can make it happen. They are willing to supplement my hours with part-time substituting. We will be making a decision in the morning.
SO with all other full-time music positions closed to me, I have the potential to step into this position that no one else will accept and plant the seeds of potential.
I want to close my eyes tonight and forget all my pain, my worries, my jittery stomach. I want to reach the morning light.
8/24/2006 9:03 pm
Man, oh man, I can never hear that song without thinking of the Wayne's World movie . . .|
Good luck with the gig. Look at the bright side: there's a fair amount of music written for wind octet!
8/25/2006 7:33 am
One of the great songs of all time pop music history! I am glad you know that one. I resist posting lyrics in my blog, but now I feel empowered by your surprising use of the same!|
In your teaching, I know you will do great things if only on a small scale. Your passion for life and willingness to meet each challenge head-on is amzaing! A small community will benefit from you!
Get em' girl!
8/25/2006 9:08 pm
A great deal of satisfaction can be realized by doing what others say cannot be done and doing it well. The more difficult road is often times overlooked by those more interested in the easier journey. They will never enjoy the satisfaction that is realized by the ones that complete the more difficult journey. You have a passion for music that you can share with those that want to learn! They will share your enthusiasm and celebrate the small successful steps as they wander out into that unknown musical world with you in the lead. It is a self perpetuating cycle. You teach, students absorb and start to show the passion, others notice and want to become part of a group with so much energy!|
I wish you well as you wander out into the world to ignite the fires in these young people. Share your passion, the rest will follow!!