One beautiful rose and one hell of a dragon  

shyknight2005 42M
121 posts
12/29/2005 10:34 pm

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One beautiful rose and one hell of a dragon

Backmusic: mix of Enya and Metallica...any songs by

Ok. I know its been forever since my last posting, but I have a legitimate excuse I think...well, a few actually. Besides, its been raining here for a week straight, I have been housesitting on a farm for that long with a crappy computer (Mac) and I am bored to death here goes...

Finally found a woman locally who is exactly what I need in my life. She is part of a (C), in a very open marriage. It took a while for me to flick that switch in my head that said it was ok, but she has made me feel very comfortable with the situation, and even more surprisingly, so has the husband. They have basically welcomed me into their relationship with open arms. She is a caring, loving, passionate woman who has brought intimacy and the joy of simple human touch back into my life. She has also helped me immensely through some recent difficult times, and I am very grateful to her. Thanx, milady

Now the dragon....

Not sure if this is the proper place to talk about this kind of stuff, but since its the only place I have to blog and I have alot of friends here, I should let them know whats going on...

2 weeks ago my mother went to ER for emergency appendicitis. While they did a cat scan to find out what was wrong, the docs found masses in her lungs and brain.

The brain is not that bad actually...should be taken care of ok with a few weeks of radiation treatment.

The lungs are large-cell carcinomas. Terminal.

The docs give her about 4 months without chemo, 1 year with. And she is stubborn Kansas stock. Wont chose the chemo.

So. Thats where I have been last 2 weeks. Dealing. Trying to support my dad. Things have changed 360 degrees in my family. Now we are more open emotionally, even if not been home much to talk about things. Christmas was sad...think we all figured it would be the last one. Dad took lots of pictures with 2 cameras lol....

Anyways, thats my dragons and roses. My rose has been helping me out alot with what is happening, and I am very thankful. Not sure I could have made it alone.

So...the past few months have definately been a roller coaster....friendship, betrayal, intimacy, horror, depression, attraction...gods, think its been the most nerve-wracking time of my life lol...and the next year is going to be even wilder lol.

As the Chinese say...May you live in interesting times...just hope I can make it

Thanx to my friends for being there and hope you all have a good and safe New Year. Be happy, be naked, drive sober, and maybe try all 3 at same time

Fairy_Gothmother 41F

12/30/2005 12:12 am

I'm so sorry, sweetie... *HUG*

Fox4aKnight1 43F

12/31/2005 10:52 am

hugssssss and kisses luv sweet and hugs and kisses to yuor Rose ..........I am so glad she was there to help you out.

hugs and Kisses,

wickedelements 49F

1/4/2006 4:16 pm

Sorry to hear about your mom and glad you have found someone to care about and who cares about you. Shes a very lucky lady indeed to have you in her life as well.. Hugs


shyknight2005 42M
163 posts
1/13/2006 10:50 pm

Thank you all for your an update, mom has just finished radiation treatments today...hopefully they will help delay the effects of the lung cancer, and clear the tumors in the brain...

I appreciate the support from everyone, and a special thank you to milady new

wickedelements 49F

1/15/2006 12:36 pm

So glad to hear your mom got through treatment okay... you are one of the good guys and a real sweetheart... hugs and hope to see you soon...sure could use a backrub... sigh

demonicsexkitten 41F
10671 posts
1/16/2006 2:00 am

Just read your post... but I knew of your mom before you posted (not the new lady though). *HUGS* to you. Will talk to u later

bitterbitch6 41F
4 posts
1/20/2006 10:32 pm

You are a good person, and I was wrong for what I did to you. I do not want, because I do not deserve, your forgiveness. I'm so sorry. I know the vienna thing was for me, but you have to break it down a bit, cause I don't know what the kiwi thing means. I know it was an insult, but I don't get it.

I'm sorry about everything. I made a big mistake. I'm happy for you in your new relationship, and believe me when I tell you sometimes married people are the best way to go.

I got burned by your old old world girl. She scared me when she told me she hacked into your email and erased everything. I am making efforts to remove those types of people from my life. I accidentally sent a list of all my contacts to all my contacts, and she proceeded to contact every all my friends and relatives. I couldn't believe what they said she ...anyway. Talk about your Karma.

I'm sorry to hear about your mother. My father died 5 days before Christmas. I don't know if you want my prayers or not, but I will be praying for her. I firmly believe that she shouldn't take the chemo. My father did and wilted in a matter of two weeks. He died here at home. Look up a man called Dr. Rath on the computer, he talks about healing through Vitamin C and other natural things. I hope it helps.

I have learned my lesson. When you do bad things to people, just to try and make friends, it bites you in the ass. I lost my best friend (my dad), I think, because of it. Well, that and he really missed my mother.

I only ask forgiveness for not being the lady I should have been, because what I did was very...common of me.

I wish you and yours peace, and all the happiness you can ever have in the future..

bitterbitch6 41F
4 posts
1/21/2006 12:19 am

I just got the kiwi thing! That's a good one. I thought it was something to do with lesbians or something because...oh, nevermind.

Have a good one


shyknight2005 42M
163 posts
1/23/2006 9:16 pm

Thank you bitter for your really does mean alot to me. And I am sorry to hear about your father. I only knew him for a brief time but he was a very nice man. Hope you get through this dark time ok and find happiness at the end.

smartnsexy1968 48F
1 post
1/27/2006 4:30 pm

Sorry to hear about your mom. I've had some really hard times since we last talked also. you have my regular e-mail. I would love to hear from you and I offer you my support. Your friend and so much more,,,,kat

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