reflection on a summers day  

slightly_sexy8 38F
361 posts
8/21/2005 1:07 pm

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reflection on a summers day

I’ve had a good day today. Not a standard, go down in history as a memorable day but one where I walked and thought, listened, engaged and reflected. I felt lonely today. I can’t remember the last time I felt lonely or if I even ever have before. Not an alone, nobody is around, boring day kind of lonely but a feeling that I wanted something that wasn’t there.

I walked around a marina near where I live. It was such a wonderful sunny day, so many boats and people out on the water and in the cafes along the waterfront. “Are you a happy person?” Those words were ringing in my head after being asked that question this morning.

I have always thought myself happy. I am cheerful and sociable and have wonderful people around me who love me, a job I really like, and work colleagues who I respect and that I have earned the respect of. I spend most of my life having fun, laughing, and enjoying it for all the good things that are in it. So yes, I think I am happy but suddenly I have found that these last few months have been different for me. I am changing. And it’s scary cause I don’t even know what I am looking for anymore. And probably this blog isn’t the place to write about it but I figure no one will ever find my thoughts here, lost amongst the many other searching people.

I loved the words and thoughts I heard today. There was such humour. They will stay with me a long time.

Music - Jack Johnson, In between dreams....

476 posts
8/22/2005 12:13 am

Be comforted that no matter how alone you are someone is always watching you.

rm_being_eros 46M
41 posts
8/22/2005 12:18 am

Perhaps it's simply part of life. Change is always there in life.
And life, the world, the universe, they all move and change in cycles.

Perhaps you're ready to enter a new cycle, sexy8?

And just like throwing a ball into the air, after a time of clarity
and certainty (going up!), there comes a short period of confusion
(slowing down, standing still in the air, what's happening?) as the
cycle turns. But then, once it has turned, clarity sets in again
(going down!).

You sound like such a warm and serene person (and so unlikely to
be found on AdultFriendFinder!) -- I'll bet you'll find your way!

rm_being_eros 46M
41 posts
8/22/2005 12:25 am

Yeah -- I had typed A - F - F, not spelled out.

But this lovely blog system thought it should take over and spell it
out for me -- AdultFriendFinder (TradeMark) (ServiceMark) (Copyright) 2005 alright!

AdultFriendFinder people -- hello? Take it easy OK?

AlbertPrince 57M

8/22/2005 3:56 am

I got some bad news today. You know the money you get from those ATM machines? It comes from your own account!

TheQuietGuy2005 54M
2386 posts
8/22/2005 8:43 am

Eros is right, in my humble opinion: change is constant (except, as Al has said many times, from vending machines).

And change is frightening for most of us: we seem to lose the certainties, our comfort zone, before we realise what we want to replace them. Yet if we look back at all the changes we've been through in the past, we can usually see that it makes some kind of sense! Why should the changes we're going to go through in the present and future be any less sensible?

Always easier to say than to act upon though, isn't it?

Anyway, I hope your searching brings you what you're looking for quickly

slightly_sexy8 38F
314 posts
8/22/2005 12:26 pm

can i put all these responses in one place? i hope so.

timidly unique, i just came across jack johnson but i am certainly a fan now. his music is such fun and relaxing at the same time. makes you want to dance. and me wrong!? hmm, i guess it was bound to happen sometime. but nice point.

bossier, you are starting to sound almost spiritual. which reminds me, i saw something in one of your posts one time that touched on that that i wanted to ask you about. i will find it and ask.

eros, life is like a basketball? it's harder to play the farther you stay away, all those rules, pays to stay in shape if you want to participate fully, all that noise and screaming, it's unpredictable, people running all over the place trying to get the same shot, and usually it's the one who watches closely and sneaks down the middle who get the point. a new cycle? perhaps, as long as it's not a u-turn.

albert, prince of comedy. i've been reading your blog a few days now and it's fun to read. thank you for taking the time to make it. Seems like you have lots of fans.

quiet guy, i've never really been afraid of change. I’ve had a lot of it in my life and actually I quite like it. It’s made me very adaptable. i learned early on the value of family and how easily it is to lose irreplaceable people. i hope you don't mind me saying this but you have an opportunity right now to change something in your life (re the losing the marbles post) which isn't ever going to get any easier than it is right now. I hope that this visit is the best yet. If the dad is anything like the son then I’m sure he’s probably quite a nice, interesting man too.

476 posts
8/22/2005 10:57 pm

I left a response to your comment on my blog. I hope it answers your question.


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