Tomorrow is the anniversary..  

softnlush 53F
878 posts
9/10/2005 9:55 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Tomorrow is the anniversary..


9/11..A day that forever changed my life and the lives of so many people. It still seems surreal to me really,as if it still is a dream. But no,it is not a dream and here we are 4 years later and every time this day comes,I feel that pain again. The fear again. The day it happened I was on a train heading for work,I saw the 2nd plane hit the tower and my sense of personal safety was forever altered. I never felt that way before that date. I took my life in NY for granted. I had my awesome job,I had my own place,I had my wonderful friends and I had my family and I was secure in that. Amazing how quickly it can really just go away. Amazing still that life in NY will never be the same even now. Yes,they are re building at the same spot. Some think it is a good idea, the old " let them see they cannot sink us" some of us,me included, feel that space should remain what it is now,sacred ground..thousands lost their lives there. Remember it well never forget. It could have been me,it could have been you. If not for a twist of fate that morning I could very well have been crushed inside a bus as it passed the towers,that was my usual mode of getting to work but I decided to take the train instead. I remember the next day looking for my usual bus driver and not seeing him only to see him a week later,he was on vacation..thank god..but he said a couple of buses were destroyed and I did not ask another question. I remember so much of that day and my feelings as it happened,first shock,then anger,then sadness and all consuming fear..it took 2 yrs before I could even raise my eyes on the train as it passed over the bridge and look upon where my towers once stood..I never looked out or up again for 2 yrs..that is fucked up ya know? I moved to the Northwest territories of Canada to run away from my fear (ok I did it because I loved this man but I did not think twice about leaving my home after 9/11)only to watch the news when we invaded Iraq while in a place I thought I was safe and I started thinking wild thoughts about what can happen now..I just wish that day never happened..my life would be so different now..back to what I knew and enjoyed,back to having no fear such as this. Back to what I knew and was contented with. I will not be posting this tomorrow as I should because I really think I know where my heart and head is going to be. I am sorry if I downed anyone,but this really was a traumatic experience for me and so many people I had to say something about it. I will try to be more upbeat as we go along..hold your kids,love your friends,rely on them,be nice to our men and women in all uniforms. They are true heroes..never forget 9/11..thanks for reading.

BSKinBC 53M/51F
5 posts
9/10/2005 7:59 pm

Thank you for your post today. Although I live on the opposite side of the continent, and am not an American, I too was touched deeply by the devestation that struck only 4 short years ago. I recall sitting in my home, glued to the television set, in total disbelief, wondering how in the hell anything like that could possibly happen. There is no longer a day that goes by that I do not remember, for we never know if it can happen to us. There are many heros to remember, from the strong men and women that helped with the rescue effort, to the families that lost loved ones. And of course we cannot forget those heros that survived the tragedy to go on to help those that needed help. 9/11 is a day that will live on as though it was yesterday. God bless you all!


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