Alone at last  

somf1963 54M
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8/3/2006 1:19 pm

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8/10/2006 2:46 pm

Alone at last

I wrote this title almost as a joke.Because in a lot of ways I don't want to be alone.But in some ways I do.Anyone who has been married for any length of time and then is alone knows what I mean.Now you don't have to answer to anyone.Especial if they are of a jealous nature.When you find it hard to even go to the store without being accused of fucking the clerk behind the counter. But now after three years alone I miss having someone to share the holidays with.And special moments with that two acquire after time together.Moments of pain when you need a shoulder or moments of happiness that can only be shared with a lover.Well this was my begging.I tend to write alot so I'll probable write more later.

2daycowboywanted 45F

8/3/2006 1:46 pm

Well cheer up things could be worse and you could have the ex back and continue to battle everyday over the silliest things, like the clerk behind the counter.

Until later

somf1963 replies on 8/3/2006 3:15 pm:
No , I won't get her back.She has sense passed away.Thank you for reading me though

Etherealbreeze 54F

8/3/2006 2:43 pm

I know the feeling well, only I would have said "at alone at last"! I was an acquisition, a show case, a status symbol...loll. But, I was never me!I was a good wife, a lover, a mother, a hostess, an excellent orator...I was just never me![I was alone because I was not me!I was a player on his stage, there to make him stand out...but, I was not me!Then one day, he noticed how people smiled as I walked by, at me!He realized that he'd created a monster, and then began the jealous scenes, the rantings and ravings, the falsities...but, still it was not about me!He began to notice that he was no longer Mr. so and so, he'd become my so and so...loll.
You see, I'd finally become me!I was no longer on a stage, there was no more falsity, nor her!! Instead, there was me and I was well liked and respected for me!
I have now been alone for seven years, by choice. But, I'm not lonely, for now, I am me.
Moral, none really, except maybe that it's time you were you. I assure you the next relationship will be better for the knowing of thine own self.
Good luck, on the path........


I am Roz , a rose that's ephemeral and rare. Yet always here! Hugz!

somf1963 replies on 8/3/2006 3:13 pm:
Thank for the read,It sounds like you know what I went through.I try to always look ahead.

sexyariesgirl 57F

8/5/2006 1:34 pm

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