what else?!!! blog day 3  

snowflake66ny 50F
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11/22/2005 1:52 pm

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what else?!!! blog day 3


Ah the wonderful holiday season is here...yippfuckingee! im going to try to get in the spirit ..it's the hardest year i am sure for my kids without their parents together..even though that wasnt so great either! finally... this year i can be free to be myself..i really hated being put down and ordered around..at the same time i hate the thought that i might not ever really find someone to share my life with..i do date..i did see someone before i even seperated(true confession time) but im pretty sure that was/is just sexual and i start to think arent i special enough for someone to want to be with me? then i have this profile here which may be very lame cause i do enjoy sex a lot...and i sound a bit mary poppins in it..but still i get responses from some guys saying im gonna be in buffalo on this date .."wanna fuck?" i just get really discouraged that they read my profile and then bothered to ask that... i've done the just sex thing..i want to be better then that. at times ive thought im not even sure i care to be here..in life anymore..but my kids need me..and i watched my mom bury a brother this year and she never should have to go through that again...so we keep going and paste a smile on and fluff pillows into an imaginary person next to me in bed as i go to sleep... so i wont feel alone. that's all for now

rm_READYAT432 54M

11/22/2005 3:04 pm

DON'T EVEN THINK THAT WAY LIFE IS FOR LIVING THE END ALLWAYS COMES ON ITS' OWN NO REASON TO HELP IT NOW FOR THE SAYINGS THERES ALLWAYS LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL,DARKEST BEFORE THE DAWN,YADAA YADAA YADAA.THE ONLY FIVE THINGS THAT MATTER ARE LIFE,LIFE,LIFE,LIFE,LIFE.
AND THE OPPTION IS SIMPLY THE EASY WAY OUT CONTINUE TO THE NEXT HORIZON I GUARENTEE THAT IT WILL BE THERE.REMEMBER LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE.
ITS THE ONLY ONE YOU GET.
ENJOY!!!!!!!!!
READY


snowflake66ny 50F

11/22/2005 6:00 pm

thanks ready...cant think that way..as i said i couldnt do that to my fmaily..i was just sharing my thought process. its just a depressing time...im sure you understand that


rm_romeovoid40 62M

11/29/2005 6:57 pm

Hello, dear... I hope things have improved for you. I was just thinking about you and noticing that you haven't posted for awhile.
Hey, take heart... not all men are jerks! Most, but not all...
Post up and let me know how you are, ok?

Jon


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