No more being used....  

smirkingdevil 48M
7/16/2006 11:18 pm
No more being used....

Well, last night I did something I've been meaning to do for a while: stop having cyber sex with a certain woman.

I got to know this woman in another country a year ago. She enjoyed role playing over the internet and I was willing to give her what she needed.

Basically, the woman wanted to cyber role play being . Not "brutal ", but still being made to do things she did not want.

Some of the cyber sessions I would go into elaborate detail and indepth storylines, just to have her stop the session with, "I'm bored of this, can we try something different". Ususally an hour would be lost and because of time zones, it would be almost 2:00am for me when we would "restart".

The last few sessions worked great though, once I figured out how to push her buttons. We were almost down to "quicky" times of 15 minutes, start to finish. I then started to make the stories longer in length, but more enjoyable for her.

Just a note: I never masturbated to any of this. For me, it was just an exercise in story telling. The subject matter is taboo, so writing it to someone who enjoys it was somewhat satisfying.

Usually after a session, this person would run off to sleep or something else if we did it during the daytime, her time. She really wanted nothing to do with "me". She only wanted to hear my story and be done.

Well, one day I offered to visit her in her country, since I really did not have any other plans at the time. I had only planned the visit to be a "stop over meeting" while I waited for another flight the following day since she lives in a major airline hub city.

The answer was "no". She was happy with our arrangement the way it was and did not feel it would be a good idea to actually "meet in person".

This put our whole cyber arrangement into a new light for me. I had her on a my IM "friends list" and would always contact her the second I saw her come online. Suddenly, her ID looked somewhat repulsive, so I deleted it. The last two sessions we had, she contacted me, since I had no idea she was online. Those last two sessions were REAL quick, since I no longer wished to do the stories. I pushed her fantasy buttons, she came, that's a wrap. She asked for "seconds" both times, but I would make up an excuse why it was not possible.

Well, last night she contacted me again and wanted to "play". I remembered wanting to tell her I was no longer interested during the previous two sessions, but I had gone ahead anyway.

Last night was different. I told her the truth, that I was no longer interested in playing with her and that I hope she did not take it the "wrong way". I don't know WHY I typed that last part, but she accepted the situation.

I doubt I will ever hear from my "cyber babe" again, which is just fine by me. Now I can get some sleep instead of rack my brain for a good storyline at 1:00am.

rm_meow344 105F
2615 posts
7/17/2006 12:15 am

Sometimes you just cant beat a good night's sleep... lol

smirkingdevil replies on 7/17/2006 12:49 am:
You are correct! I get lots of sleep now. But sadly, my writing had gone kaput! LOL

tracy_de_lacy 105F
9268 posts
7/17/2006 4:46 am

Good for you. No relationship should be one sided whether online or off. You did the right thing. She sounded selfish. I also find it strange that people sometimes don't want to meet. My feeling is that if they don't want to meet it is because they aren't who they say they are. Have you ever seen this 'person' on cam?

Bye everyone, it was a blast

smirkingdevil replies on 7/17/2006 9:05 am:
Well hello Tracy,

Nope. I never saw the woman on cam. That is her profile pic above and the one she used during the chat sessions was even hotter.

My guess is that you are correct in her not representing herself the way she is in real life. There are not many women that look that hot just sitting at home waiting for a cyber date.

tracy_de_lacy 105F
9268 posts
7/17/2006 5:02 am

p.s. I just read through a few of your blogs and I want to say thank you. I enjoyed the read...keep on bloggin

Bye everyone, it was a blast

smirkingdevil replies on 7/17/2006 9:06 am:
You are most welcome and thank you for the compliment!

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