Excuses  

shychurchmouse 49F
418 posts
9/7/2006 6:25 am

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4/12/2007 7:24 pm

Excuses


It has been 21 days since he came home. Not that I was expecting too much from him but I so expected more from me.

I have not done anything to change me or my life.

I will say though that my ex returning did give others a reason to move on with their life. My best friend realized her life was going to be just like mine if she didn't do something about it. Good for her, although I miss her dearly.

It gave my latest "buddy" a reason to replace me. I imagine it was only a matter of time. I will openly admit that I feel a great sense of abandonment when I needed a friend most. Not to mention the fact that he was an awesome lover.

I have however; started talking to an ex lover a lot more. I relayed a comment that my sister made to me regarding my ex husband; "You made your bed" To which he replied "Buy a new bed".

So for now I will sleep in my old bed and wonder about the choices I have made. Hopefully I can figure out why I made them and choose not to make the same choices again.

Who knows maybe next week I will look at new beds.

smackyman 45M
3843 posts
9/9/2006 2:46 am

I've got to ask you - what more were you expecting from yourself? Did you expect that accepting the ex back would cause you to change somehow?
And did the best friend off herself? No need for her to run away from you...

PS - you won't have to pay a dime for a new bed...you're cute that way...other then maybe the stress of sending the ex back on his way??


shychurchmouse 49F
239 posts
9/12/2006 4:06 am

smacky hi hun, I always except more from myself. I am looking at my life and trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up (to return to school). No my best friend is just way to busy now. And the ex is here atleast until Nov. but not so sure I will be . Maybe I will win the lottery and go see Canada.


smackyman 45M
3843 posts
9/13/2006 9:16 pm

I say be a pilot! Then you can get to Canada much quicker...

I don't know much about it all - I'm just a voice in the crowd - but you don't seem happy. I like what you are doing with going back to school. Take some time and take care of yourself.
You gave this experiment a try and it sounds like it didn't work. And that is okay - after all, you did give it a try...


shychurchmouse 49F
239 posts
9/14/2006 5:27 am

Smacky awww thanks hun. I will be alright just a bumpy spot in the road of life.


shychurchmouse 49F
239 posts
11/12/2006 8:29 am

jtsa sory I hadn't checked this for awhile. Sometimes I just have nothing to blog about. And no worries about over stepping boundaries here.


rm_unzipme48 63M/54F
19 posts
4/11/2007 6:15 pm

Sis,
If not a new bed,maybe some different sheets???? Someday I know you will get tired of him trampling on your heart....It is a very warm,loving,giving,wonderful heart...You give it back to him too easily,and he takes advantage of that,and hurts you time and time again....
I have never given up on you,nor doI plan to start now,but damn girl,I luv when your happy and smiling,and he robs that from us...
luv ya sis


shychurchmouse 49F
239 posts
4/12/2007 7:24 pm

Sis, atleast new sheets. No worries now though mom,842 has to worry about changing the sheets now. EEEEWWWWWWWW


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