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An Early Autumn
An Early Autumn
She came to me when my soul was heavy and I needed her touch
But her time by my side could only last so long, a temporary reprieve.
We were worlds apart, the two of us, not born to the same destiny
And soon our worlds would call us home, turn us from our hearts desire.
A summer she lay by my side, her warmth could melt my guilty spirit
She silenced the howls that rage and corrupt beneath my skin.
She challenged my intellect, and delved where no had gone before.
She pushed my limits, and called me when my logic was weak or thin.
She has a destiny about her, we can all see in her a future of greatness
She will travel worlds and do wonders for her talent knows no bounds.
Her focus and her passion will drive those healing hands
She'll seek ways to mend the sick and heal the broken in spirit and body
It is lie to say I do not wish to join her, to have her world become mine,
But hers is a history not yet told, not yet written, nor is it mine to share,
for I shall not anchor her destiny with the weight of another
The weight of one whose time has come and gone.
Instead I will wish her well, a kiss born of the deepest heart
I will encourage her to seek what life has in store for her
A story that is hers to discover, her to make, and hers to live
The journey of a lifetime unfolds before her, and I watch her first steps
She will never know the extent of my feelings and the warmth in my chest
and how I long at her visage which has burned itself into my mind's eye.
She will see my smile as I walk away, my warmest kiss I will give
And she will never know, how it is my soul and love that she takes with her.
My smile will hide the tears that flood inside, the beast that can not rage
The walls of my strength crumble at her passing, fleeting, ever distant smile.
For I was but one in her journey, her life to fill with story and song
but in mine she was the only one. The last one. I fear songs will no longer be sung.
My breathing is heavy, and my eyes swell as she leaves. She thanks me for our time.
I hold back those feelings of loss and pain and shame. She doesn't need to see
what tempest is left in her wake. She smiles and kisses my face.
If my lips could, they would reach out to hold her for an eternity.
She turns and walks away. And inside what once raged now wails in pain
A lament echoing across the eternity of my soul. What words would keep her by my side.
How shallow it has all become. It is all a grey without her light of day.
I desire to call to her, tell her to stay. But my heart knows it is futile...and too late.
How she walks away so easily, so calmly. Can she not hear the cries that call out?
She did not feel what was within my soul. Was it all a game to her?
A summer romance to be cast off at autumn's first wind.
How could I have expected anything more from her who is called back to paradise.
She turns and I see her eyes all welled with tears of hurt, and I can no longer hold mine back.
She runs and throws her arms around my neck, she needed my catch to break her fall.
One moment's delay is all we ask. Heaven can wait a day, an hour, a moment, one moment.
And through the storm raging in our embrace, she whispers, "I love you" as it echoes across our soul.
8/15/2006 5:20 pm
Your writing is very poignant, extremely moving...they remind me of things I have known-never forgotten, but some too painful to keep at the surface. But I'm always a sucker for happy endings...one day I hope I'll find my own. Thank you for sharing these with us.|
8/15/2006 10:51 pm
The merging of two souls, two hearts, two lives is quite a lovely dance to see...I used to envy such deep love in some couples...so rare to witness...You are a real romantic...|
8/16/2006 2:55 am
huhu... how romantic |
8/17/2006 2:47 am
That was just amazing, it really was. |
I have to agree with foreignLover79 in that I felt a lot of emotion whilst reading that.
I feel very much ~ right now at this moment in my life ~ so much of what you have written here...
I am so moved by your writing, I have added you to my watched list