Unfinished Self  

slightly_sexy8 38F
361 posts
9/18/2005 11:39 am

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Unfinished Self

I started reading a new book - The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera. I have only got a few pages in, but I love it already.

I was thinking about a passage today and relating it to myself.

"Yes it was unbearable for him to stay in Zurich imagining Tereza living on her own in Prague.

But how long would he be tortured by compassion? All his life? A year? Or a month? Or only a week?

How could he have known? How could he have gauged it?

Any school boy can do experiments in the physics laboratory to test various scientific hypotheses. But man, because he has only one life to live, cannot conduct experiments to test whether to follow his passion (compassion) or not "

I suppose taking a few risks is the way to be in life, but there are always consequences and emotions to deal with no matter how careful and detached one stays.

Someone told me not so long ago if I didn't take this/a risk, I would regret it for the rest of my life. Part of me feels they might be right, but my head continues to tell me it's not the right risk. Why does life have to be so bloody confusing sometimes?

Other than those melancholic thoughts which seem to reflect only in my writing - I've had a really nice week-end. A bit of growing done.

Music - Eva Cassidy. Fields of Gold.

Image - one of a few of my favourite David Hockney paintings, Model with Unfinished Self Portrait ..


Erik_Bloodaxe 56M

9/18/2005 3:17 pm

Lol....thats odd. I have just finished that book. I have owned it a while. But I decided to read it on holiday. I am sure you'll enjoy it greatly

TheQuietGuy2005 54M
2386 posts
9/18/2005 10:04 pm

Risk is unavoidable. Even locking ourselves behind our door carries risks. After all, all of life is change and change is precisely what brings risk.

The key, according to my teachers, is to know which risks to take. I'm assured that if we listen to our intuition we will know which risks can open doors for us - even where, by definition, there's a chance of things going pear-shaped - and risks which are just plain stupid!

The question is how you get used to listening to your intiution properly - meditation is supposed to be the tool. I'm still working on it and I'll report back in three or four years!

In the meantime, I can't help remembering one thing I was told: fear is my friend - he comes to visit when I'm about to do something exciting and new

rm_being_eros 46M
41 posts
9/19/2005 12:35 am

The Unbearable Lightness doesn't even go as far as 'risk'.
It only goes as far as 'decision'. Even if a decision is not 'risky'
(or perceived as risky), it still carries implications. And we cannot
fully guess the implications, hence rendering decision-making 'light'.

I guess we should be thankful that time travel isn't possible?

Music - how about 'Rewind' (Stereophonics)?

PS: What's a 'nice weekend', sexy8?

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