Too many friends and now this  

shylena256 42F
2608 posts
6/19/2006 9:51 am

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Too many friends and now this

I had cancer and the chemo made me horny. I didn't want to talk about this to my friends and anyway I was sick of their weird looks (YOU try getting cancer - people start looking at you as if you were a wet kitten....but my WET KITTY was a whole nother story that I didn't want pity for).
I needed a place to anonymously get the fuck away from my friends.
So I showed up here looking for erotic chat.
This place sucks for that, that's all there is to it.
So I changed my game and did erotic photos... I learned to see all 220lbs of me as sexy..WHAT A GIFT!

But as a feminist it is hard to find the right guy to look at your body when you are opposed to being seen only as a fucktoy. (Weird but true - just deal with it - I did)

So I changed my approach again and again.

Now I have actually done something that I scoffed at the few weeks I was stuck in the eternal link jungle that ONLY led me here...
I have made friends on here.

I love lurking too, and now I figured out the blogs and found INTELLIGENT LIFE on AdultFriendFinder.

Also over the months lots of friends, about 10 that I think I will really keep in touch with in my own sporadic way.

Ever live in a town for years and if you decide to move all the cool people come out of the woodwork?

That's how I feel.

Soon I will start working again and will be disappeared for probably weeks on end if not forever.

Just thought I'd say I noticed that here too.
In the last few weeks I keep seeing more and more people that seem to be on or near my wavelength.

I wrote a song about this phenomenon years ago.
In it I sing: "People float like clouds on the wind and I reach out to hold and find I can't pocket them, people float like songs on the wind, I reach out..."

Happy floating fellow readers and experiencers.

I am not going for a few weeks yet but I had this thought now.

And anyway life is so transitory, I can't say as I will be back... but slowly I think this place may be a hard habit to break.

dickbanditman 32M
25 posts
6/19/2006 10:25 am

hey i really appreciated reading that. Its not often especially from this site that one has the chance to read something of actual insight and or significant for that matter because far too often people including myself post up anything just to pass time as in my case. but u really seem down to earth and i wish u luck with everything that you may experiance in life. I would like to talk more with you alonzo underscore is where i can be reached

rm_DaphneR 58F
7938 posts
6/19/2006 12:31 pm

Well if you go, you can always wander back in here. There's a lot of us that hang out just for shits 'n giggles. This is a great place to come and bitch about work if you need to.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.

shylena256 42F
1967 posts
6/19/2006 1:21 pm

Katey..sister hugs.

Dickbanditman make your way over to fireslide and Rdy2try4 's blogs ASAP... then report back to me.

shylena256 42F
1967 posts
6/20/2006 12:14 am

Daphne-- I HOPE I am lucky and still love my work.
I had a career change a couple years back that got me out of the office.

puntachueca 105M

6/20/2006 3:46 am

I was also surprised at the intelligent life discovered in blogland. Last thing I would have expected on this "friendly sex swap meet site".

And have not been "de-feeted" by the cancer thing. We get to a certain age, something's going to try and get us. Then we start swapping stories about this or that treatment. They keep chopping little pieces off cancer.

rm_sidekick054 62M
5 posts
6/21/2006 4:21 am

I hope all goes well for you. My dad had cancer also but thank god he's alright now. Best of Luck

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